Rhoyda’s p. o. v
After telling Ken the truth he stopped talking to me and seemed to not care.
I tried getting his attention by going out of the pack house and to town to give Jason his passport but that didn’t seem to work. In his eyes, I saw only anger and hate.
I was the disgrace of a mate who stood by and watched his own brother being stabbed.
As it was, Jason and Cole were out of the country and the only ones left to handle everything in our pack were Ken and I. But since Cole’s visit, we weren’t getting along.
“What am I to do to get his attention?. I knew what I did then wasn’t that okay. But I was young and stupid.” I whispered to my wolf as I slowly stepped out of the shower after closing the tap.
She was quiet and couldn’t respond nor say a word.
“Are you going to give me the same silent treatment as him?” I asked then walked out of the bathroom naked.
I walked to the mirror and looked at myself carefully.
There wasn’t anything displeasing about my body. Using it on him would be easy. Not every man was able to resist a sexy woman. Yet his mate, it was impossible.
A knock came at the door. I quickly brushed my wet hair backward and turned to face the entrance.
“Come in,” I answered knowing very well that it was Ken by his heavenly scent.
The door opened and he walked in, when his eyes went on my body, he immediately froze.
I smiled and pressed my hand on my hip hoping it would make him go crazy with lust.
His eyes roamed all over my body and just for a second I saw desire, lust, love, and warmth, and just like that it was gone.
“Alpha here are the files you had requested earlier.” He said as he moved closer and extended his hand to me.
What?. Was he Serious right now?.
“What’s wrong with you?” I asked seriously.
“What do you mean?” He asked back.
“I am standing, completely naked in front of you, my mate!” I said with emphasis.
“And I can see that clearly.” He answered seriously.
“Aren’t you suppose to feel something for me. Desire, Love, or perhaps Lust?” I asked on top of my voice.
He sighed loudly and looked me in the eyes.
“Before finding out about your true character and your past, I felt those. But now….., Now I feel regret and anger. How could I desperately want someone like you? When you said you didn’t want me, I chose to fight for you, for us. I even tolerated your shit Rhoyda, but this time you have crossed the line, I no longer want to be with you anymore.” He said as my heart instantly picked up.
What was he doing, rejecting me indirectly?.
“Are you rejecting me?” I asked in a whisper.
“Oh no, I’m not. Remember that I meant nothing to you?.” He asked back then turned to walk away.
“Are you upset because Jason and I kept everything from you, or is it because I stood still watching as Jason stabbed Cole?” I asked.
“I am not upset, but very disappointed in you for hiding everything from me as well as standing still as Jason stabbed Cole.” He answered as my heart ached.
“I couldn’t stop him even if I wanted to, don’t you understand tha….”
“That ego!. That same, fucking annoying ego of yours is what I hate the most!” He spat loudly when he turned to face me.
My eyes were filled with tears. His words were painful, very painful.
They weren’t only affecting me but also my wolf. I could feel her emotions and she was hurt by him.
“You think you are above everything and everyone don’t you. You want to be worshiped and kissed on your fucking feet, you think you are a fucking goddess just because you are an alpha. Well, let me break it down to you mate. You are nothing more than a selfish, self-centered bitch who cares about no one but herself. The only conscious you have is your wolf. Without her, I would have rejected you and gone for Beca a long time ago. Your wolf is the only decent thing you have and the one I love and stand for. Day by day I wish she would take over and you could be locked up forever because you only bring me pain and sorrow.” He spat as tears rolled on my cheeks.
“Now if you don’t mind alpha, we are done here. Excuse me.” He spat then turned and walked away.
My breath was labored and my feet cold.
He hated me so much that he went as far as wanting me locked up forever. If that’s what he truly wanted, then I was going to give him just that.
“What are you planning to do?” My wolf growled loudly.
I forced myself to walk to the wardrobe and pulled it open. I picked up a simple dress and wore it.
I then opened the drawer and grabbed my undies then put them on.
I put on my sleepers which were near the bed and walked out of the bedroom.
When I went out of the pack house, I walked to the training field where a few warriors were.
“Hi everyone.” I greeted.
They slightly bowed without a word.
So the news was out in the open, even without saying a word, I knew that they must have heard about Cole and Jason by now.
“I want wolfsbane,” I said loudly.
They all looked at each other but said nothing.
“If I kill a few of you, will you then give me what I want?” I asked seriously.
One tall, huge warrior stepped in front with a small bottle.
“Here. It is liquified, just a drop of it can get you high and tipsy so be careful.” He said as I smiled.
“Thank you. Now get the hell away from this place.” I commanded.
They quickly gave a slight bow and walked away.
“What are you doing?” My wolf asked loudly.
I ignored her and opened the bottle.
“No, you can’t do that. We will die if you take more than a few drops!” She growled loudly as I smirked with tears in my eyes.
“That’s the whole point, us dying.” I whispered then moved it to my lips.
Before I could take a sip, I was slapped by the hand.
“No,” I whispered when the bottle fell on the ground. I was about to kneel and pick it when I was grabbed by the hand roughly.
I looked up and gazed into ken’s golden eyes.
He looked beyond furious.
“Let go,” I whispered.
He walked back to the pack house dragging me along as he ignored my words.
Immediately we were in my bedroom he let go.
“I have never hit a woman before but right now I’m dying. to.” He growled loudly. I bite my lower lip with a labored breath then sighed softly.
“I’m sorry,” I whispered.
“So now you wanted to kill yourself and your wolf right?” He asked.
“No, I didn’t want to….. okay maybe I did. But I just me like you did then?” I asked sadly then sniffed as tears formed in my eyes.
“How about changing your character for good Rhoyda?” He asked as I lifted my hand and wiped off the tears from my cheeks.
“I will give you a few months to change and prove your love for me. If you do, I will stay with you and love you with my whole heart. If you don’t then I will reject you and we will go out separate ways.” He answered seriously.
“Okay,” I whispered then moved closer and hugged him as he stood still without hugging me back.
That was more than enough. I was going to change and become a great mate and woman for him.