As much as this conversation irritates me, I’m not complaining. Ezra is literally telling me his secrets, and one of these days I will use this information against him and Maddox, and give him a dose of his own medicine.
“Yeah, I need to ask Seline about that, I didn’t realize using it was so exhausting, and you don’t seem to struggle like that with yours.” I mutter, eager to find out even more.
“Mateo and I have a theory about it, actually. Might have something to do with you being a Gemini wolf. Similar to your healing ability, you heal because we take it from you and we aren’t fighting against each other. We share our healing ability to help you, and would never test out trying to block it or you and neve will so don’t even think about suggesting it. Maybe it works like that. I am not lending you my energy when I’m using mine against you, so when I do, it stops your ability to draw off it and levels us out. Seline always talks about balance. Mates are supposed to be equal, so it would make sense in some ways we are, like with our auras.”
“Kind of makes sense,” I agree, and I focus back on pacing the room.
I still hate the idea of every time I get hurt, they absorb my injuries from me. If I use my aura, my mates only have to wait for me to tire out and keep their own up. I can’t force theirs down unless they willingly submit and Maddox would rather claw through glass than do that, the asshole. It irritates me more than it should, and what good is being a healer if I can’t heal myself?
“We will find out for sure at the Alpha meeting when you are not challenging me and try to dominate someone else.”
Another wave of dread creeps up as I freeze. “What if it exhausts me? Like Maddox, he could wait me out and won’t that give Dominic the advantage to kill me?” I ask, biting my lip.
“You really think we would just let you die? Seriously, Kat, we won’t just sit there and watch our mate get hurt. If we see you distressed, we will step in. Andrei will be there too, plenty of us to take them on, plus your father,” Ezra adds and gives Mateo a look with a raised eyebrow.
My eyes follow his gaze. Mateo is trying to do up his tie. His fingers are fumbling and making a huge fabric knot. In no time, the unsuccessful attempt overwhelms my mate, and he gets cranky and tosses the tie on the floor.
“You’re done with your hissy fit?” Ezra asks him with a chuckle, a spark of amusement is dancing in his eyes as he watches.
“You know I hate wearing ties, it’s stupid. So who the hell decided a flappy leash hanging from your neck was needed with a suit?” Mateo whines, Ezra bends down and scoops it up. “That torture device was probably invented by a man who was sick of going to meetings, so he had something he could use to hang himself from in boredom.” Mateo keeps fussing and whining as Ezra approaches him.
“Oh, speaking of dad. He called me last night and told me that Sage has finally let Andrei mark her.” For the first time today, a faint smile spreads across my lips. I needed something good to happen, I needed it so darn bad that it scared me.
“That’s good, one less thing to worry about. Congratulations, you no longer have to kill your brother.” Mateo laughs as if he actually believes it is funny.
In what universe is killing a sibling funny? I roll my eyes at his remark but let it slip, for now. “Yeah, but that’s the thing worrying me. The bond isn’t complete until he mates with her, and I don’t know how to approach that subject with them because Sage has no ovaries. I couldn’t even smell any sort of pheromones from her at all when she was here. I don’t think she can go into heat.” I stress my bottom lip between my lips.
“I thought they just had to mark each other?” Mateo asks while Ezra just looks at me, probably expecting a reaction of a sort.
“Well yeah, but a bond isn’t complete until they are mated,” I explain.
“Maybe just marking her during sex will be enough?” Mateo guesses as he looks up at Ezra as if he has the answer we seek. Ezra just shrugs.
“Yeah well, that is what dad did with mom, and it worked. But he did say their bond wasn’t as solid as it was with Katherine. It was weaker, but it worked, solidifying it. Dad worries though, because of what happened to her. He is worried that without the heat, she won’t want to mate,” I try to get my point across with my mates.
“Does your brother know you discuss his sex life so openly?” Ezra chuckles.
“Hey, I have no choice but to discuss it. I have to kill him if it doesn’t work out, and I like having a brother!” I snap and cross my arms in front of my chest.
“It will work out, now come here so I can zip up that dress,” Ezra orders and waves his hand at me to get closer to him.
Shit, I completely forgot I was supposed to be getting ready to leave for this damn Alpha meeting. I sigh, turn around and let him zip me up, and button the top button.
Ezra rubs his hands down my arms. “We will be right beside you. You will be fine,” he whispers in assurance as he wraps his arms around me and buries his face in my neck. A soft growl leaves Ezra’s lips. I can feel it as a vibration runs through me and consumes my senses, but the momentary bliss pops like a soap bubble when Mateo clears his throat.