Abigail could see the stains of tear drops on the pages, there were many places that blurred out because of the tears, and from that she could see how sad Michelle must have been when she was writing her diary, the pain she was going through.
This really was too much to take!
She could hear a sound from the door, and a sigh.
Abigail suddenly reacted, and was so scared, the diary fell out of her hands.
She quickly picked it up, and a page of white paper slid out, she didn’t get the chance to put it back again, so she hid it in her pocket when she placed the diary back on the table again.
Joshua appeared behind her, his eyes were bright, but he was surprised to see her there.
“What, you finally realized that you need to study Michelle more? Have you found a way to make me happy?” He looked at the pink book on the dresser, then he looked back at Abigail again.
“I…” Abigail stuttered, she was looking at Michelle’s picture that was behind Joshua, her smile was so pretty and happy, but it was full of conspiracy as well.
Did he really not know anything about Michelle’s true self? Abigail was curious.
“Have you ever checked Michelle’s background?”
Joshua humphed from his nose, and laughed coldly, “She is a naive girl, there’s no need to check her.”
“Maybe, some people… aren’t the same as they seem to be…” She finished her sentence, and suddenly had a feeling that it wasn’t a good idea, she took a few steps back, her hand laid on the pink notebook. She had to be very brave to say such words in front of him.
“You mean like you?” Joshua tilted his head, and looked at her, then he smiled and said, “Why would my father pick you? Except for the way you can act, there is absolutely nothing about you to protect yourself, and you are even more stupid!”
He raised his chin and thought for a while, closed his eyes, and stepped back.
“I have nothing to do with your father!” She said, very sensible to his words, she hated it when he tried to connect her and his father.
She has seen him before at Stacy’s birthday party, he was just like any other business man, and there was nothing good about him.
What happened between them, that he didn’t trust his father at all, to make him even blame his father for whatever she did?
Her answer to him must have been like a joke, because Joshua started laughing, the cold smile that he was already showing extended to a big laughter that even showed his teeth.
“Pf!” He suddenly stopped laughing, his mouth pulled to one side, looking evil.
“You are just a person who is covering herself up, inside you are like a poisonous scorpion, but outside you look like the little good girl, and you would use that to get other’s pity, as if the whole world owes you. Don’t forget, I am the one who is the victim!”
“I didn’t…”
“Shut up!” He didn’t even let her finish her sentence, “What you did or didn’t do, you know better than anyone else. You have covered who you really are pretty well, but sadly, you cannot fool me!” He turned and walked towards her, grabbed her hand, his eyes were on fire, but all she could feel was coldness.
“Till when do you want to pretend? I don’t have any patience with you, if you don’t tell me the truth, I will bury you next to Michelle!”
Joshua pushed her with force, Abigail bumped on the wall like a kite that lost it’s line, her body couldn’t take the hit, and slid down onto the floor, she still saw the picture of Michelle smiling evil.
She bit her teeth, and tried to get up again, but she didn’t have the strength.
“Are you letting me off to catch me again later? You push me away, as far as only possible, and then you suddenly realize that you mean nothing to me, so you come here to try and find a way to get me back?”
He stepped closer to her, as if he was afraid she won’t hear him, so he put his lips on her ears, and said, while blowing his cold breath on her, “Listen well to me, don’t try to use Michelle to raise your worth. You and Michelle are as different as day and night, you aren’t even worth to clean her shoes.”
He fanned with his hand in front of his nose, as if Abigail stank, he stood up tall, to get away from her, then he said again, “You already lost your chance to come into this room, leave your key, and get the hell out of here!”
Abigail took the key out, this was to blame on herself.
She didn’t even turn around, when she pulled herself together and dragged her paining body out of the room, leaving it behind. Her small skinny back seemed very helpless under the light.
The moment she opened the door, she stood up straight, so tall as never before, Joshua’s eyes were still fixed on her, until she left the room, and vanished behind the door.
Abigail was back in her own room, she slapped herself.
Why didn’t she just stay in her own room? She just had to go and look for trouble, she blamed herself for it, and slapped herself again.
When she raised her hand, something white fell out of her pocket, she bent over to pick it up, and remembered that it was a piece of paper that fell out of Michelle’s diary.
She held it in the light and looked at it, then she realized it was a letter, a letter to Joshua.
My beloved Joshua,
I thought for a long time, I was thinking if I should tell you about who I am, tell you about my past. You trust me so much, to have never even checked my background, you never asked about my past, it really touches me.
I have seen how much you are about me, how detailed you are, how engaged you are in planning our wedding, you even never announced the wedding for my sake. I don’t regret my life for you are loving me so much.
Joshua, the reason why I don’t want to announce this wedding is because I am scared.
I am scared that someone might know who I am, and tell everything about me and my past.
Joshua, I am not the simple naive and nice girl that you think I am, there are things in my past I never want to speak about.
Just read this diary, it has everything in it, from the evil girl I was until the girl who fell in love with you. I have pulled all my courage together to place it in our wedding room, but I don’t regret it at all. I really love you, and if you cannot accept my past, even if you want to beat me, curse me, or leave me, I will take it.
But of course, I would be heartbroken, if I lost you, I would grow old alone.
Joshua, I really love you.
At the end of the letter was Michelle’s signature, so pretty and yet so sad.
Abigail’s heart was racing, she almost told Joshua about who Michelle really was, but luckily, she didn’t. From this letter, she could feel the love that Michelle had for Joshua.
How much effort did it need, how much courage did it need, for this.
She never had to tell him anything, and now, she took the risk of losing her loved one, to tell him the truth. Michelle really deserved her respect.
Abigail put the letter in a secret place.
She finally understood why Michelle had put her diary at such a visible place, she wanted Joshua to see it and read it.
But, before they had a chance to have their wedding, she died, and so her diary would forever be a secret.
Annie, she played a main role in the conspiracy of Michelle. Abigail understood now that she had put a lot of thought on how to get Joshua.
But what Annie didn’t know that there was no way to control emotions, and if there were emotions involved, no one could stand in their way. Brave Michelle would rather risk herself being ruined to tell her beloved husband about herself.
Such a brave girl!
…
The night was silent, the lights gradually turning off, indicating that most of the people were already asleep.
There was one dark room in the house, where a shadow was sitting in the corner, talking to somewhere.
“How should I know it would be like this! I want that too, but he doesn’t even want to touch me!”
“A baby? I want that even more than you! Fuck, he has never even…” Annie’s hand shook, “It’s not that he wouldn’t get in my bed, but… we… I don’t want to talk to you anymore, it’s all your fault!” She said, the two short times that they have been intimate, Joshua never actually let go of himself.
Even if she wanted to blackmail him, it needs to be somehow close to the truth.
“You think Joshua is that easy to fool?”
“I told you to find Jacky, but until today you don’t know where he is, I am pressured by Bill, and Abigail won’t help me wither, and there is this stupid Harry, which all makes me so mad!”
“What to do? Why do you always ask me?”
“Leave Joshua, Dad, are you crazy? My only dream is to get married to him, and if he is your son in law, you will have just as many benefits, do you really want to throw that away?”
“Stop talking, I will take care of the thing with Jacky myself. You go and arrange some people to scar that Harry’s face, yes! This kind of woman just deserves that, I want it quick! So fucking annoying!”
She hung up the phone, her fire was still burning inside, she was really mad, stood up, and walked to the window. The lighter clicked, and a moment later a small burning dot was visible.
She spit out some smoke, and held both her hands in front of her chest, the cigarette in her hand lit up.
Tomorrow, she needed to make sure of one thing, and that was where Jacky was. She needed to enter Bill’s house, but, would he let her in?
Maybe, she will take Stacy with her, yes, Stacy loved him, if she got to know about visiting Bill, she would think of a way to get inside, right, she would take her along!
When Stacy heard that Annie was going to visit Bill, she jumped so high in joy.
“Oh, my, Annie, I really want to come with you, the only time I can actually see him is on the magazines, and my heart would already race. Can we really go to his house?”
Stacy didn’t even try to cover the little girl in her, showing her feeling for Bill on the surface.
Abigail shrugged her shoulders, and walked downstairs. She didn’t expect both Stacy and Annie to be downstairs, and she wanted to go back again, but they already saw her, so he just went downstairs.
Stacy looked at Abigail as if she was her enemy, her competitor, afraid she would take Bill away from her, and she quickly picked up the phone on the table.
“Annie, let’s call him first, to check if he has time!”
When she saw that Annie agreed, she quickly dialed Bill’s number.
“Bill, hey, it’s me, yes! Wow, you knew who I was from my voice! Bill, can I come to your place for a visit?”
Abigail heard her talk without trying to eavesdrop, she walked to the water can quietly. They haven’t brought her any water these days, and her water can was already empty.
Maybe it was because of her pregnancy, she gets hungry easily these days, but she didn’t have any more food in her room, so she would just drink some water to fill her stomach.
“What? You don’t have time?” Stacy’s voice was disappointed, she saw the back of Abigail, and her eyes lit up again, “What if Abigail was coming with us?”