My eyes find Giovanni and Deimos side by side watching the scene take place. I didn’t even notice them come in.
I don’t look at Deimos. I am scared to see his reaction. As soon as Gia sees Giovanni she leans her body towards him and I place her in his open arms. I don’t look at Giovanni as well, I don’t know what to say. Am I erasing her memories with Luna Bella and engraving mine?
“Thank you for taking care of her, Luna Lumina. Your car is waiting outside to take you home.” Giovanni says softly with a bow and I nod with a smile.
I finally look at Deimos but he looks at the ground, eyes frowning and jaw clenched. What kind of reaction is this? Is this all you will show me?
I walk past the two males without saying another word. I was fuming. First, he blocks his thoughts from me then he acts like he is annoyed! Is that how the idea of pups makes him feel? Striding quickly towards the pack gates, I find Elriam waving at me with Ragon next to her.
“I will ride with you, Elriam.” I say quickly getting into her car and slamming the car door. Elriam and Ragon exchange a knowing look and Ragon walks to the car behind us.
It’s not like I am asking much. Or am I? I want to be selfish. I want us to be like normal mates, though I know it’s impossible with who we are but we can try for some things. Together. Like a family.
I don’t move my eyes from the window as Elriam sits next to me and the driver starts the car. The ride back home was quiet and Elriam doesn’t ask me anything giving me my space. Are Deimos and Ragon discussing this? Well, it will be in my favor as I know how supportive Ragon is.
As soon as the gates of our house open and the driver parks the car. I open the car door walking as fast as possible to our villa.
“Lumina!” Deimos calls out to me but I pay that male no heed. I am not interested just like he isn’t. I keep walking around the fountain, through the back porch, and into our villa with Deimos hot on my trail.
I head into our bedroom whilst he enters and shuts the door behind him as I sit on the vanity chair removing my earrings. A quiet sigh leaves his lips as he walks softly towards me reaching for my eyes through the mirror.
“Why are you upset with me, my female?” He asks gently.
“Why did you block your mind from me?” I ask him as he flinches to my question. I have caught him off guard. He remains quiet. I feel another barrier standing tall between us. Another I need to break down.
“Lumina.” He pleads. He doesn’t want me to ask him that. Why? Fine I shall strike the next arrow.
“Why did you react that way when Gia called me mamma?” I poke him with another question. My attacks ruthlessly aimed for a direct hit. He looks away from me. Ah, that’s all the answer I need from him.
“Why are you making this a big deal, mate? You are looking too deep into every action of mine. They don’t hold any mea-” He dodges the fire with a watery answer and I cut him off.
“I want a pup.” Is all I say looking straight into his eyes as his eyes widen. My head held high I analyze his reaction to my words.
“W-What?” He asks.
“I have had this burning desire even before I met you. But it has grown with each passing day and I cannot hold it anymore.” I say getting up. “Deimos. I want to start a family.” I say enunciating each word clearly. Holding my breath, I wait for his answer.
He takes a step back taking a deep breath in. “We are not ready, Lumina.” He says. I am not taken back. I expected it. I know him now.
“We are, my male. I can see it. I… I can feel it.” I close the space between us.
“I am happy with just you, mate.” He speaks his truth.
“We can become much happier. I really want to be a mother.” I say softly.
“Where is this suddenly coming from? Is this because you spend a lot of time with Gia? Is it because she called you mamma? Lumina, we just mated yesterday. Why does it feel like we are always rushing?” He asks confused. Fingers sliding through his hair, frustrated. He cannot understand.
“We are not rushing. We have been together for years! If we had a pup when we met it would have grown to become as Gia now! I cannot stand waiting anymore.” I say as my lips quiver. Tears held back.
“I understand, my female. But you won’t understand or even like the reason as to why we are not ready.” He says.
“Tell me! I will try if it means I could have a pup with you-” A sob leaves my lips but I continue. “I will try for us.”
“I cannot, my female. Forgive, me.” He says and I look away, my palm wiping tears that roll down my cheeks. He moves towards me to comfort his weeping female but I shake my head and move away from his touch.
“Y-You always do this and expect me to always listen and abide.” I sniff, a hiccup escapes my lips.
“I am doing this for us, Lumina. I don’t want to let go of this happiness we tried hard to build.” He whispers. I don’t say another word turning away from him looking out the window.
I feel the heat of his body on my back, his palms holding my biceps, and his soft lips at the back of my head.
“Please trust my words, Lumina. We are not ready.” He whispers, tone pleading and with one last lingering kiss, he leaves the room as tears fall freely down my face.