Ken’s p. o. v
“You stay here in the office, Ken and I will join you shortly.” Rhoyda said in the office softly.
Beca was still sobbing on Cobi’s laps who looked very sad. He was trying to calm her down by all means but she wasn’t stopping.
I guess I was worried about her for nothing when she disappeared. I even went to search for her in secret when no one was paying attention. As for Cobi, despite him talking badly and answering everyone coldly he really did care for her. As much as I didn’t want to admit it, she was in good hands with him.
“Shall we?” Rhoyda asked then walked out of the room before I could respond.
“Um… excuse us.” I whispered then went out following Rhoyda upstairs.
Immediately I walked into her room I could smell her tears before I could even see her face.
She stood still facing the wall with her back towards me.
“Have I not been trying so hard these past months?. Have I not changed even a little?” She asked in a cracked voice.
What was she talking about?. She was very perfect to me and everyone. She had completely changed for the better and I was head over heels for her.
“Why is it always her that you show such emotions to?” She asked confusing me.
“What are you talking about?” I asked softly.
She turned and faced me angrily, her eyes were switching between her usual color and her wolf’s.
“You are still in love with Beca aren’t you.” She asked.
“What?. No!” I answered on top of my voice.
“You love her Ken, did you not see how you defended her from her mate. I felt stupid as I stood there powerlessly, watching as you to….”
“Stop it,”I whispered with emphasis cutting her short.
She was breaking herself down and believing in lies.
“You don’t love me Ken, you just want me because we are mated to each other. Remember your words?. You said “You are nothing more than a selfish, self-centered bitch who cares about no one, but herself. The only conscious you have is your wolf. Without her, I would have rejected you and gone for Beca a long time ago. Your wolf is the only decent thing you have and the one I love and stand for. Day by day I wish she would take over and you could be locked up forever because you only bring me pain and sorrow.” She cried as I swallowed hard and moved closer.
“No.” She whispered in a cracked voice and took a step back when I was about to touch her hand.
“Rhoyda, don’t do this to us.” I whispered back softly.
“I know that I was a self-centered bitch, a cold one at that. But I was in love with you, even before my wolf took it upon herself to talk to you over how she felt. I was just confused and couldn’t seem to accept how I felt. But that night you told me how I was hurting you with my fucking selfishness, I took it upon myself to change for you, for me. for us!. I did all I could to make you happy because seeing you happy made me so happy as well.” She cried loudly.
I moved closer again, this time I grabbed her hand tightly in mine.
“Let go of my hand.” She cried on top of her voice.
“Rhoyda listen.” I said in nearly a scream.
She stopped moving and looked me in the eyes. Her beautiful cheeks were wet and her eyes slightly red.
I lifted my other hand and wiped off her tears.
“I love you a lot, so much that it even shocks me. In my life, I have never loved anyone before you. I can swear it on myself as well as the moon goddess. I can even take an oath or do anything to prove to you how I feel. You are the only woman that was and is in my life. Beca means nothing to me, she is like family, a younger sister. But if you don’t believe me, then I’ll ask Jason to banish her when he does return to our pack. That way she would never return to this pack and cause you worry. I know that it’s a very cold and selfish deed to do, but if it will make you see how much I love you, then I’m willing to do it.” I said sadly.
“I don’t want you to do all that. It’s just that it hurts Ken, watching you care for her that much. The way you touch her or even talk to her hurts me a lot. I don’t know how to cope with her around you.” She whispered softly.
I pulled her in my arms and rubbed her back gently.
“Do you know how hard it was for me knowing you are far away with other men?” I asked softly.
She pulled back and looked at me with widened eyes.
“No, it’s not revenge Rhoyda. I can never do that to you. I am just telling you what I had to go through. It was painful for both me and my wolf knowing that you were with other men, but we decided to keep away because as much as we searched for you, we couldn’t find you. Just when we had given up all hope on ever finding you. We met you at Jason’s mansion. We were overjoyed and so happy, we chose to stand by you and never let go. Since that day we have held on to our decision.” I said softly then sighed loudly.
“Those words I said in this same room a few months ago were spoken out of anger. I was angry with you for keeping the truth from me that I lost my composure and hurt you with my words. That’s why I want to make this clear now Rhoyda. Never, ever think that I am not in love with you and that you are a bitch or a bad woman. To me you are the best woman there is in the whole world. You changed for us and the people and for that I am so proud to call you my alpha and my mate. I am way head over heels with you than I was the first time. In my eyes, there is only you and no one else. So please do not cry or question my feelings for you because I am truly in love with you and you alone.” I said honestly as a smile touched her lips.
“I was jealous.” She whispered softly.
“I understand,” I answered softly.
“I didn’t mean to say all that, it’s just that when I saw her, I became scared as well. A part of me thought you still cared for her so much, not like a sister but as a lover.” She said.
“I do care for her just like a brother would, and I’m so sure she won’t want to see or talk to me after the truth I had told her.” I answered sadly.
She pressed her hand on my cheek and smiled widely.
“It wasn’t your fault Ken, you actually did good to take her in. If you had left her out in the cold, she could have died or been killed by some rogues. You did the right thing and gave her a second chance to life. Right now she is upset and very sad, but with time she will realize how much you had done for her.” She said softly.
I pulled her in my arms again and rested my head against hers.
“I don’t feel like going in that office.” I whispered when she wrapped her arms around my waist.
“I understand, but we can’t keep them waiting forever. You heard Jason’s orders. We have to talk to them and begin making plans for our pack’s renovations and expansion.” She answered.
I sighed and held her a little tighter.
“Can we stay like this for some minutes. I know that they too need time to talk things through.” I whispered.
“Of course. I love being in your arms.” She answered softly as I smiled happily.
I truly was head over heels for her and I loved it that way because to me there was never any woman who could make me easily submit to what I felt. Only she could.