Mia’s p. o. v
My eyes were slightly sore from crying, and my throat was very dry, I couldn’t stop blaming myself for everything that had happened.
Both my mates hated me and it was all my fault. My wolf growled at me to make me realize that she was against me too.
“They killed my father.” I whispered with tears on my cheeks.
Despite not talking to each other, I was trying to reason with her over everything. She was a part of me and taking my side was natural but sadly she took my mates’ side proudly.
“You being upset with me won’t help, they will still take those twin Alpha females as their mates and you and I will be left in pain. So help me out here, please. I don’t want them to leave me behind or reject us.” I told my wolf seriously.
She seemed very happy with my suggestion.
“Fine, if you want our mates to understand you then tell them the truth about what they did and what hurt you a lot in the past.” She answered.
“What if they hate me and want to end me?” I asked seriously.
“They won’t end you, I could see clearly how much they care for us. They love us too much to abandon us.” She answered.
I wanted to have her confidence but I was scared of them. Yes, I wanted to see past their threatening words and actions but I just couldn’t.
“If you won’t then they will have other women besides us in their arms.” She warned.
I stood up and walked out of my room and went to where their scent was. It led me Into a big bedroom. I walked in without knocking and found Brandon sitting on the bed. Landon was standing next to him.
They looked very surprised to see me in their room. I took in a deep breath then released it.
“I don’t hate you two in any way. I actually love you so much, I have been in love with you way before I could even feel any attraction towards you. Whenever I saw you, I felt very intimidated but yet very safe. Even that time when you ordered me to eat. I hated you so much and felt that you hated me. I wanted to vomit badly, but then I realized. If you indeed hated me like I thought you would, then why the hell were you feeding me. You could only do that when you felt something for me right?. I didn’t want to believe that but I did, and I found myself slowly falling in love with you both. I wanted both of you so much that I feared that I would forget about my revenge.” I said honestly.
“Revenge?” Landon asked softly.
Maybe it was time to let them know how I truly felt about my past.
“Yes, Revenge. You might not remember this, but the time that you ambushed my pack you killed the alpha and my father who knew nothing about you two. I had no problem with anyone in the pack but you two. That day you took away the only thing I had ever loved, the only one I had lived for and worked hard for. You broke my heart and left me in tears. I hated you so much that I wished for your death a thousand times in my life. To me, you were just some attractive assholes who had it all. The women, pack and riches. But then the moon Goddess decided to make us mates. I realized that what I felt for both of you was stronger than my will of revenge. I didn’t know what to do or how to act. I felt horrible and felt guilty to my late Father because I was betraying him with you, how was I to revenge his death if I was in love with the killers.” I cried loudly.
They kept quiet for a minute then looked at each other. Brandon sighed softly then pat his laps.
I looked at him confused, Landon gestured to me to move forward. I hesitated but moved closer, Brandon grabbed my hand and pulled me in his lap gently.
“We had no idea that we did that your father, all we thought was that you feared and hated us a lot. If we knew we murdered your father we could have tried to attorn for our sins everyday.” He said as I felt a lump form in my throat.
I broke down crying in his arms because it still hurt a lot and all this time I was holding it in.
“He was all I had.” I cried.
Landon moved closer and sat next to us leaning his head on my back, the tingles I felt from both of them were calming me down, sadly I couldn’t stop crying.
“It hurts because I fight myself over what I feel for the both of you and what I have to do to honour my father.” I cried.
Landon pulled back and cleared his throat.
“If it would make you feel any better. You can go ahead and reject us, that would put us in unbearable pain and make us pay for our sins. Mia, we love you a lot that we are willing to go under any punishment to have your forgiveness. That time we ambushed your pack we didn’t do it for wealth and resources. There was a certain woman we wanted to kill. But the alpha and his beta stood in our way protecting her. We had no patience for waiting, that’s why we did what we thought was right at that time. I’m seriously not saying that we were right to hurt and kill your father, I’m trying to make you understand that we were pissed and our reason was gone.” He said as I stood up from his laps.
“I really want to reject you and live my life. But sadly I can’t, you are what I want.” I whispered then rushed out of the room and went to mine.
I lay on my bed sobbing, maybe I was a bad child. How could I not take their offer of rejecting them? To me, it was them I needed and they were all I could want, I was confused and hurt over what I wanted and needed to do.