I am worried, and I pity him so much. Why did he have to suffer too much because of me?
I have a lot of regrets but I know there is no turning back. What happened did happened and my only way to make up for all those mistakes is to do better.
During my visit in the frost wolf territory, I surprised them all especially my brother Alex. We discussed on how will things possibly change now that I am back.
I told him to retain in the position for becoming our tribes King, I cannot decide not until Kolten wakes up. I am not looking into settling for a position this time. Mine is to make sure that Kolten and Hale are okay.
Being very tired from my journey, I dozed from sitting in the reclining chair beside Kolten’s bed.
“I hate you, I do and I always will! I will never forgive you. you don’t deserve to be happy nor have a family of your own.” Kolten was holding the load of his emotions while yelling. I suddenly opened my eyes when I heard him talking.
I rushed to him, but I was dismayed when he closed his eyes again. I think he is having a dream. But wait, is that not a good sign? He is waking up? He just spoke, which means he is waking up anytime from now.
I held his hand and rubbed it. Pulled it towards my chest and said, “Kolten, please wake up. And when you do, please be healthy. I do not know how to confidently face you, I have no courage to do. But I don’t mind, even if you get mad at me. even if you push me away, I will stay. I will forever stay beside you. I love you.”
My tears slowly ran down. I couldn’t hold it. I cannot be fake this time. My heart is aching. And releasing my tears might help.
Kolten’s POV
My dream woke me up, it is really hard, even in my dreams the past cannot escape, it still keeps coming and coming.
I recognize the voice that I just heard, it is Samuel’s.
How I wish to open my eyes, let him know that I am awake and that I can hear him. But I am not sure if it is really the good time to let him know that I am awake. Even though I gave myself for his recovery three years ago, I don’t really know if it is time to accept him despite everything.
From all the pains and heartaches, he gave me, I am not sure if being together, accepting him will benefit us. Will I be really happy? Can I really forget everything?
Will we be good together? Will it benefit both him and my clan?
I don’t know, I am not sure. I will sleep for now, think of the best decision to make.
I really wanted to wake up, I miss him and my son, but I don’t want to rush things this time.
It is really hard to always let heart come first. There is a lot to consider.
Not now Kolten, close your eyes and pretend that you are still asleep.
SAMUEL’S POV
Kolten is not responding. I am losing hope that he will wake up very soon. I really wanted to make up with him. I have made my mind, I will come clean to him with every single detail I will admit.
I will not deny anything, and most of all. I will admit to him that I have loved him from the very start.
I just hope he wakes up real soon.
Kolten’s pov
I calculated everything, and I have a plan now. I will wake up but will pretend to be in amnesia. I will give Samuel the chance to see if he really cared about me, and if up to now that he woke up from near death he will really come clean.
I will wake pretend and test him, this will be the last chance I will give him, the last chance I will give to myself. I will trust my instinct now.
I slowly opened my eyes.
This is the beginning of my pretention.
I slowly opened my eyes.
“Kolten? You are finally awake! How are you feeling? Are you hurting somewhere?”
Samuel’s questions are nonstop.
I didn’t talk. I just roamed my eyes around the place. I am trying to see if our son Hale is here.
“Are you hungry? Do you want to eat something? Do you need anything? Will I call your fathers here? Our son?”
I shook my head then I started pretending.
“Who are you?” I asked, trying my best to play my game to not get caught.
His expression suddenly changed, if I am not mistaken, I saw pain in his eyes.
“Kolten, can you not recognize me? I am Samuel, you saved my life, and you just woke up from your long sleep.”
He continued.
“I’m sorry but I don’t know you, what about me, who am I?” I continued.
“You cannot recognize me?” he asked.
I nodded.
He stood up, went to talk to someone at the door.
Then in a few moment, my fathers and my son can be seen walking towards me.
“Father!” my Hale ran to me, he hugged me very tight. I miss him so much, I wanted to ask him how he has been for the years that I was not around. He looks a little bit grown up.
I have no choice but to go on pretending, I will have to stand my ground if I really want to make sure that I won’t regret any decisions I will make.
It is better this way, than to regret one day. I am done oh Samuel, I have trusted him several times already, but the trust I gave him were taken for granted.
This is for me is the best and the most practical decision for now.
“Son, are you okay? Your son is talking to you.” My father Patrick looked in my eyes.
“Who are you?” I asked. He frowned. Of course, him being a priest can tell what condition I have now.
I just hope he understood what I meant with my wink.
His face still looked confused but he did not hesitate to ask me more.
“I think he is suffering from amnesia again.” Samuel interrupted.
My father, the King’s excitement was changed and now looks bothered.
“How is that possible?” King continued.
Patrick’s pov
Kolten is in good shape. He is not in the state of amnesia, but why is he pretending? Is there something he wants to do? Whatever that is, I will leave it to him.
Whatever his reason maybe, I am sure that it is for the better.
I have to stop Elvis from his questions. He might cause trouble to Kolten’s plan.
“In my understanding, Kolten seem to suffer from amnesia again. I am not sure of what’s the cause but I will do my best to make him recover soon. So hale, sorry that your father cannot recognize you for now. Don’t worry, he will recover soon and things will go back in place.”
Hale who looked offended ran to his father Samuel and hugged him. I don’t like seeing this, I feel sorry for Hale. But what can I do, I cannot question Kolten if his plan is for a better thing.
“Does this mean it will take him time to get win his memories back?” Samuel sadly asked.
I nodded. It is the only answer I can give.
“So I think for now, it is better for you to return to your clan and do your duties. When Kolten regains his memory, I am sure he will find his way to see you and settle accounts.”
I saw pain in Samuels’s eyes while I was talking. I somehow pity him.
“No Patrick, I will not leave him alone. Allow me to take care of him until he comes back to us. Please give me the chance to make things up with him by taking care of him while he needs me.”
Samuel looked at me pleading while he is cuddling his son.
“If that is what you want, I cannot stop you.” I answered then headed outside. I cannot stand the scenario. I cannot go on lying without me knowing why I have to do it for Kolten.
Elvis followed me.
When we arrived at the altar Elvis sat down worried.
“Why does Kolten has to go through a lot?” He tossed his hands to the air.
So he believes Kolten’s drama too.