The vomiting sensation, hidden. She didn’t have the strength to pay him any attention, just cupped a handful of water and rinsed her mouth, her whole body feeling like it was deflated.
“Have you … ever been to the hospital for a checkup?”
“I don’t want you to be in charge of my affairs.” Su Xi didn’t even look at him squarely, sidestepped, avoided Su Chen and was about to leave.
“Are you pregnant?” Su Chen simply asked out the doubts in his heart.
Her whole body shook.
As if the possibility had never occurred to him, jaws dropped in shock, staring at him in a daze.
“You’re on your period. Did your period come on time?” Su Chen asked again.
Don’t know …
How could she remember this when her life had been messed up so long ago?
Su Chen probably knew, he grabbed her hand, “I’ll take you to the hospital!”
“I don’t want it!” Su Xi shook him off, instinctively resisting, “I don’t want to go to the hospital!”
“You must go for a pregnancy test now!” Su Chen looked straight into her eyes, “I won’t ask you about the father of your child for now, but you must be responsible for the little life in your belly!”
“Responsible? Responsible for what? I can’t even be blameless for my own life, I have to be responsible for ta, isn’t that ridiculous! It doesn’t matter if I do the pregnancy test or not, I wouldn’t be able to give birth if I did!”
“Su Xi!” If there really was a child, Su Chen would rather she give birth. Her current disillusionment, despair, and grayness might … still be salvageable if a new little life appeared …
“You get out!” Su Xi became emotional and desperately pushed him out, “You get out! Out! Get out! I don’t want to see you!”
The door, thrown shut with a loud bang.
Ignoring Su Chen desperately knocking on the door outside, Su Xi leaned helplessly against the door panel, her whole body shivering. Covering her lips, she couldn’t hide the choking sound of pain.
Pregnancy …
No! She doesn’t want to get pregnant!
Much less have the child born!
Such an inhuman life is enough for her to bear and suffer alone …
With her personality, Ko Hang-jun knew she would definitely show up again.
He didn’t want her to come! What is she doing here? To watch his life fade away little by little?
He found so many reasons for himself to leave. But … when the doorbell rang, he got up from the sofa in a flash, and the excitement in his heart was so great that he couldn’t hide it …
And even, like a young man who has only just fallen in love, will be so nervous that his heart will race.
Right now, she was about the only remaining breath of energy in her own life.
“Hengjun!” She had reached the door and knocked.
He tried, very hard to put on a stink face. When he reached the door, he steadied his breathing before pulling it open a small crack with deliberate slowness.
Eyes probed out.
Only she was standing outside the door, trying very, very hard to smile at him.
It must be exhausting to force a smile …
“Good morning!” Ziggy pushed the door open and was already inside.
Ke Hengjun looked at her. She walked right into his room, picked out a set of clothes and threw them into his arms as if nothing had happened, “Get changed, let’s go grocery shopping.”
Grocery shopping?
“Not going.” That kind of public place was something he avoided showing up in now.
“You have to go even if you don’t! You don’t have a choice!” Zi Ge knew the inferiority complex in his heart and didn’t give him any room to choose, “The sun is just right outside, going out to soak up the sun will help your body.”
She tried very hard to convince him …
Looking into those pleading eyes, Ke Hengjun didn’t have the ability to refuse her after all.
Early morning sunshine, just right.
The two walked side by side on the street. The morning air was exceptionally fresh. Zi Ge took several deep breaths in a row and leaned back to meet the sunlight, hoping that such warmth would dissipate some of the gloom that had built up in her heart, and also hoping to warm him up a little.
“What do you want to eat today?” Standing at the entrance of the food market, Zige asked him.
“Anything.” Whatever he made was delicious to him.
“Then buy a fish.” Zige carefully picked the fish from the seafood stand. As she looked at the fish tank, Ke Hengjun looked at her. That every subtle expression, movement, he watched deeply, as if he wanted to carve it into his heart.
Ziggy lowered her eyes slightly, her eyelashes fluttering.
Could feel his burning gaze, but, without looking up, just let him watch.
The heart, sore as it was, rose.
“What else do you want to eat?” Gathering her emotions, Ziggy asked again. Voice raised, deliberately feigning pleasure.
“Piggyback it is.” He drew back his eyes and answered cooperatively. In his mind, he kept recalling the earlier image of accompanying her to chop up pig’s feet in the kitchen of her house.
Days like that …
Once you go, you won’t go back …
Even if I stayed longer, I couldn’t get it back.
The two walked back together with their large bags.
“Yeah? That seems to be Ko Hengjun!” Someone seemed to recognize him.
“Really? Really?!”
“Is that his girlfriend next to him? No it’s his former fiancée. It looks like they’re married!”
“Hurry up! Take a picture, maybe we can sell it to the newspaper!” Someone took their cell phone out and clicked it.
He frowned, trying to stop it.
Zige stopped him good-naturedly, “Forget it, Hengjun. Let’s go back first.”
“To really sell it to the paper and drag you into it again.”
Ziggy laughed, “It’s not the first time anyway, don’t care this time.”
As long as she doesn’t mind, that’s fine …
Anyway, being photographed in the street was something he had long gotten used to.
All day long, Ziggy was circling around him.
The room was a mess of clothes, all of which she gathered over and stuffed into the laundry tub.
When the afternoon was free, she sat on the floor and ate a snack and watched a movie.
She was looking out of her mind.
Ko Hang-jun took his foot and kicked her back, “Hey.”
“Leave me alone!” She was upset and didn’t look back.
“You’re not leaving yet?”
“Can’t you see I’m having fun watching?”
“You have to work!” Ko Hang-jun reminded.
“I’m taking a vacation.” Ziggy turned her face to look at him.
He froze.
Putting down the magazine in her hand, she propped her elbows on her knees, her eyes level with Ziggy’s, “You took time off work to take care of me?”
“… I don’t trust you.”
“If I stay like this for the rest of my life, you’re going to stay off work for the rest of your life and stay here?”
Ziggy bit her lip lightly, “I hope you get better …”
“But you know there’s no way to get better from this disease!”
“Even then, I want you to know that you will never be alone! I won’t leave you behind! Ever!” She looked at him firmly.
That look, made Ke Hengjun pleased. This woman, worthy of his own for her to give all. Even if, she just treats herself as a friend … he is willing to …
“You go away, I’ll pull myself together. Don’t need you to be so careful.” Finally, he said.
“Unless you go to the hospital now to be examined.” Ziggy said.
Ko Hengjun buried his face between his palms. In fact, right now the Ai. Zip test, it really doesn’t hold any significance for him. What threatens him is no longer Ai. AIDS …
“To be honest, I resisted the hospital.” Ko Hang-jun said.
Ziggy was aware of it.
Soojung had talked to her about Su Xi’s situation.
Moreover, 80% of the patients received in hospitals are afraid of hospitals and resist them because they are terrified of the test results.
“But we have to have a result, don’t we?”
Ko Hengjun shook his head, “This result doesn’t matter to me.”
“But …”
“I know, it’s important to you.” Kohenjun nodded, “Give me time and I will do it.”
To put her mind at ease, he might be able to find a way to have a fake result made for him.
This way …
She doesn’t have to live with the guilt all the time.
Thinking like this, Ke Hengjun already had a plan in mind.
“Hengjun.” Zi Ge looked at him steadily, her eyes complex, all sorts of emotions churning in the bottom of her eyes, “Why are you being so stupid?”
Asking the question, her voice was vaguely choked.
Ko Hengjun looked at her solemnly, “I just want to guard you.”
The tip of her nose was sore. She didn’t know what to say to that for a moment, but just turned her face away and dropped her eyes to the movie.
But, before my eyes, it was already a blur.
Ko Hang-jun sank his steps over to her and sat down alongside her.
The light from the movie hit the two people. He, like her, dropped his eyes to the screen.
“Ziggy …,” he called to her softly, leaning his head lazily against her shoulder.
Two simple words, but deposited with all sorts of strong sentiments.
“Uh-huh.”
“If … one day I am never in your life again, how much time will it take for you to forget me?”
She was silent for a long time. Only then did she utter three words softly and quietly, “For life.”
He smiled, “You said it, I’ll take note of it.”
“Good.” She would never go back on her word.
“Then …” he held an expectation and slowly closed his eyes, “if in the next life, we are destined to meet again … can you not tell me again that you are Break up?”
“… Good.” She nodded quietly again, acknowledging.
If there is an afterlife, it would be a blessing to entrust oneself to such a person.
Evening.
It was only after Ke Hengjun quietly fell asleep on the sofa that Zige left with peace of mind.
When I got home, the whole house was quiet, only the kitchen was still busy.
A little taken aback, she walked into the kitchen.
“Ma’am.” The cook was busy greeting.
“Is it the young master or sir who wants a midnight snack?” Ziggy asked.
“The young master has been waiting for you, ma’am, for most of the day, and now he can’t hold out so he went to bed first. Mr. hasn’t come back yet, the housekeeper asked us to heat up the meal here first, maybe Mr. will want to eat when he comes back later.”
“He’s not back yet?”
All day, he didn’t call himself either. This would have been completely impossible before!
And her?
His mind was so stirred up by Hengjun’s business that he really left him out in the cold.
She’s damned!
Thinking this way, Zige hurriedly pulled out her cell phone and dialed his number. The ringtone there rang for a long time, but no one answered. A piece of her heart hung in the air, regretting that she hadn’t spoken to him properly in the morning.
He must be pissed!
Biting her lip in chagrin, she made to redial again, but then the phone rang. Him, dialing back!
Ziggy let out a long breath and hurriedly picked up the phone, pressing it to her ear.
“I just left my cell phone in my bag and didn’t have time to answer it. This late, something wrong?” His voice, unhurriedly, came from the other end.
She doesn’t know …
How mixed his feelings were when he saw her call.
He wished, very much, that he was thought of by her. But then, there was the fear that she was giving herself the cold shoulder still.
“Are you coming back now?” Ziggy asked softly, her voice soft with a bit of caution. Very worried that he was angry.
“Uh-huh.”
“Then come back and I’ll wait for you at home.” Ziggy said.
“Are you … already home?” He asked.
“Uh-huh. Just arrived.”
It was so late, she could have actually called him to pick it up. It’s not safe to ride alone in a car …
But as long as she’s back … back …
Hanging up the phone, Lan Yu Feng subconsciously sped up the car.
Ziggy told the kitchen to go to bed.
Having showered herself, she sat quietly in the hall waiting for him to return. The lights were out throughout the house, leaving only a small table lamp in her hand.