Four days.
That was my longest relationship if that is what you could have even called it. It was perhaps the best four days of my life and will probably be my last.
Love damn hurts; no wonder there are so many stupid songs about it. If it were not for my last bit of sanity, I would probably have been listening to it.
It has been a day since our big fallout, and it’s been a day since the world has seen me. I have not tried contacting her, and neither has she tried contacting me.
I am standing in the kitchen having my third cup of coffee for this morning. Yes, I had maybe one too many whiskeys last night.
My plans for today, remaining right where I am, under my duvet with Bella, watching reruns of my favorite TV series.
That’s until Maggie shows up.
Maggie ~ “Oh no, you not sitting your ass in front of that TV the whole day.”
Damon ~ “Come on, Maggie, where else must I be sitting my ass?”
Maggie ~ “Not with that dog on the couch like that.”
Damon ~ “I will clean up after her.”
Maggie ~ “No, no, I am cleaning there first. Go make your breakfast or something. Maybe get that lazy ass to go for a run or something.”
Damon ~ “That is exactly what I am trying to avoid. I don’t feel like seeing people.”
Maggie ~ “I am going to take that as an insult.”
Damon ~ “I mean, people on the outside.”
Maggie ~ “This girl breaks your heart, and you sit here feeling sorry for yourself.”
Damon ~ “Just let me feel sorry for myself for one day.”
Maggie ~ “You know it is your own fault, your friends think it is funny to play a joke. So the joke is on you then.”
Damon ~ “I love how much you love me. Just give me a break for one day.”
Maggie ~ “Fine, you and that dog can sit there by the TV, but if she messes, you will clean up.”
Damon ~ “Why don’t you take the day off, take the kids to the park or something?”
Maggie ~ “You just want to get me out the way.”
Damon ~ “I would never.”
Maggie ~ “Stop your lies; it is what got you into this trouble. You must phone this girl and say you are sorry.”
Damon ~ “That is not going to happen. Now get your ass out of here before I change my mind.”
Maggie disappears out the door. I lay back onto the couch and start watching the first episode of the series. Just as I get into the middle, this overwhelming feeling of heartache consumes me. And that is when it happens, I just burst out crying; I mean, really, what the fuck is up with this shit.
I get up to go get a bottle of whiskey; from what I have heard, alcohol is the perfect way to numb the pain. Hopefully, it numbs this other overwhelming urge that could just about burst out my pants this morning.
I’m halfway through the bottle, well on my way to getting completely pissed when Bella starts barking like mad. I swear if this is Skye, I will not open it for her, but as the front door opens, I know it is Tajsa because she is the only other person that has a key.
She sticks her head around the corner.
Tajsa ~ “Is this what your lazy ass has chosen to do today? A message to say you are not coming in would have been great.”
Damon ~ “Shit, babe, I completely forgot about that.”
Tajsa ~ “That is kind of what whiskey does to you so early in the morning.”
She comes to sit down next to me under the blanket.
Tajsa ~ “Scoot on up, let me get under there too.”
She throws her jacket off and kicks her shoes to the corner.
Tajsa ~ “Give me some of that whiskey and tell me why you are sitting here feeling sorry for yourself.”
Damon ~ “You sound exactly like Maggie. So why are you here anyway?”
Tajsa ~ “I was worried about you, and I wanted to come to feel sorry for myself too.”
Damon ~ “What is wrong?”
Tajsa ~ “The asshole did it; he could not keep it in his pants.”
Damon ~ “What did he do?”
Tajsa ~ “He fucked that girl from the coffee shop again; I saw her coming out of his office.”
Damon ~ “What were you doing at his office?”
Tajsa ~ “I was taking him coffee.”
Damon ~ “Oh, babe, I am so sorry.”
She bursts out crying; she is sobbing like I have never heard her cry before. I pull her into my arms and just hold her.
Damon ~ “I am so sorry; I wish I could take your hurt away, my angel.”
She pulls away and looks me into the eyes.
Tajsa ~ “Guess we are both screwed up now.”
Damon ~ “I guess we are.”
I look at her and gently wipe the tears away from her cheeks. And that is when I do it, I kiss her. Our lips meet; they crash together like colliding stars. Her lips are sweet, the taste of the whiskey still lingering on them. I brush my lips against hers; they are soft and warm. My tongue gently strokes over her lips, begging her to part. I bite at her lower lip until she lets me in. The second the tip of my tongue finds her; my body feels like it crumbles.
My tongue slowly starts to devour hers, taking it in inch by inch, sucking her slow. She moans, and an answer, I groan. My tongue is wrapping around her, tasting hers, and rubbing the inside of her cheeks. I am kissing her with so much passion and so much hunger. Our mouths are melted in one, our tongues intertwined together. We are kissing each other and holding each other. I pull back and stare into her eyes, and she stares right back at me.
Damon ~ “Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, I am so sorry Tajsa.”
Tajsa ~ “Shit, fuck, goddammit, we should not have done that.”
Damon ~ “God, that felt so good, but it is so damn wrong.”
Tajsa ~ “Oh god, I wish I can take you. I think I should go.”
Damon ~ “No Tajsa, please wait; I don’t want you to go.”
Tajsa ~ “I will stay, but we can’t do that again.”
Tajsa stays with me for the rest of the day and late into the evening. We order in Chinese and watch reruns of her favorite series. We continue as nothing ever happened. I love her too much to mess up our friendship. That is when it dawns on me that love is looking past your mess-ups and making things work. My question now, is Skye something that I want to make work?
I have a very toss-and-turn restless night, not knowing what I am going to do in the morning. What I do know is that I am tired of hiding, I am getting back into my life, and yes, that means still going to the Crazy Beans.
Early morning at my normal time, I wake up to find Maggie already in the kitchen.
Damon ~ “Did you wet your bed or something?”
Maggie ~ “Damon! You nearly gave this old woman a heart attack.”
Damon ~ “If you old, then I am a teenager.”
Maggie ~ “I see Miss Tajsa was here. Now there is a lovely girl.”
Damon ~ “Don’t you start so early with me? At least Bella stayed off the couch.”
Maggie ~ “I won’t find any strange things?”
Damon ~ “You the only strange thing around here. Since you have cleaned here, I will have to get something at the coffee shop.”
Maggie ~ “Ah, the other lady’s workplace.”
Damon ~ “What did I say about starting something?”
I make my way out of the kitchen before she can make another wise remark. I dress down for the office today since I don’t have any pressing meetings.
Half an hour later, nervous as hell, not knowing what to expect, I walk through the coffee shop door. I do not know if I am relieved or disappointed that I don’t see her, but there is another problem to face, I have to tell Brody about Tajsa.
Damon ~ “Morning you two idiots.”
Mason ~ “Morning Mr. I am busy eating some worms.”
Damon ~ “What on earth are you on about?”
Brody ~ “You being a sour ass locking yourself up in your place.”
Damon ~ “At least I did not go around fucking some blonde in my office.”
Brody ~ “How the hell did you know?”
Damon ~ “A certain Tajsa saw her walking out of your office yesterday.”
Brody ~ “Is that why she told me to fuck off.”
Damon ~ “Why is there another reason she should be?”
Brody ~ “No, I made a stupid damn mistake.”
Damon ~ “If I did not mess up myself, I would have really torn you one.”
Mason ~ “What did your ass mess up? The last time I checked, we all made up that stupid bet.”
Damon ~ “Nothing you should be concerned about. But I heard that you got laid by that damn rude sister.”
Mason ~ “Now that one is really a bitch; I highly doubt I will make an effort to see her again.”
Damon ~ “I reckon we all a bunch of assholes.”
Brody ~ “The biggest ones this city has ever seen.”
Mason ~ “So what is your plan now?”
Brody ~ “I mean, you do have a plan?”
Damon ~ “I am not sure yet.”
Brody ~ “Best you get sure cause she is walking through the door.”
Mason ~ “And she is looking damn hot.”
I spin my head around, maybe a bit too fast, because it makes my head feel fuzzy, or is that me being happy to see her. Now, if I had a hard-on, I would understand, but this is just a simple head turn. Have I lost complete control of my body?
This woman never ceases to amaze me; she is more beautiful than I have ever seen her, like an almost slap in my face saying, look what you are missing out on.
As our eyes lock, I cannot help to smile, but the look I get in return is so dirty not even the strongest soap will wipe it off my face.
Well, this is officially going to be much harder than I thought. And then my dense brain decides to go talk to her. She is most definitely going to slap me right through my lying ass face.
Damon ~ “Morning Skye.”
Skye ~ “Morning Damon. What can I do for you? Is there something wrong with your coffee?”
Damon ~ “No, I wanted to talk to you.”
Skye ~ “Well, you are taking now. What is it that you want?”
Damon ~ “I wanted to say I am sorry again.”
Skye ~ “We already have established you are. Now, if you have nothing else to say, I am kind of busy.”
Damon ~ “Can I take you for dinner? Please can we talk about this?”
Skye ~ “What so you can try and make me fall in love with you?”
Damn this woman.
Damon ~ “Like you did not try the same! The only difference between you and me is that I did fall in love with you; who the hell are you carrying on that this is all about you.”
Skye ~ “Who the hell are you coming into my shop and attack me.”
Damon ~ “What? Is it too hot in the kitchen for you? If you want to dish out, then your pretty little face needs to take the same.”
Skye ~ “Get out! I do not want to see your face again!”
Damon ~ “Don’t worry; I don’t want to see yours either. I regret ever laying eyes on you in the first place.”
Ouch, that has got to sting; I did not mean to say that. She slaps me through my face so hard; it snaps my face to the left.
Damon ~ “Skye wait! I am sorry, I did not mean to say that.”
I watch her turn on her heels and storm into the office.
Me and my mouth.
I storm back to my table and down the rest of my espresso.
Damon ~ “Brody, I need to speak to you outside. You are coming to my office and apologizing to Tajsa that is if you want to after what I am going to tell you.”
Brody ~ “Sure, it is getting way too hot in here.”
Brody follows me outside, and so does Mason, but he keeps his distance behind us.
Damon ~ “Listen here, Tajsa came over yesterday; she was kind of beat up about you two. I don’t know what happened, but I kissed her.”
Brody ~ “You did what?”
Damon ~ “We kissed.”
Brody ~ “Was it like a peck or a full-blown tongue and all?”
Damon ~ “It was a full-blown kiss. But I promise nothing else happened.”
Brody ~ “You fuck!”
He pulls away from me and smashes his fist into my face, snapping my neck to the right.
What is up with everyone hitting me!
Brody ~ “What is wrong with you?”
Damon ~ “I should ask you the same.”
Brody ~ “Jo was a damn mistake!”
Damon ~ “Tajsa… just leave it… she deserves way better than you?”
Brody ~ “What? Someone like you?”
Damon ~ “No, someone better than all of us. I am so done with this conversation, and I am definitely done with all this bullshit.”
I think I have said enough; this day has officially gone for a ball of shit. So much for honesty and working things out.
Once again, I am faced with nervousness as I take the elevator to the top floor of my office. I do not know what to expect as I step through the door. Is it going to be uncomfortable, or are things going to be normal? I really hope it is the latter because she is the only woman that knows how to make me feel better.
As I step through the door, she is her chirpy old self.
Tajsa ~ “Good morning Mr. Chase.”
Damon ~ “Good morning Tajsa.”
Tajsa ~ “Are you sure it is such a good morning? I heard you got slapped, twice.”
Damon ~ “I see news travels fast around here.”
Tajsa ~ “I must say that even though you are having a horrible morning, I am finding it quite amusing.”
Damon ~ “I am glad the mess that is my life is so funny. I think I have completely lost all my marbles.”
Tajsa ~ “Well, I am here to pick them up with some latte and petites. And we can even pour some whiskey in here if you want.”
Damon ~ “You are a real lifesaver; I don’t know what I will do without you.”
Tajsa ~ “You will lose the bag your marbles were in.”
Damon ~ “Oh, before I forget, please cancel my appointment with Ethan.”
Tajsa ~ “I am afraid I have some bad news for you there, he is not taking the position.”
Damon ~ “That is just fantastic; now I definitely need that whiskey.”
Totally exhausted, I throw my ass down on the couch; I kick my shoes off while Tajsa gets our drinks; yes, the coffee is staying right where it is; I need something stronger than that. While she is putting the phones to mailbox, I change my shirt.
Tajsa ~ “Damn Damon, what’s up with this half being naked?”
Damon ~ “It’s not like you have not seen it before.”
Tajsa ~ “Well is not like we did not make out last night. You look just about good enough to eat.”
Damon ~ “Why? Are you feeling hungry?”
Tajsa ~ “Do not start what you cannot finish.”
Damon ~ “Oh, baby, I can finish you off in more than one way.”
Tajsa ~ “Watch out; you might just get me horny.”
Damon ~ “Come here, and I will make you horny.”
Tajsa ~ “Oh, you are so scratching where it should not be itching.”
Damon ~ “Believe me; I already have an itch that needs some attention.”
Tajsa ~ “Really? What kind of attention?”
Damon ~ “The one that needs to be in you.”
Tajsa ~ “Then why don’t you drop that pants and bring them on over here.”
I drop my pants and walk on over to her.
Tajsa ~ “Damn Damon, I was joking.”
Damon ~ “Fuck your face is an absolute classic.”
Tajsa ~ “When on earth did you get so buff?”
Damon ~ “When you were busy playing house with Brody.”
Tajsa ~ “What is that saying you get? Showing a girl what she is missing out on.”
Damon ~ “You know that things will never work between us.”
Tajsa ~ “Never say never if you don’t know it for sure.”
Damon ~ “Well, after I make you my COO, it would be mixing business with pleasure.”
Tajsa ~ “You are what?”
Damon ~ “I am making you COO.”
Tajsa ~ “Why?”
Damon ~ “Cause you know this business better than anyone. I should have seen it long ago. So what do you say?”
Tajsa ~ “Damon, I, I am speechless, I can’t believe it, this is amazing, shit I think I am going to cry.”
Damon ~ “Please don’t; you saw what happened the last time you did.”
She jumps into my arms and gives me a huge hug, completely forgetting that I am still just standing in my underwear. Now, this is trouble, I officially have a hard-on, and her cleavage pressing against my naked chest is so not helping at all. Oh yes, I am so going to rip that clothes off; I want to feel if the rest of her body feels just as soft and warm. What the hell happened to stay away from my assistant?
I lower my lips to meet hers, and we kiss. Not innocently, like a tease but hot. I want to pull away before I lose myself, but I can’t; I hardly have a moment to react before she presses her tongue to the seam of my lips and, at my grant of access, she delves inside my mouth. It is like my senses have been seduced, and I can no longer think straight.
She kisses me, fiery, passionate, and demanding. The way she moves with her tongue feels like she is making love to my mouth. She softly whispers my name; I smile, my heart flutters at her voice. I clasp my hands on either side of her face as I lean in for a deeper kiss.
Tajsa ~ “Damon”
Damon ~ “Yes?”
Tajsa ~ “I think I am falling in love with you.”
Damon ~ “Tajsa.”
She puts her finger on my lips.
Tajsa ~ “Please don’t say anything.”
Well, I have just landed myself in a whole heap of trouble. I know that I am in love with Skye. But has this love that I have been feeling for Tajsa all these years actually been something else. What do I do now? I cannot want to fix things with Skye, but in the same breath, I am hooking on Tajsa.
I need to make a decision. I need to choose, the question is, whom am I going to choose?