Bella hugged Kevin sadly and said, “I know. I know all about it, but it doesn’t matter. No matter what you become, you are perfect in my heart. I am willing to help you out of your predicament.”
Kevin’s body suddenly stiffened like a block of stone, and he painfully questioned, “How could you know?”
“Because I believe that you once loved me like life and won’t hate me to the point of being disgusted by even looking at me just because I left two years ago.”
Her words softened Kevin’s cold and desperate heart, and he slowly buried his head into her chest, like a wounded child longing for his mother’s love and care.
“Don’t be sad. It’s nothing serious, but just some bad memories. As long as we are determined enough, no matter what kind of shadow, we can banish it from our hearts.”
Bella gently stroked his hair, soothing his wounded soul, “From now on, just give yourself to me. Even if it is hard to talk about in front of others, there is no need to keep your self-respect in front of me. I am your shadow, who will not hate your own body.”
“Bella, may I? I’ve had no hope in myself for two years … and no matter how hard I try, I can’t get myself back up …”
“You can do it, trust me.”
Bella gave him a look of certainty. She didn’t actually believe in Kevin, but she believed in herself that with her position in Kevin’s heart, she would be able to awaken the most primal response of the man in his body.
“Turn off the lights, will you?”
Kevin proposed.
“Alright.”
Bella nodded heavily, willing to cooperate with anything he asked to bring him back to the past.
The lights were turned off, and they were plunged into blurred darkness, but fortunately, the moon outside the window was bright, and they could see each other’s body vaguely with the help of the soft moonlight.
Kevin unbuttoned the collar of Bella’s pajamas, trembling. They sat face to face, like two young boys and girls with the beginning of their love affair, with a hint of nervousness about what was going to happen next.
Ah-
Bella screamed, but she was happy about the pain. At this time, they felt suddenly lost. The joy was so short that when her body just felt it, Kevin went limp.
It was deadly silent. Bella was startled to look at the man who felt lost by her side, suddenly reached out and hugged him, “It’s okay, it’s okay. It is already good. Although it is short, at least you got it up. It is a good phenomenon. Let’s try again, okay?”
Kevin shook his head woodenly and said tiredly, “Next time, I’m tired.”
Bella understood that he was sad in his heart, so she didn’t force him.
Both of them were silent, and after a long time, Bella pretended to be asleep, then Kevin, whose back was to her, turned over, gently kissed her forehead, and said sadly, “I’m sorry, Bella. I’ve let you down.”
‘I’m not disappointed. I’m not disappointed. I’m not disappointed at all!’
But she didn’t open her eyes and speak in front of him. The more she showed that she didn’t mind, the more guilty he would feel, and he might push her away again.
She heard him let out a helpless and heavy sigh, and then he got up, went to the floor window, lit a cigarette. In the darkness, even the jumping light looked incomparably sad and lonely. Yes, his male dignity encountered a serious blow. With so much effort, in the end, he still failed.
This made him feel frustrated, incredibly frustrated …
Bella gazed at the lonely man in front of the window, and tears fell down from her eyes. She wanted to get up to go over to him to give him a hug and let him not discourage himself, but she could not do that. Everyone needed space for relief, so she could not deprive his chance to breathe by rushing to help him out of the predicament.
She kept watching him all night.
This night, the cigarette in his hand burned until dawn. One went out and another was lit.
After feeling frustrated that night, Kevin was very gloomy for several days. Bella was very sensitive and didn’t bother him again, wanting to give him some time to sort out his mood.
This evening, when Bella packed things up in the office ready to leave work, Lily walked in.
“What’s the matter?”
She asked with confusion.
Lily stared at her when her face fell, and said only after a while, “Did you know about Mr. Jones-Sharp’s hidden illness?”
Bella’s heart thumped, not because of Lily’s questioning, but because she even knew Kevin’s secret. Was this girl very important to Kevin?
“Yes, what’s wrong with you?”
“Didn’t I warn you not to try to pry into his privacy, so why are you doing it at your own whim? Are you happy to see Mr. Jones-Sharp in a miserable mood these days?”
Bella was grieved, but she didn’t want to explain too much to the girl in front of her, “I don’t bother talking to you. It’s between him and me.” She picked up the backpack and left without looking back.
When she got home in the evening, she looked very pale and didn’t talk much during dinner, so her mother-in-law asked with concern, “Bella, did you have a bad day?”
She shook her head, “No.”
“Then why are you moping?”
Since moving back to the Cloud Mansion, Bella, in order to add some joy to the family, Bella said a lot during every dinner. Although Kevin rarely said anything, he was always very patient in listening. But she almost didn’t say a word today, in addition to Blanch, Kevin was also a bit uncomfortable.
After dinner, she sat in the living room to chat with her mother-in-law for more than two hours, and Bella didn’t go upstairs.
At this time, her cell phone received a text message, “Make me a cup of coffee and bring it to the study.”
Well, she snorted. Did he treat her as a slave, right?
She was unhappy, but she still got up to make coffee for him, and went into the study room without knocking, put the coffee on the table, and turned around to leave.
When she suddenly stopped, she didn’t want to say anything, but she couldn’t hold back her grievances and turned around and said angrily, “I know your hidden illness is very important, but why does Lily know such an important thing? You try to hide from me, your wife, your parents who raised you, your best brother, and then an unknown girl knew it before us. Is she more important than us? Or do you think she understands you better than we do?!”
Kevin calmly looked at her, which was flushed with excitement, and gently asked, “Do you mind?”
“Yes, I mind. I mind this ambiguous relationship between you!”
After roaring, Bella closed the door and walked away angrily …
On a weekend evening, Kevin asked Lily out. Looking at the red wine dishes on the table, Lily showed a light smile.
“Mr. Jones-Sharp, why did you ask me out for a candlelight dinner tonight?”
Kevin gestured with his hand for her to sit down, “It’s as if I’ve never invited you to dinner before,” He teased.
“We had dinner before, but it doesn’t seem to be in such a nice atmosphere.”
Lily was faintly worried, “You’re not going to say something cruel to me in such an atmosphere, are you?”
“Let’s eat first.”
Kevin diverged from the topic.
After dinner was over, Lily got up and walked over to Kevin, asking softly, “Have you been visiting Dr. Wolf lately?”
“Well, I have.”
“So, do you want me to try it for you? How’s the recovery?”
Kevin looked at her steadily and said solemnly, “Lily, I asked you out today is to tell you I don’t need your help anymore. Bella already knows about this matter, and she will help me.”
Lily’s expression stiffened, “Did you tell her that?”
“No, she found out on her own.”
“You’re lying. If you didn’t tell her, how would she know?”
“She went to see Dr. Wolf.”
Lily scoffed and smiled, “She really cares about you. In that case, why did she abandon you in the first place?”
“It wasn’t her fault.”
“You’re making excuses for her.”
“I don’t need to do that. You wouldn’t understand the feelings I have for her.”
“What about my feelings for you? Do you understand?”
Lily was suddenly anxious and questioned.
Kevin sighed, apologized, and said, “I’m sorry Lily. I love Bella, so when I face her, I will at least have a little sexual passion. But I have none when I face you, completely just to see the treatment effect. It’s the difference between love and without love … ” He paused, “Thank you for your companionship these two years, and from now on you can go after your own happiness.”
“What do you mean? Do you ask me to leave the company?”
Lily was tearful.
Kevin took out a check from his wallet, “Didn’t you always want to go abroad for further training? This money is a gift from me. Please don’t look at it as a reward for the work you’ve done for two years and accept it freely.”
“Is that what she meant?”
“No, it’s my own idea.”
“Why?”
“I don’t want her to be upset by you.”
Lily cried, didn’t accept the check, and cried, running out of the western restaurant filled with a romantic atmosphere.
On Friday, Quintin came to B city and asked Bella to take a day off to accompany him. Bella didn’t refuse.
They hadn’t seen each other for half a month. As soon as Quintin got off the airplane, he rushed to her, reached out, and hugged her, “Haley, I really miss you.”
Bella struggled a bit, embarrassed, “Well, so many people are looking at us. How did you have the time to come over today?”