When they got home, they were busy again. When they lay down on the bed, it was almost early in the morning.
Although a full day had passed, Shang Jinshen still felt that there was still some energy in his body that had yet to be released.
The big palm reached out from the bottom of Ji Yan’s shirt. The soft and smooth touch made people forget it. From the belly button to the slender waist, it moved all the way to his favorite white and soft.
Ji Yan patted his big palm tiredly and muttered, “Go to sleep!”
“Well, go to sleep. Don’t worry about me,” Shang Jinshen replied neatly. He didn’t hesitate at all, and he didn’t feel ashamed of his shamelessness at all. His other hand had begun to take off the clothes.
… Don’t worry about it…
Clenching her teeth tightly, Ji Yan held back her curses and was speechless. “Don’t worry about you! Be gentle!”
…
“Young Master, we’re here.” The driver parked the car in an elegant place. There were very few people, but it was rare for it to be quiet and not messy. Everything was in order. Only the fallen leaves on the roadside gave rise to a sad atmosphere for no reason.
“Yes.” Shang Jinshen replied in a cold voice. He took Ji Yan’s driver’s car and ordered the driver to pick them up an hour later.
Taking a deep breath, Ji Yan tilted her head to look at Shang Jinshen and said with emotion, “The air here is good!”
“They all smell like dead people. It’s really good.”
Ji Yan didn’t know whether to breathe or breathe. She could only widen her beautiful eyes to express her dissatisfaction.
Shang Jinshen stared at her with a playful smile in his eyes. After a while, he put his arm around her shoulder and walked to the cemetery.
The cemetery was very large, and the people who came to sweep it were in twos and threes. Most of them looked sad. Even if the deceased had passed away, they could not let go of them and lived in their hearts.
Along the gray and white bridge, there was no vitality, only cold floor tiles and some dry leaves. And this place was empty and desolate under the broom of the grave cleaner.
“Here, it’s here.” Shang Jin pointed to a black tombstone that was laced with gold. At a glance, he could see the black and white photos on it. It was a handsome man.
It was a photo of him a few years ago. He was not as cruel as he was now, and there was a warm smile in his eyes.
Ji Yan slowly squatted down and put the bouquet in front of the tombstone. The simple words “Shang Yu’s tomb” ended the man’s life.
Even if not many people came to look at him, he still smiled so happily. Ji Yan stared blankly at the face on the tombstone and couldn’t help but think, “If he could be so easy-going when he was alive and wouldn’t be obsessed with those meaningless desires, would he still live well in this world?”
Even if it wasn’t her, even without her, he should be able to find a woman suitable for him and enjoy the beauty of life.
It was not until now that Ji Yan realized that many hatreds that she couldn’t let go of were not worth mentioning in the face of life and death. She couldn’t hate a dead person, so why did she have such an obsession at that time?
“Do you think he will be happy in this world?” The disgraceful birth, the unhappy childhood, the long-lasting love, and the failed career…
Standing in front of the tomb, Ji Yan stared at the tombstone without looking sideways, and her eyes were full of pain.
“I don’t know, but happiness is given by myself. If the people who beg on the street want to become a family member, then you can’t give him happiness, okay?” Shang Jin looked at Ji Yan’s side face and kissed her lightly.
Some people had too much desire, too much ambition. They couldn’t get it, but they wanted to have it. If they couldn’t get it, they would become an obsession. An obsession made a person crazy, and if they were crazy, they would fall into hell.
Therefore, he was different from Yu An. Every step he took was taken by himself. He did not force him, nor did he make a choice for him.
As the wind blew, countless petals scattered in front of the tombstones were blown. Ji Yan saw that the grave cleaner, who was quite old, was chasing those flowers and leaves. He was struggling and his hands and feet were not very flexible.
“Let’s go.”
Maybe Shang Jinshen was right. Everyone’s path was their own choice, and sympathy was the most cheap emotion in human society.
It was just that… the elegant young man, the young man who smiled at her and made her angry and cry, had left early in the end.
Shang Jinshen grabbed her wrist. It was different now. He stared at her reddened eyes and suddenly became angry. He opened his tightly pursed lips and said, “Ji Yan, there are too many people in your heart.”
Shaking her hand off, Shang Jinshen walked back. He told himself that this was her personality and that she was different from his kindness, but… he would still remember that this man was also the first person she loved. They had many things that he didn’t know. This was the only thing that Shang Yu An had won against him. In the end, he was too late.
Shang Jinshen couldn’t help but laugh at himself. He couldn’t help but think that there was nothing he could do to save a dead man!
For a moment, she couldn’t come to her senses. Ji Yan stood there blankly, not knowing what his sudden temper was like.
“Do you want to go home or not?” Shang Jinshen was just ten meters away. He couldn’t bear to leave her alone here. When he left, he swore to teach her a lesson. As a result, he gave himself a slap in the face.
With the corners of her mouth raised, Ji Yan quickly replied, “Yes!”
After catching up with him, Ji Yan took his arm and said after a few hesitations, “Although my heart is not small, it’s not big either. I can only accommodate one person in love.”
He was not the only one she missed, but he was definitely one of the second tier. As for the first… Thinking of that lovely face, Ji Yan couldn’t help but smile. The life she took care of, of course, was the most important person in her heart.
“Then why are you looking at that dead man crying?” Shang Jinshen stopped in his tracks and asked calmly.
He was just a dead person, and he had to put aside his longing for her every day. That was something he could not accept.
With her eyes rolling up and down, Ji Yan felt helpless. It was a pity for the dead. Besides, there was indeed a story in the depths of her memory. Now she couldn’t help but feel sad when she recalled it.
She smiled faintly and said in a relieved tone, “I want to let go of all his feelings from now on. If I don’t hate him and don’t complain, I will be like an ordinary friend. Then can’t I miss my friend?”
…
Shang Jinshen was speechless. If she really wanted to say that, he couldn’t make any more trouble. In her impression, Shang Yu An might have been a man who betrayed her, pestered her, and didn’t want to hurt her. But she didn’t know how many times that man tried to kill her.
The corners of his mouth curled into a smile, allowing her to hold his hand. Shang Jinshen didn’t say anything, as if he had accepted her explanation.
A dead person couldn’t make any waves, so why didn’t he let her life have more beautiful things? Those ugly things could be hidden as long as they could.
“Ji Yan, if you like me, I am the most cost-effective deal you have made. I only love you in my heart, and your heart is a big love. You pretend to have too many people.”
Perhaps as she said, love was her only love, and he was her only love.