Kate
I can’t sleep the whole night. My demons were wide awake and telling me what a big mistake I made marrying Alex. I have been alone most of my life even if I’m surrounded by people. But tonight my loneliness was killing me. I want Alex to be with me. I know we don’t have a conversational marriage but still the feeling of rejection never sets in well with me.
I try to block my thoughts but my demonic mind has another plan. My head was buzzing even though I put the pillow on my head to stop those thoughts which are making me insane. I was second guessing myself, Alex will never accept me as his wife nor love our unborn child.
I was getting antsy about how to make sure that my child never went through the bad fate I have been through.
Then there was a doubt that was lingering on, what if Alex fed up with me and took Emma away from me. Bigger reason I got married to him was Emma. Emma is too small and she needs a mother and because of her my mother instinct was alive.
Next day I woke around 7:00 am , with a horrible headache and last night thoughts and nightmares added their own charm.
I slowly made my way to the kitchen. The whole house was dead quite like no one lives here. The coldness I felt made her shiver. Before me, Emily’s presence makes this a warm loving home with laughter and love.
I was getting emotional. I looked at Emily’s big portrait display in the living room and vow to my sister that I will try to bring back the happiness of this house. I will not only be a good mother to Emma but also make sure to be a supportive wife for Alex too. Even if he disregards me, I will win his heart.
With this new determination I started the day and went to the kitchen to cook an amazing breakfast for them. Since I have no idea what Alex likes in his breakfast but I know the basic breakfast-pancakes, omelette and coffee can never go wrong.
I quickly make myself busy. After less than an hour Emma was crying in the next room. I went to her room, picked her up and brought her back to my room. She looked confused. Why was I here?
Any way I hold Emma and start calming her after putting her in bed I just quickly take a shower and put on a navy blue dress and apply some liner and lip gloss … till that time Emma was fully awake She said… ‘aunty Katie … Emma want foodie’
I laughed and said ‘ my baby wants food. You know what I made your favourite pancake’
I went to kitchen put the coffee in machine and start putting pan cakes on Emma’s plate while she was sat in her child high chair
Alex was still sleeping, maybe he was very tired. I was putting the last batch of pancake batter when I heard Alex footsteps in the kitchen
I shyly said ‘ good morning… I made some pancakes… I hope you like them? .. but I can make something else’
He looked differently to me ‘I normally have eggs but pancakes are fine too.’
I was about to say I made omelette too but he didn’t give me a chance to say as he turned his back to me and picked Emma to give her a kiss on her forehead and came to me. I thought he was going to kiss me the way he was bending but then he stopped and looked shocked at what he was doing… then I realized that he actually thought I was Emily. I hurt not only for me but for Alex too.
He moved quickly pour some coffee and start eating pancakes
I put the omelette plate ignorant of him ‘I made omelette too.. if you can tell me what you like in the breakfast i will try to make it tomorrow’
He looks up with his aloof expression ‘thanks but no need the house help Martha usually cook the meals she is on leaves for couple of days but cook anything you want’
I was hurt by his indifference towards me. But I calm myself baby step take baby step.
I quietly sat and helped Emma to eat her pancakes.
He looked and said ‘ you’re not eating?… have some coffee’
I said ‘I have one pancake but I can’t have coffee until it is decaf and I’m really not hungry… I feel little nauseated at this time’
He looked a little annoyed but nodded to me.
After breakfast I didn’t know what to do. So I decided to do some dishwashing then I will write a resignation letter in mail to NYPH, as it is one of the “demands” of Alex to leave my job and become a housewife.
Alex
All night I can’t sleep , images of Kate flashes in my eyes whenever I close , all the yesterday event of pre-nuptial agreement , Kate’s expression when she discovers her unborn baby is not considered a Robbins heir, her scared expression when I push her, her father harsh words , they way she was looking when I told her that she is not sharing a room with me and damn my incredible lust for her when she was looking so fucking beautiful in her white peach dress , all I wanted to do was drag her and fucking undress her so that I can get lost in her body, but then I looked at Emily and my wedding portrait, I winced like iI’m betraying her again but damn today in the morning she was looking so innocently so stunning in her blue summer dress , she was looking like a proper house wife any man could desire, that’s why my feet can’t stop themself and went to kiss her but then I stop when I realized what I was doing, I was so turn on that I know I have to move quickly otherwise she will knows
Now I was thinking I can’t forever avoid Kate’s charm, now I have had a taste of her and I have a right on her I can have sex with her like normal couple have but there will be limitations in order make this only physical need satisfaction and she doesn’t get any other idea because still I loved Emily, and I can’t give my heart to some one else.
I was walking towards Kate’s room but she was in the bathroom sitting on the floor by the toilet and was throwing up.
I went straight over to her and helped her stand up
I said ‘ Kate .. fuck.. are you OK? …. you look awfully pale… should I call the doctor?.
She weakly smiled and said ‘ No I’m okay … its morning sickness this time… don’t worry I will lie down on bed and have some crackers and tea then I will be good’
I replied ‘ OK… I will get you something’
I went to the kitchen and made her some tea and thought it’s not the right time to tell her, maybe some other day.
I remember Emily never faced this kind of morning sickness nor she was so pale and weak even her appetite was also increased then why Kate was facing that. Was she acting?
But the moment that thought came I felt ashamed of doubting her. Surely she doesn’t look well, she could never fake it.
When I went to her room she was looking a little better and was working on her laptop. If she is ill then why is she working, I tell myself don’t doubt her.
I gave her tea and crackers and she smiled and gave me a grateful look… which made me feel like shit cause it was nothing I was doing and she felt so grateful about it. her eyes shine with gratitude and with a big smile she said thanks.
I went to my office and then kept working there.
I then heard Emma loud cries. When I looked Emma was in the lounge and she hit her head on the table. I quickly picked her up. I tried to calm her and kissed her’ Hey sweetheart it’s OK baby you are fine’
I looked to Kate’s room where the hell she is?
I wiped Emma’s tears and thought to put her in bed first then I will talk with Kate about her negligence on her first day.
After putting in her bed I went to Kate’s room where she was talking to someone and laughing about something. I became so angry that how dare she leave my child and laugh at the phone.
Then I saw her laptop and some files of NYMPH in bed. Oh she is still working there after I told her that she no longer will work there. I yelled her name ‘KATE!’
She turned back and looked confused by my behaviour.