There were no words, Zoey took two steps on the terrace, poked her head out, and saw a car parked under a big tree not far away. The night is very dark, the lights outside are already dark, only the light reflected from the snow, Zoey can hardly see the figure in the night clearly. Zoey could barely make out the figure in the night. She could only vaguely see a dark shadow around the car.
It was very unclear, but she knew it was him at once. Breathing, stopping for a split second, just gripping the phone and looking at him quietly, across the distance.
He, too, looked at her …
“Why are you … here?” She, heard her heart, ‘thump-thump-thump’.
“Well, just happened to be passing through.” Actually, otherwise. He’d been standing here for over an hour. If she hadn’t come out onto the terrace, maybe, tonight, he wouldn’t have made the call.
“Oh …”
Just, passing through. Just, just …
The feeling of emptiness seemed lost. She forced a smile, “Then hurry back.”
God, it’s so cold. And he was in such bad shape. Could he stand it in the snow? Of course, Zoey did not say these words. Just stood on the terrace watching him from a distance, and then, turning …
She wanted to go to her room and find a jacket to put on.
“Zoey!” He called out to her with some urgency. She paused with an ‘eh’ on the other end. He was heard asking, “Can you stay up later?”
Did he want to say something to himself?
“But it’s getting late.” Zoey, with a look of embarrassment, stepped into the room. Obviously, hearing the breathing there, there was a slight pause, and then, he forced a smile, “It is indeed late.”
“Uh-huh.” She flipped out her jacket and pulled it over herself.
“Then … you rest early.” He didn’t give her a hard time.
She agreed readily enough, fishing for her keys and pulling open the door to her room, “Well, I’m going to bed then. Bye.”
She tiptoed downstairs, always on guard against anyone in the house suddenly pushing open the door and catching her in the act. Hearing no sound of speech there for a long, long time, she waited for a long time before waiting for Jerry Xiao to say, “… Sleep well. Good night.”
Instead of saying goodnight, she just hung up the phone.
…
Listening to the ‘beeping’ sound coming from over there, Jerry Xiao only felt an indescribable loneliness that coiled in his heart.
Zoey … is no longer the Zoey of the past. She, without hesitation, can hang up on him without a trace of attachment …
Was it that he could never get her back? But even if he got her back, so what? How can he give her what she wants when he can’t even control his own life?
Bitterly, he hung up the phone and tilted his head once more, glancing sullenly at the empty terrace.
There, there was no longer any sign of her … along with the lights in the room, all dimmed …
Eyes, more and more lonely, set against the snow-capped …
Pulled on the car door, sat in, but did not immediately go. Just turn on the radio in the car, in the winter, listening to the warm sound of the radio, but can not warm his heart …
In fact, he didn’t know what else he was stopping for. The child and she had already gone to sleep, and even if he waited all night, he wouldn’t be able to wait for them. However, leaving here, he also did not know where he should go …
Even with a house, the heart, however, wanders outside …
Closing his eyes, he leaned back in the driver’s seat. Just a little while longer, he thought, just a little while longer, and then he’ll go …
Suddenly, the car window, was gently tapped. He froze, and for a moment, thought he was hallucinating. After two seconds of trance, he opened his eyes, only to see the little face he thought he wouldn’t see tonight appear outside the car window.
Heart, what kind of feeling at the moment? Surprise, even disbelief …
The violent ups and downs of his emotions took him a long time to come back to his senses, only rippling with laughter as he stared deeply at her.
Before he could push the door open and get out of the car, she was already pulling away and shrinking into the back seat. It had been too long in a climate like Qatar’s for her to adjust to such a cold day. Her nose was already red from the cold after only a moment, and she rubbed her hands together, puffing air into her palms.
Jerry Xiao didn’t turn around, just glanced at her in the rearview mirror and stepped out of the car. Zoey looked at his back strangely, wondering what he wanted to do. The door on the other side of the car opened and cold air poured in, his breath coming straight out.
The spot beside her was occupied by his entire being. The tips of her heart leapt to life. Don’t ask her why she ran down suddenly; by the time she had to think deeply about the question herself, the man was already here …
There are a lot of things in this world that one can’t think about with one’s head, and can, perhaps, only be explained as – Inconvenient Love …
“I thought you were asleep.” A deep smile adorned the bottom of his eyes. His large palms had already wrapped her hands, which were rubbing back and forth, tightly in his hands without saying a word, lightly squeezing them, slightly side-eyeing her, glancing at her, and smiling, “It’s so cold.”
There was no light or shadow, not even a light on in the car. But the him in front of her eyes, is so clear, so real reflected in her eyes. Feeling his body temperature like a hot spring, listening to his mellow voice, the tip of her nose inexplicably became a little sour.
The cold palms of her hands seemed to heat up in an instant. If her sanity was still remaining, at this moment, she should have to take her hand back. Because … they shouldn’t be like this, they really shouldn’t …
However, when she met him, her sanity was completely gone. All the emotions, thinking, are occupied by him, and even a hand control …
“What do you … want to say to me?” She asked, speaking softly, keeping her eyes downcast and not looking at him.
“It’s nothing.” Jerry Xiao paused and held her hand tightly, “Just wanted to check on you.”
“Oh …” Zoey didn’t know what to answer at this point, and there was a slight tremor in the hand he was holding. Not daring to look up, not daring to meet his eyes that were as deep as swirls. She was afraid that she would fall in again without hesitation.
He paused for a moment, “Are you coming back this time, and leaving?”
“To Qatar?”
“Uh-huh.”
“I want to stay in the country. In the future, my brother will also come back, and by then, our family will really be reunited.” Zoey’s eyes shone brightly as she talked about this.
The bottom of his eyes, but a piece of bleak. Her home, which is complete, can not accommodate him … Even the child called ‘father’, perhaps it is redundant …
“Zoey …” he, suddenly, softly, astringently called her name.
“Hmm?” She suspiciously raised her head and met his dark, deep pupils. He pursed his lips and spoke, “I’m really sorry about before …”
It was fine if he didn’t mention it, but when he did, it was as if he was uncovering her scars. Thinking of the company, thinking of that lost child, her chest ached so much that she averted her eyes, “The past, I don’t want to talk about it anymore.”
“Zoey , stop running away from me!” Her hand, about to slip out of his palm, he took her back into his grip with force. The other hand, hooped around her waist, bringing her whole body deep into his arms. Her face was pressed against his chest, and his rapid heartbeat could be heard in the narrow carriage.
“Jerry!” she cried out in alarm and tried to back away, but he caught her struggling hands and pressed them firmly against his waist.
“Don’t move, good … I won’t touch you, I won’t hurt you, trust me!” His tone, unprecedentedly soft. With some light coaxing and begging flavor, Zoey’s heart, all of a sudden soft. Her struggling movements froze, and she was stuck on his chest like that.
His whole being was warm, wrapping her securely as if the city’s winter had become less cold.
“I’m sorry, Zoey … I know that I owe you this, and it’s far more than an ‘I’m sorry’ to pretend nothing ever happened.” His lower jaw, resting just above her head. The voice was soft, with a few moments of deep pain. Lower jaw, compassionately caressing the top of her head. He closed his eyes and continued, “I never thought that I could get your forgiveness, or even … children, you can allow me to see them again, for me, this is already the biggest surprise. These eight months in a coma have been the most extravagant waste of time for me. And I don’t know how long it will take for me to wake up the next time I fall down again, or, for the rest of my life …”
Zoey , who was leaning in his arms, shuddered when she heard him say this. She tilted her head up and looked at him almost unbelievably, those eyes, moistened with tears, colored with panic.
What does it mean to be in a coma for eight months? What does it mean to not know when you’ll wake up?
Looking at her reaction, he smiled away instead, already on cloud nine, “What kind of expression is that?”
“I thought … you were at least a lot better these past eight months …” There was a bit of trembling in her voice, even her lips were shaking.
No wonder, he’s lost so much weight lately …
No wonder, in Arabia, he was always so weak …
No wonder, when he had his last attack, Fung was so nervous …
She still foolishly thought that his condition should have made a big breakthrough, and that all this was just a residual phenomenon. But she didn’t want to, but it turned out that he was simply still struggling on the edge of life and death.
He slowly shook his head, absently playing with her crumbling tight fingers, “Now medicine is not so advanced, the doctor said to wait at least another year. But … “He, not necessarily, still has a year to wait …
The words were not spoken. For, by the tears in her eyes, it was hardened to a pause on her lips.
Looking at the tears, the lake of heart swirled. He leaned down and tenderly kissed the tears from the corners of her eyes. At the touch of those warm, soft lips, Zoey’s heart felt as if the panic had suddenly grown even bigger, swelling to such an extent that her heart throbbed violently.
As if, this man, the next instant will disappear in front of their eyes; this true and sincere warmth, also will never feel …
Intense sadness took over all the mind. Covering her trembling lips, Zoey cried harder all of a sudden.
Looking at the increasing number of tears, Jerry Xiao’s eyes, became more and more complicated. Deep pupils tightened, his arms tightened, holding her tighter and harder, as if he wanted to take her whole person into his body. Her small face covered with tears, buried deeply in his chest, shoulders trembling terribly.
As if that wasn’t enough to ease the panic of losing him in her heart, she opened her arms and embraced his neck in one go, her little face lifting up, her lower jaw sobbing against his shoulder, her wet face pressed against his.
Jerry Xiao was stunned and his body stiffened for a moment.
Heart, pressed against her heart. Clearly feeling the trepidation from the deepest recesses of her heart, it was difficult for him to describe what he was feeling at the moment.
She still cares! She clearly cares that much about whether he lives or dies!