Under the painful psychological torture, Bella was ultimately unable to overcome her senses, put on a jacket, and walked towards the door of the living room.
Kevin had been closed his eyes, feeling the baptism of the heavy rain, which fell to his heart and washed away the tiredness in his heart little by little. He did not feel cold and tired and didn’t regret persistence at this moment.
Suddenly, the rain overhead no longer fell, and there was a familiar scent approaching him. He slowly opened his eyes. In front of him was the woman he thought about day and night, holding a green umbrella, gazing deeply at him.
“Go back. What can you do standing here?”
Bella said this to him with a blank expression and prepared to leave, but she heard him say, “Then what can you solve by hiding here?”
She turned her head, “I’m not hiding. I haven’t done anything wrong. Why would I hide?”
“Is that how you plan to live for the rest of your life? Are you going to watching me stand outside your window but not coming closer to me during your lifetime?”
“I just don’t think I’m strong enough inside to face you.”
“What do you want me to do? What can I do to let you forgive me?”
“You don’t need to do anything. It’s not about forgiving or not between us originally.”
Kevin’s body was trembling. He knew what kind of problem Bella was referring to. Bella turned her back and told him with feigned calmness, “Don’t come back, and then don’t stand here like a fool when I haven’t figured out how to face all this.”
She took a firm step to get out of Kevin’s sight. Kevin’s eyes blurred once again. He could no longer see her back but could only see a green umbrella getting farther and farther away from him. At that moment, his heart hurt as if he would lose the most important thing after that green disappeared.
“Bella, don’t leave. Don’t leave me …”
He suddenly rushed forward like a madman, hugging Bella tightly from behind, his cheek buried into her neck, sadly saying, “I never thought that what I look like if I lose Bella. I don’t have any confidence in myself …”
Bella’s tears flowed out of her eyes, and the umbrella in her hand fell to the ground. They who clearly loved each other couldn’t stay together, crying sadly on the rainy night.
“It’s all my fault. I shouldn’t have forgotten your advice that night and let Freya have a loophole to exploit. All of this could have been avoided, but I was too trusting of her and let you get hurt like that. Bella, I’m sorry. I’m actually very sad.”
“It’s too late to say anything. Since what’s done is done, let’s take responsibility for what’s done.”
How desperate does it have to be to say such a helpless phrase …
Kevin was angry, “Even if all people can say that to me, only you can’t. Don’t you know how I feel about you?”
“What’s the point of knowing your feelings about me? Will the child turn out to be someone else’s because I know exactly what you feel about me?”
“How do you prove that child is mine?”
“And how do you prove that child is not yours?”
“Since none of it can be proven, don’t bother with the existence of this child. As long as we truly love each other, there is no reason that can separate us.”
Bella laughed mockingly, “Can we escape that? That’s a living child, not a toy to be just ignored if you want to.”
“Then what do you want? Aren’t you sad to see my heart break every day?”
“Are you the only one with a broken heart?
Bella turned around in tears, “It’s not about what I want now. I had absolutely no choice. I’ve never been so helpless in life.”
“But at least I thought you’d face it with me no matter how hard it is. You used to say that it didn’t matter what the outcome was as long as you stuck with it, so why won’t you even stick with it now that it’s happening to you? Even there’s hope that the child is not mine likely, and you should hold on to that hope, shouldn’t you? …”
Kevin’s voice trembled, a hint of pleading in his tone. He wished so much that Bella could stand with him in this difficult time.
However, he was disappointed. Bella said nothing and entered the villa, closing the door that separated them.
The rain was still falling, and he picked up the umbrella on the ground that had been abandoned in solitude, on his leaden feet, and left step by step in despair.
Bella, leaning against the door, cried hard. She didn’t want to face the dilemma with Kevin, but she couldn’t get through it in her heart. It was not a common predicament, but her final dignity as a woman.
If betrayal was a form of courage, then accepting betrayal required an even greater form of courage. The former only needed to be brave enough, or perhaps just be impulsive or momentary helpless, but the latter tested the degree of tolerance, which was not simple like being impulsive. The only thing needed was time.
Knock knock-.
There was a knock on the door, and she braced herself to stand up and open the door behind her, and there stood the departed Kevin, his hair with droplets of water, “Can I have a hot shower? I’m cold now.”
When she didn’t say anything, he added, “I won’t go home. I’ll just spend the night in the car, and in this state, if I don’t take a shower and change into clean clothes, I’m worried I’ll get sick.” He chuckled at his own self-deprecation, “It’s hard now, and I’m alone. I can’t let myself fall down anyway.”
Bella looked up with her empty eyes and finally made her way out of the way, allowing him to enter the house.
Kevin walked straight into the bathroom, and soon there was the sound of water in the bathroom.
She went to her room to bring him out a set of clothes. There were a lot of clothes in this villa for her and Kevin coming over for living for a short period of time before.
Sitting on the sofa, her thoughts were in a mess, one hand to the forehead. She wanted to give up but felt reluctant. If she did not give up, she felt herself without dignity. In a daze, it was as if she heard that night Kevin said: I have never hidden anything from you. If I have hidden you once in a while, please forgive me …
“At least I thought you should hold on … Even if there was a zero percent chance of that.”
Her ears constantly echoed with Kevin’s helpless words, and she woke up suddenly when Kevin had already finished showering and went out, gazing deeply and sighing helplessly, “I’m leaving.”
She sent him to the door and stared at his broad shoulders, which had once been her warmest reliance, but now, she didn’t even dare to touch it.
Kevin said that he had never thought about what he would become without Bella. So did she. It was likely that there would be no place to even perch because there was only a home where he was.
Suddenly, she reached out and hugged Kevin’s sturdy waist, her face pressing against his back, and said with tears, “Well, I don’t want anything for you, not my principles, not my pride, not my feelings …”
Because there was still a little bit of reluctance, she couldn’t bear to let Kevin leave like this. Love always had to have one to sacrifice, and Kevin already had nothing to sacrifice for her, so only she made the sacrifice for him.
Kevin also shed tears of gratitude, because he was grateful to Bella who did not give up on him when he was desperate.
They hugged each other tightly and didn’t speak to each other, just shedding tears silently. Even if they didn’t speak, they could feel each other’s feelings, wanting to protect each other well and this crumbling marriage.
Bella followed Kevin back home, and when Kevin tried to solve Freya’s problem, he couldn’t find her. It was as if she had vanished from the earth.
Nevertheless, he didn’t give up his intention to find her and sent people around every day to look for her. Until one day, he received an email-…
“Kevin, don’t bother looking for me anymore. In order to ensure the safety of me and my child, I have now reached a place where you can’t find me. It is absolutely impossible that you want to remove me and get together with Bella. I won’t begrudge myself for the sake of fulfilling you. Let’s see you in two months.”
Kevin smashed a fist on the table and almost smashed the screen. Freya blatantly challenged his bottom line. He ordered Louis to send more people to find out the woman. Bella had agreed to stand on his side, but he was clear that this was only temporary. If he wanted to make her stand on his side forever, he must make an end with her before Freya went out to make troubles.
On the same day that Kevin received Freya’s email, Bella also received the same email with different content-.
“When I first met you, I knew that you were not easy to deal with, and it turned out that you were indeed like that. You are strong enough inside that it is unbelievable that your husband has a child with another woman but you can even forgive him. But I still want to advise you not to try to let Kevin deal with my baby and me by your pillow talk. If you are confident in your position, then let’s wait two months and see the results.”
When Kevin came home in the evening, Bella stayed sitting on the bed and asked him softly, “Have you been looking for Freya?”
Kevin was stunned, “Yes, how did you know?”
“What do you want with finding her?”
“I want to tell her to leave with her child and never set foot in B City again.”
“What if she doesn’t? Will you kill her?”
Bella looked up expressionlessly, waiting for his answer.
“How could I do such a thing? No matter that child is mine or not, it’s innocent.”
“That’s right. Don’t look for her again. I’ll convince myself to accept it no matter what the end result is since I’ve chosen to side with you. You don’t need to cause panic to a pregnant woman just to concern with my feelings.”