*Ryder’s POV
I came home immediately after I completed all my work. What used to be 10pm or sometimes early in the morning for me to come home, has become 7 and rarely 8pm after Kat has come back to my life. The happiness that was missing, had returned 10 fold. I no longer felt some part of me was missing as she is the part that keeps me alive. Cheesy I know, but it is truth.
The years without her was scrutinizing. To forget her I took different woman home. Stupid decision I know. The guilt that came up with it didn’t help either. I was literally walking like a zombie for 3 years without her. Honestly it felt way more than 3 years to me.
Now that she was back in my life I will make sure, that we are together forever. I knew what it was to be apart and I no longer want that life back.
Little did I know forever has a time limit too.
I entered home all excited after her bawdy message. I almost had the meeting stopped in between to want to reach home as soon as possible. Unfortunately it was a very important meeting that in no way can I end it without proper ending note or it will effect the business deeply.
The moment I got in I felt something was wrong. An intuition, that something definitely was wrong. I tried ignoring it thinking it might be just my thoughts but when I saw Katherine trying to pretend to watch but failing to do so with her unfocussed stare, I knew something happened.
I thought to distract her enough to bring her to good mood, then to ask the matter, which usually works. But for the first time it didn’t which made me want to know it even more.
She tried giving me fake smile when I tried to joke, but it dropped when she saw me raise my eyebrows showing her I didn’t believe even for a little bit. We have been together too damn long to not understand her by now. I know those 3 years both of us changed enough that we both have somethings to learn about the other but somethings haven’t changed. For an instance how she tries to lie but fails to do so.
As I took her hands in mine I realized her hands were cold though it was not that cold in the home with the heater on, it was then I realized she has gotten pale as if she saw a ghost. The worry and fear in her eyes breaks my heart. Has something badly happened that she no longer trust neither in me nor her that we would be able to overcome whatever it is that she fears? When she pulled her hands away I was hurt but was more confused. She has never refused my touch. Why now?
She noticed my confusion and my want to ask her the questions but she stood up and tried to asked me to dance in a confident voice but trembled at the end. Her please made my heart break even more if it was possible. But I knew now is not the right time to ask her questions instead I just nodded and did as she said for both hers and my relief.
She might think that I cant see her crying with the dim lights but even without seeing her I knew, the tears that fell from her face and how she tried to wipe it away but stopped when I squeezed her to me more tightly allowing her to cry silently on to my shirt.
We danced the whole night and went to bed when we were both tired. Though she protested at first we cuddled to sleep after my persisting refusal to accept her protests.
I tightly hugged her to sleep, though not too tight to suffocate her but tight enough to bring us both solace.
I don’t know when will be the right time to ask her the questions in my mind. But something in me told me I would know about it without having to ask her.
And my intuition was true for the first time. I didn’t have to ask her, but I do wish I wasn’t curious enough to know the truth.
Because it costed me to know that night was the last night I would be with her. Even if I wanted or didn’t wanted to.