I looked at the people who were talking.
They were two young women I didn’t know.
I didn’t think of anything and went straight over and said, “only the living can see you cry. I was filial when she was alive!”
The two didn’t seem to expect me to contradict them.
They froze, and one of them said, “were you filial?”
“I heard Sherry gave you a house and shares!”
“Yes, if she gives me these, I’m willing to be filial.”
They had been talking.
Everyone looked at us.
Jessica came in at once and said to me discontentedly, “stop fighting! Do you know where it is? It’s your grandma’s memorial meeting!”
“I know.”I looked at the two women.”Who are they? Why can such kind of people attend my grandma’s memorial meeting?”
“Such kind of people?”The two women were angry.
One of them said to Jessica, “Auntie, I’m here for uncle’s sake!”
“Well, I’ll get her out of here.”
Jessica smiled at the two women and said to me, “get out of here! Don’t make trouble!”
I didn’t understand. Jessica was the elder of these two women.
Why was Jessica so nice to them?
But it was Grandma’s memorial meeting after all.
Grandma was lying there. I didn’t want her to feel noisy after her death.
I took a look at two women and went out.
Jessica sorted out the autograph book after I went out. She didn’t look up and said, “June, when my mother was alive, she was the only one who admitted that you belonged to Carter Family. We did not refuse. Now that my mother died, you no longer belong to Carter Family.”
“Do you think I am willing? I just think Grandma is my family.”With that, I took two steps forward. I thought of something and came back and said, “I’ll come back to her funeral. I won’t come back in the future.”
Jessica looked up at me. Her eyes were a little complicated.
I finished and left.
I went out with my bag. When I went out, I saw Ming’s car parked there. He stood next to the car.
He smiled when he saw me.
I was depressed. I didn’t want to say anything, but I thought of Ming driving me and waiting for me for a long time.
I hesitated and said, “thank you.”
Ming seemed to find out something wrong with me. He put a hand on my shoulder.”What’s the matter?”
“Nothing.”
I looked down and thought about Sherry.
She lay there as if she were asleep. How could she never wake up again?
When I was confused, I heard Ming say, “come on, I’ll take you to a place.”
Before I reacted, he pushed me to the car.
He started the car.
After a few hours, the car drove to the door of a small courtyard. He took out the key and pressed the remote control on it. The iron door opened slowly.
He drove in and parked.
He got out of the car and took my wrist and walked into the house.
Maybe it was Sherry’s death that made me confused. I didn’t resist when he did these things.
He opened the door of the house. It was dark inside.
He wanted to pull me in and I started to fight.
It was dark in the room. I was afraid of such a space!
But Ming didn’t let me go. He was so strong that he pulled me in at once!
“Ah!”
He closed the door directly after I went in.
My heart suddenly began to fear.
I couldn’t help shivering.
I even thought Sean had told me before that Ming wasn’t a good person and kept me away from him.
I began to regret not listening to Sean.
I stood still.
When I was in despair, I was suddenly surrounded by a pair of strong arms.
I panicked and subconsciously tried to push him away.
The next second I heard his soft voice, “no one sees you now. You’re the only one here. You can cry if you want. Don’t try to be brave.”
His voice seemed magical!
I calmed down in an instant.
The faint smell of disinfectant on his body penetrated into my nose and calmed me down.
I stood still and felt Ming’s gentle embrace. His hands were on my back.”Everyone has people he cares about and times he feels sad,” he said.”I can’t see or hear anything. You’re the only one here.”
I was the only one here.
I knew it was a self deception.
But my heart was moved by him!
I held Ming in my arms and wept.
I didn’t say anything but cried holding him.
I had all sorts of emotions in my head. I remembered being looked down upon because I was born in an orphanage. I was hurt by Sean. Daniell and Sherry, who were really nice to me, died.
All kinds of feelings were mixed together.
I was venting myself in this dark room.
I didn’t know how long I cried. I only knew that later I was hoarse and my eyes were swollen. At last I fell asleep in the light smell of disinfectant.
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When I woke up again, it was very bright around me. I picked up my cell phone and looked at the time.
It was 4:37 p. m. on the day of the memorial meeting.
“Where am I?”
I got up and looked out of the window.
All kinds of plants were planted outside. It looked like a small yard.
Yard…
I realized that I was still in the dark house, but at this time, the curtains had been opened. The whole house was released from the darkness.
There was a pair of white slippers in front of the bed.
I put on the slippers and pushed the door open.
I saw Ming lying on the sofa in the living room. His eyes were closed but he wore glasses. He had an English book on him.
I saw a white shirt hanging in the yard.
I remembered when I cried, I had a lot of snivels. I was emotional so I rubbed them on his shirt.
I couldn’t help being embarrassed at the thought of this.
I went back to the room and took the blanket I had just covered. I walked gently to Ming’s side.
I squatted down and listened to the sound of even breathing in his nose. I covered him lightly.
I watched Ming in silence. He was much older than me, but his skin was very good.
His glasses were on the bridge of his nose. They seemed to be sliding down. I gently removed his glasses for him.