This was harder than he thought it would be, Nicole has changed so much in the five or six months they were apart, he should have expected that it won’t be easy for him to get her back, he had thought talking with Natalie and clearing things with her would help him but it didn’t, he tried getting her flowers that she liked but it didn’t work, whatever he doesn’t go well with her and she wasn’t even giving him any hint that he was making progress with her, heck she doesn’t even believe his words and hasn’t been taking this whole conversation serious at this point out he was out of options already, this was the moment he needed his supposed best friend but it has been two weeks, two whole fucking weeks of not hearing from Caleb and he was hella worried for his well being, Caleb wasn’t used to a hard life and Rafael was sure anywhere he is, he was having a hard time but what can he do to help someone who made it clear that he didn’t want his help? He had his own problems and he doesn’t even have solutions to them, the ones which are not his that he might have solutions to, his friend said he doesn’t need his help.
“Nicole, I am not asking you to say yes immediately, I know, I hurt you a lot and I am saying that I am sorry for all the pain I cost you, I just want you back, why can’t you see that?”
“I am seeing everything Rafael and I gave you my answer, I am not going to change that, there is nothing to think about here, I don’t want to be back with you, not even as friends, you don’t deserve me and I am not going to give you whatever you are asking for, bold of you to come back after forcefully asking for a divorce when I didn’t want it, you think you are that great that I would run back to you when you ask? Think again,”
She yelled. Her words hurt but he tried not to take them to hurt, she was hurt that’s why he didn’t expect her to come bs k to him so easily, he knew it would take time to build back trust with her, all he wanted now was for her to give him a chance to redeem himself.
“I am not asking for you to come back to me immediately, I am asking for you to give me a chance,”
He pleaded.
“A chance? A chance to do what exactly? I don’t do second chances Rafael, I thought you never regret your actions? This contradicts everything though because it looks like you are regretting right now,”
She replied.
“Yes, Nicole, I do, I regret my actions, I regret asking for a divorce, I regret sending those damn divorce papers but what could I have done? Nothing prepared me for those hurt and I reacted the best way I could, I reacted by removing the source of the pain, I know I went about it the wrong way that’s why I am asking for another chance.”
He responded she started laughing at him.
“What’s funny?”
“Are you not hearing yourself talk? You are funny Rafael, now I feel stupid for thinking you were ruthless and lacked humor in the beginning, feel stupid for thinking you are scary when you are just a crazy clown,”
She said every word coming to him as an insult but he didn’t react to them, she was talking like this because he hurt her.
“It’s not funny Cole,”
“Nicole, it’s Nicole to you, only people that I am close with call me Cole and we are not close Mr. Salvador.”
She said in a warning tone that sent everything back to square zero, honestly he wasn’t making any progress with her, nothing.
“Nicole, I know I hurt you, I know I let you down but please just give me the chance to make things right, I want you back, I want us to be happy again, and I am willing to do anything to get that, just, just give me a chance to fix things between us,”
“That’s where you are getting it all wrong Rafael, there is nothing to fix between us, I don’t want you anymore, I don’t love you anymore, I just want to move on with my life and I don’t want you in it, just go back to ignoring me and doing your own things like you have been doing, it’s not that hard to do if you set your mind to it, just fucking leave me alone, I have a lot going for me right now and I don’t want to add you in the mix, I am never going back to my past and you Rafael are my last,”
She said every word so calmly as if she was giving him advice on how to do something rather than crashing his hope at happiness, but he knew she was talking from hurt, there is no way that she doesn’t love him anymore, in fact, her saying those words makes it even more obvious that she still loves him the way he does with her and he wasn’t just going to back out just because she said so, this was only the beginning, and he is not someone to give up in something that he really wants, he wasn’t about to do it now.
“I have laid out my heart and desires and I am not pressuring you, I am just asking for a chance, don’t tell me to go away and not show my face again because that’s one thing I am not going to do, I love you Nicole and I want us back together, I want to be happy again and my happiness is with you, I haven’t been happy since we broke up, my life lost the color and these past couples of months haven’t been pleasant to me,”
He said laying his heart out in the open as much as he could, and hoping she doesn’t trample on them.
“You are really going to be like this?”
“Yes, until I get you back,”
“You can try Rafael but you are not getting me back, that’s for sure, and don’t say words as you love me, those shits don’t move me anymore, I am no longer the naive Nicole that you knew before, I got better and the love game isn’t gonna happen again,”
She replied, it was all a lie, she still loves him, and even Natalie confirmed that he won’t fall for Nicole’s words right now, they were lies she was told to protect her heart and he was going to make sure she stops lying about her feelings.
“I say I love you because I do Nicole, I know I messed up but I never once stopped loving you, I tried my best to forget you, to move on with my life but then I didn’t even have a life without you, I am just broken record without you and my whole existence lack meaning, I want my life back baby girl, I want you back,”