I was heaving, I felt my head spin. It was silent, I was worried. I glanced at Eva who was cleaning Layton and Lana.
… They were silent…
There was no crying…I know they were early but… Surely they were okay… I mean, they mention how the shots of wolfsbane I received could’ve affected them but… They had to be okay… I lost too much for it not to be…
Benlyam held my limp hand. He held me during the entirety of labor, although sometimes I would rip my hand out of his just to hit his arm when the contractions were too sharp. He didn’t mind.
I kept my eyes on our babies. They were small, they were early. I never experienced children, I didn’t know what was to be expected. Sure, I read the pregnancy books with Benlyam, but I felt like that couldn’t compare to the actual moment.
Reseda seemed confused as well. That confused me. During my whole time here, Reseda always knew what she was doing and although she was fazed at some points, she knew what to do.
But she had a crease in her eyebrow as she picked up Layton to help Eva.
“What’s wrong?” I heard her whisper to Eva as they cleaned him. My heart stopped for a moment and I squeezed Benlyam’s hand.
He heard it too, a growl instinctively left his lips. He rubbed my hand comfortably but I felt anger in him.
( ‘Everything’s okay, it’s okay.’ )
“Nothing’s wrong with our pups!” he barked at them, I saw the babies hands move.
… That’s a good sign…
“Yes, Alpha,” Eva said as she turned our way, “they seem to be fine, everything’s okay.” Eva neared me and put her hands near mine, giving me Lana and Reseda carefully placed Layton in my other arm. “Here you go, mama,” Eva spoke lightly, pulling away.
I knocked with a tsunami of pure love.
… Oh my…
Benlyam let go of my hand so I could cradle them. I couldn’t help the coo that left my lips. They blinked up at me with their precious eyes and I felt my eyesight blur with tears of total joy.
“Awe, sweets…” I choked out and instinctively hugged them into me. I glanced over at Benlyam and he had the biggest smile on his face as his eyes mirrored mine. He glanced up at me and chuckled, it was soft and full of joy.
Eva reached down to fix something on Lana’s blanket and she instantly cried out. My mind froze, it completely blanked. Once Lana cried out, Layton did as well. I despised that sound, I wanted to make it stop. Not because I was annoyed but because it physically hurt me.
I saw Benlyam wince and then glare at Eva. He started to growl at the fact that she made our babies cry, even though moments ago we were wondering why they weren’t.
Eva swallowed and took a step back, “Sorry, Alpha, Luna,” she nodded and went back to help Reseda and the midwife.
They calmed down as I shushed them, Benlyam carefully reached out to stroke Layton’s head, he was closer to him. They instantly stilled and relaxed into my chest, slightly fussy but calmer.
Nursing was a nice solution and they soon fell drowsy but, sadly, they couldn’t sleep on me. The midwife moved them into a cot comfortably and set it near the bed. I let out a breath as Benlyam and I was finally left alone.
I felt exhausted and Benlyam picked up on it immediately. He brushed some hair behind my ears and he picked up my hand, kissing it.
“I’m so proud of you, Flower. I love you so much,” he wiped one of my tears away.
“I love you, Benlyam,” I cupped his hand against my face, “they’re so precious, I love them so much,” I smiled and he chuckled, agreeing.
“Are you feeling okay?” he asked gently.
“Just tired,” I nodded. He gave a light smile.
He kissed my hand again, “get some rest, Flower, I’ll be here.”
“Where are you going to sleep?” I furrowed my brows, “I can scoot over, Bee,” I patted the bed. He had to be tired, we were up all night.
He laughed and shook his head, “I’m good, honey. I’ve learned how to sleep in hospital chairs, you’re fine, just get some rest.”
I scooted over anyway, despite his sigh and attempt to still me. I patted the bed and he blinked at me, he wasn’t having it.
“Please? I want to sleep with you,” I did my best eyes I could and he sighed as he tilted his head, his eyes darkening.
“Violet, just go to sleep. I’m not going to disturb you.”
“Bee, please,” I whined and I even pouted my lips- he better get over here. He sighed out again as he took in my face and bit his lip. I just gave birth, he better get over here.
… Please?…
“Fuck, Flower,” he groaned as he stood up and I beamed at him, moving over more, “so stubborn… You can stop moving, I’m not fat unless you’re trying to tell me something?” He playfully raised an eyebrow and he laid down.
“Not at all!” I smiled at him as I lifted my head so he could slide his arm under me. He lightly and carefully pulled me closer into him and kissed the top of my head.
He hummed, “Goodnight, Flower. Love you,” he gave another kiss as I peered up at him.
“Wanna know something?” he smiled and raised an eyebrow, “I was right, Layton was first.”
He chuckled lightly, “Yes, you were,” he kissed me and we fell asleep.
It’s been two weeks since we’ve had twins. The first week was rough, my breasts were always sore and I was exhausted, Benlyam was getting tired as well even though it wasn’t as bad as me.
Trying to get them on the same sleeping schedule was hard because the moment Lana would pass out, Layton would cry and wake her up. Or when Layton went to sleep, Lana would be hungry.