The weather in April was the most changeable, and it was the rainy season. When Ji Yan came back to sweep the tomb on the second day of Qingming Festival, the sky seemed to feel the sadness of the grave scanned, so tears flowed down one after another.
All the people who came to sweep the tomb held a black umbrella. Ji Yan’s thin body, dressed in black, stood under the huge black umbrella, which made her look even more delicate and fragile.
She held a white chrysanthemum in her hand, which was very beautiful. She knew that her mother liked this kind of elegant flowers, so she held it without thinking.
Unlike the others who were standing in front of the tombstones, there were a few people coming to sweep the tombs. There was only Ji Yan in front of Fu Qingqing’s tombstone. It was quiet and cold, which made people sad.
At least when Lin Feng saw her like this, his heart ached for her.
How could she abuse herself like this again and again? She clearly knew that her body couldn’t take it.
He stood in the distance and didn’t even dare to approach her. He was afraid that she would float away and disappear.
He looked at her sitting in front of the tombstone with a black umbrella in her hand. Her eyes were confused and there was no focus in them. Her mouth seemed to be full of voice, as if she was talking about something.
He thought that she was talking to her mother, wasn’t she?
Later, the rain became heavier. She did not seem to notice it. The black umbrella slowly fell to the ground, and she allowed the rain to bloom on her body.
He lifted his foot, slowly walked a few steps, and then sped up. Then, he supported himself with his umbrella.
Ji Yan slowly raised her eyes, which were a little blurred. She could only vaguely see that it was a familiar person, but why did he appear in front of her again?
He took out a tissue and did not explain why he was here. For the first time, he gently reached out to wipe the rain on her face and wiped the crystal in her eyes.
After that, he put the tissue into his pocket, squatted in front of her and looked at her. He asked in a low and serious voice, “How sad do you think your mother will be if she finds out if you continue to live like this?”
“Ji Yan, how long are you going to torture yourself?”
She was stunned and did not know if she had heard what he said. It was a long time before she came back to her senses and looked at him, but she seemed to be in a bad mood.
“Lin Feng, let me introduce you. Here, the most gentle, beautiful, and kind woman is my mother. I just saw her for decades, and she left me forever.” She smiled and pointed to the tombstone behind her, where there was a black and white photo of a beautiful woman.
She pointed to another place without a monument and said, “Here is my child who was not born yet. I just knew of his existence and haven’t loved and felt him well. He left me with my mother.”
She pointed at her chest again and said in a sad and sad voice, “It’s my fault. It’s all my fault. I feel guilty even if I am alive. How dare I live a good life?”
“Tell me, how can I talk about the beauty of the world with a carefree smile? Tell me, if I don’t torture myself, who will I torture?” She finally said crazy and sad. Her hand was tightly holding Lin Feng and shaking, and all the heartache turned into tears and was released.
She was really strong, but it was really difficult. It was really difficult!
In the past, she could also tell herself that she had to be strong. She still had her mother, and she had a new life. As long as she endured it, she would have everything.
But she found that there was nothing left for her until now!
His loved ones, his lovers, and his children were all gone…
Lin Feng didn’t know why she suddenly felt such a heartache. He only knew that the words she said one word at a time made him want to cry. What kind of despair was this!
He held her tightly in his arms, as if he wanted to give her a support, or let her find a new meaning of life.
“Ji Yan, me, and me. You’re not alone, understand?”
“If you torture yourself, your mother will be heartbroken, and I will be heartbroken. There will be a child, and everything will be there. Believe me, okay?” His tone was extremely gentle, as if it was a seductive sound from outer space.
She sobbed in a low voice and calmed down after a long time. He held her as if he had his own world. He really wanted to never let her go.
When Ji Yan finally calmed down, Lin Feng let go of her. Then he stood in front of the tombstone, seriously and respectfully bowed to Ms. Fu Qingqing. He swore in his heart that he would take care of Ji Yan’s future.
It was getting dark and the rain stopped. Lin Feng was about to take Ji Yan away when a faint cry came out of nowhere.
Ji Yan stopped and looked back. Her voice became clearer and clearer in her ears. It was the purest cry in the world and needed it.
She glanced at Lin Feng, who understood what she meant. He took her hand and followed her cries.
After more than half a day, they found a quail in a mud pit not far away. Inside it, there was a little baby crying bitterly, and his face was blue and purple.
Ji Yan’s heart ached all of a sudden. She quickly squatted down and picked up the baby, ignoring the mud, and asked the people around her anxiously, “What about Lin Feng? Was he left here by someone? Shall we send him to the hospital and go to the hospital?”
In contrast, Lin Feng was calmer. He looked around and found that the baby should have been left here not long ago, but he didn’t know who was so cruel to abandon his own child.
He looked at Ji Yan and took the child from her hand without hesitation. He took her with one hand and said, “Let’s go to the hospital. Don’t worry. It’s okay. At least he has the strength to cry. He will be fine.”
Ji Yan nodded casually. Because of Lin Feng’s words, she calmed down a lot, but she still looked at the baby with great concern.
She didn’t know if she thought that the baby really knew that she had been saved, but he stopped crying. It was just that his breath was very weak, which made Ji Yan very flustered and anxious. Along the way, she urged Lin Feng to drive faster.
After arriving at the hospital and sending the baby to the emergency room, Ji Yan waited quietly outside.
It took a long time for the doctor to come out with a heavy face. Ji Yan quickly stepped forward and asked, “What’s wrong? Is the child okay?”
The doctor looked at her and asked, “Aren’t you a mother? What about his family?”
Thinking of this, Ji Yan’s eyes darkened and she whispered, “He, he is an abandoned baby. We found him.”
When the doctor heard this, a sigh came out of his mouth. At this time, Lin Feng also finished the formalities and came over.
“How’s the child? Doctor.”
“The baby has a heart disease, and the situation is very critical. If you hadn’t sent it here…”
“A heart attack?” Ji Yan was shocked. She almost couldn’t stand it anymore. How could such a little child bear such a fate?