What if? What if is a great question, it can change the present and even the future. But what it cannot change is the past that is when you ask yourself why? And even kick yourself under your own ass and if it comes to a woman, smack yourself through your face.
But lucky the woman is around the corner and she has not started yelling yet. It sure as hell is going to happen, I am not sure if she is going to do it right where she stands or when she is storming out of the front door.
But she completely surprises me.
Skye ~”Oh sorry Tajsa, I just want to get Max. He is always running off somewhere.”
She fetches Max from Tajsa that is still only standing in her underwear. The expression on her face is unreadable, I have never seen someone so calm in my life before.
She takes Max and heads out the front door.
Damon ~”Skye wait!”
Skye ~”I should not have come here.”
Damon ~”Please can we just talk?”
Skye ~”I think that we have talked enough.”
Damon ~”I am not going to say it is not what it looks like because it is.”
Skye ~”I only want to know one thing, how long?”
Damon ~”It happened for the first time today.”
Skye ~”So I piss you off and you run into another woman’s arms.”
Damon ~”But you told me that you don’t care about me.”
Skye ~”That is such a lame ass excuse.”
Damon ~”Then what the hell do you want me to tell you? I am going to sit around and wait for a girl that does not know what she wants.”
Skye ~”From where I am standing you seem to be the one that does not know what he wants.”
Damon ~”All I am asking is to be loved, is that so wrong to want? I want to be with a woman that is in love with me, a woman that loves me.”
Skye ~”Well you have got what you want, I know that Tajsa loves you and I know how much you love her too.”
She takes Max under her arm and walks off into the driveway. I am not letting her leave like this, she might have broken my heart but I do not want to break hers.
Damon ~”Skye just fucking wait! Why do you have to be so stubborn?”
Skye ~”What do you want Damon?”
Damon ~”What did you want to talk about?”
Skye ~”I was going to apologise for being so rude to you earlier.”
Damon ~”It’s fine, don’t worry about it, we both have just been tense with everything that has happened.”
Skye ~”I never meant to hurt you like that, I should have stopped when I saw you were actually a nice guy.”
Damon ~”Why don’t you come in? I am sure Bella will be happy to see Max. I don’t want you to drive like this.”
Skye ~”It is going to feel shit awkward.”
Damon ~”It is still Tajsa, come, I am sure she can do with some female company.”
After much convincing she finally agrees to come inside. Yes this is going to feel shit awkward, here are two women that I am both in love with. The one that I rejected just walked in on the one that I chose. Do I wish I chose different? I am going to reserve that answer for later.
Damon ~”Let me go fetch Bella.”
Bella comes rushing from the back and start sniffing Max. Now if humans were just so easy, I don’t mean the sniffing part but the part where you are so carefree. Okay maybe that makes you a slut?
Damon ~”Can I pour you ladies some wine?”
Tajsa ~”Yes please make mine a red.”
Damon ~”And you Skye?”
Skye ~”Mine as well please.”
Damon ~”So has Tajsa told you the good news yet?”
Tajsa ~”Oh baby, you making such a big deal about it.”
Fuck, did she just call me baby, not that I mind but I did tell Skye that she is mine. Oh I don’t think this was such a great idea after all.
Damon ~”Tajsa has been promoted to my new COO.”
Skye ~”Oh that is wonderful, congratulations on that. Is that why you guys are celebrating?”
Damon ~”Ya, I kind of pissed off Brody and Mason already promised him to go to the club.”
Skye ~”I saw that punch, it was not nearly as hard as my smack.”
We all burst out laughing and with that, the tension has finally been broken. Tajsa and I decide not to be all over each other just for the sake of not upsetting her. To be honest… nah I am still reserving my answer.
Much later the evening Skye calls it a night, after unsuccessfully trying to convince her to stay in the guest room, she and Max heads home. Tajsa also not being convinced, makes her own way out the front door.
Damon ~”I will see you at the office tomorrow”
Tajsa ~”Thanks for a lovely evening, I am really sorry about Skye.”
Damon ~”Baby, please don’t worry about that. Send me a text as soon as you get home.”
And with that I am all alone.
What a crazy day that this has been. My head is spinning and it is not from the wine. When I said I am a man that has everything, I did not mean that I wanted more than one woman. Has the universe decided to play its own damn joke on me or has karma got a twin sister.
I can’t sleep at all tonight, I decide to cuddle up with my favorite girl and watch some series until the sun comes up.
After having a light breakfast, I have a long semi cold shower just to keep my body awake. I have a busy day at the office, I need to dress comfortably but still look the look .
I head out the door, today it’s raining so I will have to take my car. As I get to Crazy Beans, I am surprised to find Brody and Mason.
Damon ~”Hey guys.”
Brody ~”Hey bro.”
Mason ~”Hey Damon.”
Damon ~”How was the club?”
Brody ~”Packed as usual, we missed you there. How was your dinner?”
Damon ~”Very interesting.”
Mason ~”What is so interesting about chicken cordon bleu?”
Damon ~”Let’s just say I had some unexpected company.”
Brody ~”You know your dumb ass can’t leave a sentence hanging like that.”
Mason ~”I mean it’s like stopping in a middle of a blowjob.”
Damon ~”I don’t quite see how the two is related.”
Brody ~”Oh excuse him, some blonde sucked all his brain cells outlast night.”
Damon ~”Don’t tell me you finally picked a chick up.”
Mason ~”Hey what about Amber?”
Damon ~”That woman is not a chick, she is a nightmare.”
Mason ~”And that sister?”
Damon ~”That was my unexpected company.”
Brody ~”I would have loved to be a fly on that wall.”
Mason ~”Did the claws come out?”
Damon ~”I have never seen two woman more comfortable together.”
Brody ~”That would make an awesome threesome.”
Damon ~”You ever think Tajsa will share a man.”
Mason ~”And Skye, she don’t seem like one that plays nice.”
Brody ~”You got yourself in a world of trouble.”
Something is totally off with Brody. I mean the man is way too relaxed for someone that just found out his brother hooked up with his ex. We need to talk this out. Really, what is up with me and all the talking?
I signal for Mason to leave us alone for a few minutes.
Mason ~”What do you guys want? This waitress is taking far too long.”
Damon ~”Double espresso.”
Brody ~”Make that two.”
Damon ~”Did you guys have a late night?”
Brody ~”Nah was home at one and you?”
Damon ~”Could not sleep.”
I move my chair a bit away from him just in case he hooks me again.
Damon ~”Listen, I need to apologise, I know that I fucked up but it just happened. I don’t want us to be pissed off at each other.”
Brody ~”It’s okay bro, I should not have fucked up with Jo either. I mean between me and Skye, we practically forced you both into each other’s arms.”
Damon ~”Ya, but still, brothers should not do shit like that to each other.”
Brody ~”Mason is the one that told me that you guys were having dinner, did you fuck her?”
Damon ~”Damn Brody, yes I did.”
Brody ~”Guess we both care about the same woman then.”
Damon ~”Are we okay though?”
Brody ~”Yes of course bro, I don’t want to fight over Tajsa. If she wants to be with you then I respect that. Just don’t break her heart.”
Damon ~”I have a better chance in having mine broken.”
Mason returns to the table with the waitress and our coffee.
Damon ~”Where is the owners today?”
Waitress ~”Jo is off sick, if you ask me she has a hangover.”
Mason ~”Damn girl, you are so spot on.”
Damon ~”And Skye?”
Waitress ~”She has gone away for a while.”
Damon ~”To where? For how long?”
Waitress ~She did not say where but it’s going to be like a month or so.”
Mason ~”Well done Damon, you have officially chase her out of state.”
Brody ~”That’s is for sure a first for you.”
Mason ~”I mean she has really put some distance.”
Brody ~”Did she say she needed space?”
Damon ~”You two are really funny.”
Mason ~”We do try our best.”
Brody ~”We just trying to find the bright side.”
Mason ~”You know bright as in Skye.”
Damon ~”Fuck your jokes are terrible.”
Mason ~”I did not think I was joking.”
Damon ~”Then that is just shit coming out your mouth.”
Brody ~”Please do not ask Tajsa for space.”
Mason ~”Hey, he already moved her to another office.”
Damon ~”You can be so glad I am too tired to smack you.”
Brody ~”Or is there too much space between you?”
Damon ~”You better run.”
Brody ~”Did you just not said you tired?”
Damon ~”You two are going to drive me insane.”
Mason ~”Hey you between two women, you should already be insane.”
Brody ~”How does it feel like being in a female sandwich?”
Damon ~ “You just had to say that, didn’t you?”
Mason ~”I thought that was quite funny.”
Damon ~”I thought you were not making jokes.”
Brody ~”I think this ping pong has made my head spin.”
Damon ~”You only notice that now.”
Brody finishes his coffee and gets up to leave.
Brody ~”Well boys I must go, dad wants to see me, and hopefully he is finally letting mom hand over the reins now.”
Damon ~”Say hello to the old man and your mom. I will see you at the pub later?”
Brody ~”At seven and don’t be late!”
Damon ~”Ja ja, come mister jokester, we have a meeting.”
As we head out the coffee shop I slip the waitress a note.
Damon ~”Please ask Skye to phone me.”
I am now worried about her, did I really run her out of town? Did seeing me with Tajsa ~break her heart? Of course it did you damn idiot.
I take my phone out my pocket, the message that I sent her earlier is undelivered. What have I done? Do I want to answer my question, I am still going to reserve my answer.
As we get to my office, I head on up to my office, expecting to find a chirpy Tajsa, but she is not here either. Don’t tell me that I have also chased her. But then my dumb ass remembers, she is down the hallway now.
I make my way to her new office. I knock on the door and wait for her to let me in.
Tajsa ~”Come in.”
Damon ~”Good morning gorgeous.”
Tajsa ~”Hey stranger. Did you go for coffee with the boys?”
Damon ~”Yes but I could not wait to get here.”
Tajsa ~”I was wondering when you were going to come.”
Damon ~”I can cum for you now if you like.”
My mouth latches onto hers, her sweetness meeting and filling my mouth. My wet tongue slips through her lips, exploring her deeply, the warmth of her mouth and the way she is sucking at my tongue, makes my body shudder. With every brush of our lips, our breathing becomes heavier, I draw our bodies in even closer, I grind my pelvis hard into her waist, I hold her passionately, exploring her mouth deeper with my tongue as if it is the only sustenance that I need.
Tajsa ~”Damon.”
Damon ~”Yes baby?”
Tajsa ~”Your new assistant is watching us.”
Damon ~”Shit, why did you not tell me?”
Tajsa ~”I was waiting for you to notice.”
Damon ~”You know that I am only going to notice you which by the way, you looking fucking hot in that dress.”
Tajsa ~”You know that she can hear you too?”
Damon ~”Fuck, now I feel like an idiot. You might as well introduce me to her.”
We walk over to the waiting area in the corner at reception. There is a beautiful young girl with blonde hair, I’d say about Brody’s age, maybe a year or so younger.
Tajsa ~”Mr Chase, this is your new assistant Joelle.”
Damon ~”Morning Joelle.”
Joelle ~”Morning Mr Chase. I am really looking forward to working with you.”
Damon ~”Likewise Joelle, if Tajsa does not need you, then you can follow me back to my office.”
Tajsa ~”Remember your meeting in an hour Mr Chase.”
Damon ~”Thank you Tajsa.”
I make my way back to my office with Joelle following me. She seems so innocent, a week working with me and she will be ruined for life. Okay not so bad but she surely is going to have to come out of her shell.
Damon ~”Joelle.”
Joelle ~”Yes Mr Chase?”
Damon ~”What coffee would you like?”
Joelle ~”What would you like me to get you Mr Chase?”
Damon ~”I am getting you coffee. What would you like?”
Joelle ~”A latte please Mr Chase.”
I order our coffee and go into my office.
Damon ~”Please come with me, I promise you that I don’t bite.”
Joelle ~ “Sure Mr Chase, should I bring a notepad?”
Damon ~”Yes you may.”
I show her to the couch and sit down across from her.
Damon ~”Okay just I few quick things that I need you to remember for now.”
Joelle ~”Go for it, I am ready.”
Damon ~”What you saw with Tajsa stays between us.”
Joelle ~”My lips are sealed.”
Damon ~”You will meet Mason, he is our CFO and my best friend, he will come in here quite often.”
Joelle ~”Okay, got that, CFO.”
Damon ~”My brother Brody, he does not work here but pops in a lot. Be careful of him, he is a real flirt and an even worse player.”
Joelle ~”Got that, be careful of Brody.”
Damon ~”You will have to take my suits to the cleaners, Maggie my help, refuses to clean then. You do that once a week.”
Joelle ~”Suits, cleaners, once a week.”
Damon ~”I assume you know who I am when it comes to my personal life?”
Joelle ~”I have heard the rumours.”
Damon ~”Well they are all true, I get a shitload calls from woman I don’t know, I do not want to speak to them. Answer their calls politely and take a message.”
Joelle ~”Sure, no crazy psychos.”
Damon ~”Then last, once a week we get latte and petites and sit and chat like we do now.”
Joelle ~”Okay, that is kind of weird but I got that.”
Damon ~”Oh last thing, if Skye ever phones or comes into my office, you immediately buzz me.”
Joelle ~”I will definitely always let in Skye. It is such a beautiful name, I won’t forget it.”
Damon ~”If you want to, you can join us down at the bar later, just as a welcome drink.”
Joelle ~”I think I would like that, thank you Mr Chase.”
Damon ~”As for what goes on in front there, you will have to ask Tajsa. Now if you will excuse me, I have a few calls to make before my meeting.”
She leaves the office and closes the door behind her. I pick up the phone receiver and dial Skye’s number.
It rings.
And rings.
And rings.
It goes to voicemail.
Damon ~”Skye, please phone me.”
I drop the receiver and pick up my cell phone.
I send her a text.
Damon ~”Skye, please phoneme.”
And this is when the realisation sets into me. I think I am ready to answer that question. Did I wish that I chose different?
My answer is yes.
I have made a mistake, but is that not what life is all about? You do and learn, then you do it over again and maybe the second time you would do it right. Who said that my first shot at love will be made on the right decisions? Life is all about second changes, should I get my second chance, I think even though I really messed up, I do deserve it. Now you might think that I don’t but the truth is, don’t you believe you deserve another shot at something?
Yes she is gone and it is all my fault but does this mean that she does care about me after all? Yes it is fucked up that she had to get hurt for me to realise that and I wish that could be a what if moment. The fact is, I am still in love with her and I do not see that it is going away any time soon. If I have to turn the world upside over, I will find her. I will wait for her even if it takes me years. I know now that when I said that she is mine, I really meant it.
But first, I need to speak to Tajsa.
I need to end it.
I just hope that I have not lost a friend.