Aqua Louise pov:
I ran out of his room in tears as my sight felt blurry. I couldn’t walk more as my feet suddenly felt heavy. I tried my best to control my emotions but I couldn’t . It hurt so much and it’s more than I expected. How could he say that to me! After taking away my dignity in the cruelest way. I didn’t complain. I accepted all his harshness and disrespectful aptitude towards me all because my heart aches for him. I thou… I thought that he will start to see my life for him if we have sex but no! It only worsens. I didn’t know I couldn’t satisfy him. How will I get him to love me then?… I know I had no experience on how it’s done but I’m willing to learn because of him.
I held onto the railings as I couldn’t walk, I thought about what I said to him and I knew I meant none of them. I sighed and cleaned my tears deciding to meet him tomorrow. Maybe he can teach me how to do that. I smiled and started to limp. I couldn’t walk. I injured my ankle and my whole body is in pain. I was able to reach my room. I entered and closed the door behind me as I rushed into the bathroom. I stripped off my clothes and decided to take a long bath. I rolled on the floor and did a lot of things he did to me.
I stayed in the shower for a long time. After which I came out and wore my nightie, I rubbed some pain relief and drank some before climbing on the bed knowing that the pain will reduce before tomorrow. I wince in pain as I try to climb onto the bed. My whole body is like a burning fire. I set my alarm to wake me up as I covered myself with the duvet before I fell asleep.
I woke up with the sound of my alarm blaring in my ears, I sighed and turned it off. I walk down lazily from my bed and just like I expected the gains were all gone and I’m now free to walk as freely as I want. I walked into the bathroom and did my morning business only to come out in towels and see Diamond pressing my phone. I ignored her and walked toward my closet and grabbed my maid’s uniform and hung them. I wore it after applying my body cream.
“So how did it go yesterday?” Diamond ask expecting to get a gist from me but I sighed in disappointment
“I don’t want to talk about it,” I said to her and she nodded. One of the reasons why I like her. She’s so understanding and knows when and when not to press or argue things further. She just went back to pressing my phone while preparing.
Just like since I left home, I’ve always been on my phone even though I know that my parents don’t care or have my number but I was still praying and hoping they get worried for a second and look for my number. Since I bought this phone I only have one number on it but not it has Diamond and ma Olive. Not even my own mother bothered to have my number. I signed knowing I’ve been thinking too much lately.
“I’m ready….” I shouted and Diamond sprang up from the bed. She dropped my phone on the bed and we walked out.
We were so engrossed in our chatting that we didn’t see the Aloha coming with the betta. We almost went into them when I heard his voice.
“For once can you stop being a clumsy maid” The Alpha spat out in hatred. I sighed and tightened my hold on Diamond, she noticed it and rubbed my finger unnoticed.
“Let’s go” I urged Diamond pulling her along
“Stop” He ordered and we halted on our step but do not come back
“The next time I see you in this annoying cloth I’d rip it off your body and can you stop coming to the dining, your presence alone irritates me” He concluded and walked out looking at me in disgust.
I finally let out my tears, as I choked on them. I scratched down on the floor as I covered my mouth in shame, I couldn’t walk as my leg suddenly felt heavy.
“Come on Aqua don’t give him the satisfaction of seeing you in tears, show him you’re stronger than this” Diamond urges me, I look at her feeling so thankful to the moon goddess knowing that I must have done something good to be given a friend like her. I smiled and stood up, I wiped my tears as we made our way to the kitchen.
“Good morning ma Olive” We both greeted each other at the same time, she smiled and walked towards us as she kissed your cheek. Making me wonder about the amount of kindness she shows to us. She’s the mother I never had, she made me feel what it’s like to have a mother, and not for once did I regret it.
I walked towards those packing food in the fridge and I joined them. I watch as others pack food and drink to serve the royals and thanks to the moon goddess ma Olive already left. I watched as they left for the dining and when Diamond came to me, I shook my head negatively at her and she nodded understanding my reasons, she kissed my cheeks and left. I was alone in the kitchen and when I had nothing to do I took some clean equipment and walked to the Alpha”s chamber.
I started the cleaning hurriedly as I don’t want him to see and get upset. He said my presence irritates him and I don’t want him to feel irritated. I hurried to the bathroom and made sure to serve his wine.
I walked straight to his study and cleaned it after which I proceeded to the room happy that I’m about to finish without him coming in. I was arranging his bed when the door opened, and he came in, in his full glory. I stilled in my position and bit my lower lip not ready for what he’s about to say. I went back to arranging bed
“Stop that” Came his deep angry voice and I stopped immediately fearing what he would do now.
I face the ground as I see him look at me intently.
“Do you love me?’ He ask and my head snapped to look at him
“Yes…” I nodded vigorously and happily
“Why?” He asks, I scratch my hair shyly.
“Because you’re my mate, ” I muttered happily.
“Mmmm, that’s good because it will only happen in your dream,” He said and I turned to look at him only to see his expression unreadable. I sighed, what was I expecting? to get a hug?.
Building up some courage
“What can I do to make you love me?” I ask expectantly, he smirks and tucks his hand in his pocket
“I hate you, I hate your presence, I hate the air you breathe in, the floor you step on, and most especially, I hate your existence,” He said like it’s nothing. I couldn’t walk, I felt hypnotized, my head spun and I suddenly felt dizzy and wanted to fall but I held on to the bed stand for support. I felt tears dripping down like an ocean and my sight became blurred. I saw him draw nearer and I tried my best to move out but he blocked me.
He grabbed my face harshly and look into my eyes,
“Do you know what I wish for?” He asks and I shake my head negatively
“I wish you just die and live my life, just die” He yelled. I sighed and wipe my tears
“Why didn’t you tell me this at first,” I ask repeatedly
“You don’t have the right to question me”
“Fine I will live if that’s what you want okay… you don’t have to hate me that much I’m a living dead anyway nobody ever loved me,” I said with my hands on my chest as tears drip down
“It has always been me since I was a kid, I fend for myself, I was thrown away at such a young age, I slept on the street much night, I go to bed on empty stomach, I endured cold sleeping under the rain, I got nobody even at my lowest point and till now, if me living will bring back your happiness, you don’t need to worry because after this I will disappear from your life, your house and from being your mate, I’m used to people treating me like some garbage, sorry for intruding in your life I didn’t mean it and sorry for giving you my ugly body, I never meant to annoy” I turned around and walk away.
*Hey guys if you cried in this episode let me see your hand and which part made you cry”