“Congratulations.” Lan Si picked up his red wine glass and clinked it with Shang Jinshen’s. “But that’s true. How can you hand over a woman you’ve spent so much effort on? I remember that you were infected with drugs because of her. You really want a woman to die. Do you know what will happen to you if you make a mistake?”
“I’ve never been wrong. I know what kind of person she is.”
Ji Yan didn’t listen to the latter part of the sentence. She could only think of the words of Lan Si. He said that it was Shang Jinshen who did it on purpose. Shang Jinshen said that he knew what kind of person she was.
The pain, sadness, and sadness all reappeared in front of her eyes. When she thought back to those days, she found them particularly ridiculous.
After Lan Si left, Ji Yan came out of the darkness. Her eyes were slightly red, and she seemed to have lost her soul and support. She looked at Shang Jinshen in a daze. “Is red wine delicious? Give me a glass.”
Shang Jinshen came over and wanted to hold Ji Yan’s hand. Ji Yan avoided his hand and said, “I said pour me a glass of wine.” Ji Yan looked up at Shang Jinshen. After looking at him for a while, Ji Yan walked to the table and said, “It seems that you don’t want to pour me a glass of wine. I’ll pour myself a glass.”
Ji Yan poured a glass of wine, drank it, and looked at Shang Jinshen. “Sometimes I feel that you are so terrible that I can’t figure it out. It seems that everything is in your plan, as if no one or nothing can be obtained by you. In addition to feeling that you are terrible, I am glad that I am special.” Ji Yan smiled sarcastically. “But it is not until today that I realize that I am not. I am also in that range. It is a person you can take, a person you can use as a pawn, a person you can scheme against. I should be glad that I am a pawn, but you can kill me.”
Shang Jinshen reached out and wanted to hug Ji Yan, but Ji Yan took a step back. “Don’t get close to me, Shang Jinshen. I want to ask you now. At that time, I felt guilty, sad, and distressed. You’ve seen all this. Do you think it’s ridiculous? Do you think there is such a stupid woman in your heart? She was sold by me and even counted the money for me.”
Shang Jin looked at Ji Yan and said, “Listen to my explanation.”
“Explain? Explain what? Your so-called explanation is to use a lie to replace another lie, isn’t it?” Ji Yan’s smile became even more ironic. “I don’t understand. What exactly do you think I am in your heart?”
Ji Yan picked up the bottle, poured herself a glass of red wine, drank it up, smashed the glass hard, and smashed the bottle. She did not ask as softly as before, but shouted excitedly, “Tell me, what am I? Do I still worth anything in your heart?”
White and green glass fragments were all over the ground, which looked very gorgeous in the sunshine.
Shang Jinshen came over and hugged Ji Yan. Ji Yan didn’t struggle or resist. “Shang Jinshen, tell me, what am I?”
“Listen to my explanation,” Shang Jinshen said in a low voice.
Ji Yan smiled and said, “Explain, what do you want to explain? You want to say that because you like me and love me too much, that’s why you do this. You want to scheme against me? Ha, I think it’s ridiculous. If you want to say this, forget it.”
Feeling that Ji Yan was about to push him away, Shang Jin hugged Ji Yan even tighter.
Ji Yan felt his resistance and said feebly, “I want to take a bath and be quiet now. I have a lot of things to think about. Can you give me this power?”
Shang Jinshen personally took her to the bathroom, checked the doors and windows, and took away all the things that were enough to cost her life.
Ji Yan watched all this coldly throughout the whole process. When everything was taken away, Ji Yan looked at her and said, “Do you think I will commit suicide? You really think too highly of yourself.” After saying that, Ji Yan walked into the bathroom.
Turning on the shower, Ji Yan slowly sat on the ground. What did she hate most? It was betrayal, but she was betrayed again and again. Did they all think that she had no heart and would not feel pain?
Ji Yan watched as the water slowly flowed past her feet. After the first drop of tears fell, it began to fall non-stop, from silent to alive.
Despair and helplessness. Even so, he had to make a decision.
Ji Yan washed for half an hour and cried for half an hour. She put on her bathrobe and looked at herself in the mirror. Her eyes were slightly red. She did not intend to hide the fact that she had cried. No matter what, she was just a girl.
When Ji Yan opened the door and came out, she saw Shang Jingshen smoking on the balcony. Seeing him put out the cigarette, he walked over to her.
Shang Jinshen looked at Ji Yan’s red eyes and asked in a low voice, “Are you crying?”
“Can I not cry?” Ji Yan sat down by the bed. “I think we should talk about our affairs. I think we need to calm down separately. I am now…”
Shang Jinshen interrupted Ji Yan. “How much time do you need to calm down?” Shang Jinshen looked at Ji Yan and asked, “A week, a month, or a year?”
Ji Yan looked up at Shang Jinshen and said, “An engagement party.”
She was once again interrupted by Shang Jinshen. “I can postpone the engagement party. I can do it as long as I want.”
Ji Yan stared at Shang Jinshen and said, “I mean, if the engagement party is canceled, let’s break up.”
Shang Jinshen stood up. “It’s not a big deal. I can explain it clearly. Listen to me, okay?”
“For you, if deception is not a big deal, then our lives will be full of lies in the future. I don’t want to live like this, and I don’t want to hear your explanation.” Ji Yan lowered her head and said slowly, “Shang Jingshen, let’s get together.”
Shang Jinshen looked at Ji Yan with a complicated look in his eyes. Originally, it was a good day, but now it was covered with dark clouds and lightning. Shang Jinshen’s eyes were gloomy. “Good at gathering and scattering? Why do you think we can get together and scatter? How dare you say goodbye to me?”
Ji Yan suddenly felt that Shang Jinshen was very scary. She got up and wanted to run, but he pulled her back and pressed her against the bed.
Shang Jinshen reached out to take off Ji Yan’s bathrobe. Ji Yan wanted to retreat, but was held down by him. She couldn’t move at all.
Ji Yan was scared. The moment her bathrobe fell to the ground, she was scared. The lightning flashed, and the thunder followed. “Shang Jinshen, aren’t you afraid that I hate you?”
“I don’t mind that you hate me more.” It was better than not feeling anything.
Her soul, which had been dormant for many years, bled a lot. Ji Yan had never encountered anything too terrible, but now she was afraid of Shang Jinshen.
The thunder and lightning flashed across the sky and lit up the bed. One of the two people on the bed was crying silently, and the other stubbornly expressed his love in his own way. Both of them were poor children. They were so pitiful that they didn’t know how to touch each other, but they still wanted to hug each other.
The rain had frightened them for an unknown period of time, and they had rolled for an unknown period of time.