They say if you keep things to yourself, they bottle up until they finally explode. Whether it is like a volcano erupting or fireworks igniting, which ever, both leave you with a burning in your hands.
So is keeping secrets, secrets that aren’t yours. How do you confront someone to let go of a demon, well the only way it normally happens are in a big old fat argument.
Does Skye have a secret? Well she has still not explained her answer. Who did she kiss? And why?
It is our last day at the cabin and I have to know. I cannot keep up with this tension in my body.
We sitting outside by the swings.
Damon ~”Baby.”
Skye ~”Yes Damie?”
Damon ~”I need to ask you a question but please do not get mad at me.”
Skye ~”I am already instantly mad just hearing you say that.”
Damon ~”I don’t see how you can say that if I have not done anything wrong.”
Skye ~”So I guess it is me then?”
Damon ~”Why are you getting so upset?”
Skye ~”Just ask your question Damon.”
Damon ~”Who did you kiss? Mason or Brody?”
Skye ~”It was Mason.”
Damon ~”When?”
Skye ~”Just before I went away. I bumped into him at the club, Brody was not there and you where hanging around with Tajsa.”
Damon ~”What type of kiss was it?”
Skye ~”It was full on tongue.”
Damon ~”Okay, I don’t see how you could have come to me then and give me shit about Tajsa when your fucking lips were all over my friend. I mean you came and attack me for jumping from you to Tajsa when you go and do the exact thing. How the fuck is that even fair.”
Skye ~”It was a mistake Damon.”
Damon ~”It is ok for you to be a mistake but unacceptable when it comes to me. Talking about double standards. And how long did it carry on for?”
Skye ~”Was just that one night.”
Damon ~”A whole damn night?”
Skye ~”Yes Damon, a whole damn night.”
Damon ~”And you did not think it was important to tell me?”
Skye ~”Just like you were going to tell me about Tajsa.”
Damon ~”Why does that woman Alexa even know and not me?”
Skye ~”I was drunk when I told her.”
Damon ~”It seems like you do a lot of things when you are drunk.”
Skye ~”What is that supposed to mean?”
Damon ~”Figure it out.”
Skye ~”That is a very childish answer.”
Damon ~”Well we all are acting like a bunch of children after all.”
Skye ~”You are such an asshole. What are you going to do to Mason now?”
Damon ~”Why do you care so much?”
Skye ~”Because the guy has been through a lot.”
Damon ~”So have I Skye, so have I.”
I stand up from the swing and head for the house. We are leaving in an hour, I still need to shower and pack.
An hour later we are all ready and loaded to leave. It was an amazing weekend, Yes until I had to hear my girlfriend kissed my best friend. We all are standing with our drinks in our hands, waiting for Brody to lock up and come down to the drive way. Oh how I want to throw this bottle at Mason’s head. Ya, I know it is totally immature but really now can this fucking between friends and girlfriends in this group stop. It like one sick ass scene out some porno.
Mason ~”Damon.”
Damon ~”Did I ask you to speak to me?”
Mason ~”What is that supposed to mean?”
Damon ~”Did… I… said… I… wanted… to… speak… to… you?”
Mason ~”Who pissed on your battery?”
Damon ~”The only person that I am talking to.”
Mason ~”Then don’t talk to me then.”
Damon ~”That is what I said to you in the first place.”
Mason ~”You are being a dick.”
Damon ~”Is that what you were thinking of when you were kissing my girlfriend? Your dick?”
Skye ~”Damon cut it out now, you don’t need to discuss this in front of every one.”
Damon ~”Everyone knows already.”
Brody ~”Except me.”
Damon ~”Let’s just get home, you can sit in the back with your girlfriends.”
Joelle ~”Hey I hope you not talking about me?”
Damon ~”No Joelle but I will be careful of him.”
Skye ~”You really a jerk sometimes.”
Damon ~”I really do try my best.”
The whole damn drive is a total nightmare. Everybody grinding my ass saying that I am over reacting. Like she did it because I did. Now really are we a bunch of immature teenagers playing tit for tat. Maybe don’t answer that.
I know that I am not really that mad at her. After all the bunch of immature young adults, that is the only nicest word that I can find right now, after all… and there I forget my sentence. I guess what I am trying to say is all I want to do is make her sweat a little bit. Not too long, just enough to make her beg for my forgiveness, as if that is going to happen. Hey a man can only dream.
We are the first to get dropped off. Even though I did not drive, the drive was exhausting. It does take a lot out of you to be a jerk.
Damon ~”Are you fetching the dogs or must I?”
Skye ~”I will do it.”
Damon ~”Good, I am not in the mood for your rude sister.”
Skye ~”She is not rude.”
Damon ~”Ya, you could have fooled me there.”
Skye ~”You are such…”
Damon ~”A jerk, yes I know. Now if you will excuse me I am going to lay down if you don’t need me for anything.”
I take my own rude ass and go to unpack my suitcase and lay down on bed for a while.
Why has that angry part of me not taken Mason apart, I mean he kissed my girlfriend. I would like to believe that I have grown up but I hear so many of you say not a chance. What does it mean when you say that one is grown up? You handle situations like this better? Oh definitely, but am I not carrying on like a spiteful child. You also don’t fuck around no more? Tajsa is just a friend, I am so not fucking around with her, or am I?
Which reminds me I have not phoned her. I take my phone from the bed side table and dial her number.
Damon ~”Hey babe.”
Tajsa ~”Hey, how did your weekend turn out?”
Damon ~”Apart from that women Alexa that creeped the shit out of me, it went great.”
Tajsa ~”Ya, Mason told me about her, he phone me about an hour ago.”
Damon ~”I am sure he is satisfied with himself now.”
Tajsa ~”He told me about him and Skye. I totally ripped him a new one. How can he be so stupid?”
Damon ~”Last time I remembered, it takes two to lock lips. What grinds me is she did not tell me.”
Tajsa ~”Just let it go. Don’t upset yourself over bullshit.”
Damon ~”Talking about bullshit. When can I come and see you?”
Tajsa ~”What about tomorrow, unless if you have any meetings.”
Damon ~”Even if I did have, I will cancel them for you.”
Tajsa ~”I bet you say that to all the girls.”
Damon ~”You know there is a song about that?”
Tajsa ~”No it is I bet you say that to all of the boys.”
Damon ~”Same difference.”
Tajsa ~”You always say that when you know you are going to lose an argument.”
Damon ~”You know me too well.”
Tajsa ~”But I am going to see you tomorrow?”
Damon ~”You bet your ass on that.”
I drop the call and put my phone down beside me, I finally drift off into a deep sleep. About three hours later I wake up to a completely dark house, I must have slept through into evening. Why did Skye not wake me up? I look at my feet to find Bella.
Damon ~”Hey girl, where is Max? Why aren’t you two playing? Did Max and his mommy go home? Come let’s go find them.”
I get downstairs but everything is dark, Skye and Max are not anywhere to be seen. Nice going dumb ass, she has given you a solid fuck you. So much for not trying to piss her completely off. I mean, she can get really all up and defensive sometimes. Why does she not say sorry, she did say it was a mistake? But did I hear her say sorry? I don’t think I did. Must I let her cool off? Or must I phone and give in and say I am sorry? I don’t know how that is fair but they say that it works.
I phone from the home phone, I am not about to walk all the way upstairs, my ass is too lazy.
Skye ~”Hey Damon.”
Oooh she is pissed off with me.
Damon ~”Hey baby.”
Skye ~”Sorry I did not stay, I was just not in the mood for an argument.”
Damon ~”It’s ok. I am sorry.”
Skye ~”What are you sorry for?”
Damon ~”Starting this whole fight. I mean, you did say it was a mistake. I of all people should know about mistakes.”
Skye ~”I am sorry for what happened, I should have told you, I just did not want to hurt you.”
Damon ~”It hurts more that you lie about it.”
Skye ~”I am sorry, I promise you more lies.”
Damon ~”No more lies. Talking about not hiding things, I am going to Tajsa tomorrow.”
She goes dead quiet. If she was here then I could have read her face, now all I have is her voice and even that she does not let me hear.
Skye ~”We are supposed to have dinner.”
Damon ~”Oh shit baby, I completely forgot, can we move it to another night?”
Skye ~”I will phone and see if we can change the reservations. I don’t know if we are going to be able to, we waited like amount to get this table booked.”
Damon ~”I am sorry baby, but I don’t want to let Tajsa down.”
Yes I know what that sounds like, I will let my girlfriend down instead of a friend and ex-lover. Really, who should be more important? A friend that will always there? Or a girlfriend that might come and go?
Skye ~”I will speak to you tomorrow.”
Damon ~”Are we all good?”
Skye ~”Yes baby, all is good.”
Damon ~”Baby.”
Skye ~”Yes?”
Damon ~”We can go do something now if you want?”
Skye ~”I am a bit tired. We can speak tomorrow again.”
I drop the call and get with Bella on the couch, Maggie is so going to kill us. I don’t know how she knows, but she just know when she has been on the couch, she is fine with the bed, okay maybe not, but she hates it when she see that Bella has been on the couch.
We both end up sleeping there the whole night. We oversleep horribly because my cell phone that is supposed to wake me up is upstairs in the room.
I drag my lazy ass up that very stairs to get ready for work, I don’t think I will make coffee with the boys. I don’t have any meetings today and straight after work I will be going through to go see Tajsa.
I am ready to head out the door in half hour.
When I get to the office, Joelle is ready with my latte and a run down of today’s to do list.
Joelle ~”Morning Mr Chase.”
Damon ~”Morning Joelle.”
Joelle ~I have dropped your suits at the cleaners. The department reports are on your desk ready for sign off. Amé is still phoning. There is a nice bouquet of flowers from Skye on your desk. And the office cleaners want to know if they should clear out Tajsa’s old office.”
Damon ~”Tell them if they want to keep their jobs, they do not touch that office. Tajsa will be back once she feels better.”
Joelle ~”Sure Mr Chase.”
I take my coffee and go through to my office. I nearly fall back over on my feet when I see the flowers that Skye sent, it is bright and sunny, screaming good morning. There is a little card with it.
Skye ~”I am sorry.”
Maybe she should kiss my friends more often. Are you fucking insane, that will so not be happening again.
The day goes by in a blur, my mind not focussing much on work, comes three in the afternoon, I decide to call it a day. I am nervous as I climb into my car and head through the city to the open road. The drive to Tajsa is going to take me about an hour and a half.
When I finally get here, that nervousness just grows more intense. What is up with you? Come on this is only Tajsa, it really is not such a big deal. Let’s just pretend we are having dinner like we have had so many times. Ya, the only fucked up thing is where we are
I walk up to the entrance where she is already waiting for me.
Damon ~”Hey babe.”
Tajsa ~”Fuck Damon it is so good to see you.”
Damon ~”Come here and give me a hug.”
I pull her into my tight embrace. I can feel her body tremble as I pull her closer and closer. I know she feels safe but there is that part of her that I can feel that she wants to pull away, that part that remembers how much I have hurt her.
She pulls away and looks me in the eyes, her hair falling all over her face, covering her crying eyes, I slip them behind her ear so that I can see her exposed and completely bear with her feelings. I cup her face in my hands and pull her face closer, then I kiss her, no tongue, no deep passion, just a sensual touch between lips, gentle rubbing and a soft caress. As we press against each other harder, I realize what I am doing, and I stop.
Tajsa ~”Sorry Damon.”
Damon ~”Don’t be sorry Tajsa, I kissed you first.”
Tajsa ~”Come inside, we can go sit at the coffee shop.”
Damon ~”You have a coffee shop here?”
Tajsa ~”There is a pool here too, but it has no water in it. Oh there is even a tennis court.”
Damon ~”So what do you do here the whole day?”
Tajsa ~”We have classes and stuff that teach you how to cope. There is even an arts and crafts class.”
Damon ~”This sounds like being on holiday.”
Tajsa ~”The only shitty part of this holiday is seeing a psychologist. And the food is shit.”
Damon ~”Show me any hospital which does not serve shit food.”
Tajsa ~”At least the coffee shop sells decent cake.”
Damon ~”How are you doing?”
Tajsa ~”I miss home, I still have two more weeks to go in here. I don’t know if I am going to be able to hang on so long.”
Damon ~”I am here for you, we will hang on together. And if we can’t then I buy you out of here.”
Tajsa ~”You know that sounds sick.”
Damon ~”Then I load you in my boot and sneak you out of here.”
Tajsa ~”You have always been so romantic.”
Damon ~”I think you are just the first one that had ever called me that.”
I take her hand in fold my hand over it in a tight grip. How I wish I could take her pain away. Yes I know, I should not be doing any of this, I just can’t help myself. And what if I just want to do it to make her feel better. Does that make me such a bad person?
Damon ~”Put all the shittyness aside and this fucked up place that you in, I still find you beautiful.”
Tajsa ~”Fuck where did that come from?”
Damon ~”I just felt I had to say it.”
Tajsa ~”Oh Damon, you have always been the only man that could make me smile.”
Damon ~”And you and your petites always made me feel good.”
We sit for another two hours just drinking coffee and talking about the good old times, the times before there were feelings more than friendship between us. She is really broken, and yes I am the fuck that broke her and what is even more messed up is that I am the only fuck that can make her feel better.
As I hit the road again, a suffocating feeling grabs onto my heart. Something is wrong, I just hope she has not done anything bad since I left her, my heart would never survive losing her.
Then my phone rings.
It is Amber.
The last thing I need now is this rude bitch’s nonsense. Why is she phoning me anyway? I mean she is worse than Cruella De Ville. Now Damon, play nice, just crab your toys before she can throw them out the cot.
Damon ~”Hi Amber.”
She is crying hysterically, I can barely hear a word coming from her mouth. Between sobs that sound like screams, I can hear only a few words.
Amber ~”Damon it’s, it’s Skye.”
My heart stops, she has not finished her sentence but I know my world is about to get shocked. My world is about to flip in the worst way ever.
Amber ~”Damon, oh it is horrible.”
Damon ~”What is wrong with Skye, Amber?”
Amber ~”Damon she has been in a terrible accident.”
It is as if I stop breathing for a second, everything wants to turn to black. That horrible feeling that something is wrong was not for Tajsa but is for Skye.