He removes his shirt quickly pulling his pants and boxers down. He bares himself as he stares at me his anger rising. “You want me to take you so badly. I have no problem with that, Lumina. I will grant your wish.” He snarls as he pounces on me.
“Wait. Stop. Deimos!” I say. He tears my clothes off me leaving me naked shivering beneath him. But when his eyes look at me it’s not the way he sees me. It’s filled with a void of coldness and lust. Nothing more. He doesn’t touch me or make me feel good.
Holding my hips harshly he shifts me in one move so that I am on my hands and knees my ass facing him. “Deimos wait. I-.” He doesn’t let me finish as he thrusts two fingers into my core. It startles me and I get a bit scared. The pain and pleasure engulf me but fear plays the most part.
My lips begin to wobble as tears seep forth. I don’t want this. Not this way. I turn my head around to look at and kiss him but he turns away from my lips pushing my head back on the pillow harshly. “I will take you the way I would have when I first met you.” His voice holds the coldness of the first time we met.
His fingers continue their thrusts but I do not moan my pleasure as my heart feels empty. This feels empty. Holding my hips high up in the air he pumps his cock up and down and he brings it to my core. He fists my hair tightly tugging it from behind harshly.
I cannot see his face. I cannot hear his voice. I cannot see his soul for his eyes are behind me. There is no gentle or loving touch from him.
I feel like a whore. Tears break free as I feel the tip of his cock upon my entrance. I sob into the pillow as whimpers come from deep within me. My wolf hating the way our mate is treating us.
“Say it, Lumina.” He says his voice now holds a tone of gentleness.
I sob more as tears leak continuously down my cheeks. I hiccup and choke on my tears as his touch now softens and soothes my skin as if comforting me.
“Say it!” He commands once more.
“I-I do not want this. I d-don’t want to do it like t-this.” I say the truth we both know in between sobs as he finally moves away and lets go of me.
The strength in my knees weaken and I fall onto the bed crying. My hair covering my face. I hear Deimos putting on his clothes and zipping up his jeans.
“You pushed me to do this, Lumina. I can take only so much from you. Perhaps now you understand.” He says, his tone gentle but stern. He leaves the room closing the door as I curl into a ball and sob until my tears dry and hiccups come.
Getting up slowly I put on my clothes. Looking at the mirror my eyes are red and puffy as I wash them and put on some ice to reduce the swelling. I need to head back. It is my duty.
As I head back to the fields my females come to me knowing my distress but with a shake of my head, they stop in their tracks. My eyes search for Deimos and find him helping the juveniles. His eyes find mine but they quickly look away and never look back at me for the rest of the day.
At sundown, our meeting finally came to an end and we said our goodbyes to Alpha Rastus and Luna Eliana for we will see them again next year as a sign of pack friendship. Several Alpha’s and Luna’s shall come this way to meet with Deimos and me just to show their loyalty, respect and obligation to him.
Deimos does not spare me a glance as he walks away to the castle. Taking a deep breath I follow him like a lost pup without making any noise. He heads into his room and I hear the sound of water running. I change into the pair of nightdress that I keep in his room.
I sit on his bed waiting for him to come out. It takes some time but the door finally opens and steam envelopes the room. He comes out with a towel wrapped around his waist. He knows of my presence but he still doesn’t look at me as he opens the drawer taking out his boxers.
I slowly walk behind him and he flinches when I put my hands on his back. He doesn’t move away giving me the sign that I can continue. My lips meet with the soft flesh of his back as I kiss up to his spine slowly and gently.
My fingers wrap around his arms as I turn him towards me. He looks down at me as I lift my head and kiss his lips. A soft peck at first to see his response. He still stares at me not move. I lift my head once more but this time to devour his mouth. My lips mould onto his perfectly as I bite his lower lip softly sucking it. He grunts in response as I let out a soft deep moan.
He shifts his head to the other side so he can have more of my lips and he leans down further giving into me holding my hips bringing me into him. Raw passion. It is what we have at the moment as our mouths clash eagerly to taste the other. He bites into my cheek and his lips move down sucking and biting the nape of my neck.
“I am sorry,” I whisper as he stops his ravishing and clenches his jaw. “I crossed the line and I shouldn’t have done that despite our problems. I am sorry and I hope you can forgive me.”
Deimos sighs as he holds my face softly looking deep into my eyes as his thumb slides across my cheekbone. “Did I hurt you, my female?” He asks me gently and I shake my head no smiling as he kisses my forehead softly.
I place my hand on his beating heart and I meet his eyes once more. He looks at me brushing my hair away from my face.
“Forgive me, my male,” I whisper in the darkness of the night.