He kissed, her pulling her closer to him, the pressure of his mouth on hers made it impossible for her to think straight, he was indeed a good kisser, she knew from the kiss they shared that night and also the kisses they shared during their wedding, of course she didn’t have anything to compare with but she could tell, his mouth explored hers, pushing back all thoughts and reasonings, she sighed in pleasure, kissing him back, he held her face with both hands, deepening the kiss, making her legs turn to gel, she didn’t know a kiss could do this, make her lose all her thoughts, wait the heck a fucking minute, her eyes opened in bewilderment, she pushed him off her, moving away from him.
“What is it?
He asked in shock, she looked at him, did he really not know what it was?
“What the fuck? Why did you kiss me?
She yelled wiping her mouth, she had let him kiss her and even enjoyed it, she couldn’t believe she had just done that
“You are my wife, I am allowed to kiss you, we are married remember?”
He said raising his ring finger to further make his point clear.
“I know, but that doesn’t mean you can kiss me, I don’t want you kissing me,”
“You have to be kidding me, it was just a kiss, besides it’s not our first kiss neither is it our second, I don’t understand why you are acting like it our first time, Natalie need me to remind you that we are married and married couple are expected to sleep together, whatever shits that you have going on, I hope you can resolve it, I don’t like infidelity and respected your decisions to wait till after we get married, now we are married I am just going to assume you have things you wanna sort out before you commit to this marriage, if not I might get out to get what I want, yes sex is not the basis of living but for a red-blooded male to go without it for months, that’s kind of, and I might want to look for other alternatives if you keep this up, I am not a virgin that has never tasted love making and might I tell you that I was very active until I met you, just don’t make me do something you might end up no***”
“You can do whatever you want, I am not holding you, just don’t kiss me unexpectedly, I hate it,”
She responded, cutting him off.
“I am beginning to doubt if you are Natalie or if you are just her lookalike impersonating her,”
He blurted out.
“Yes, you are right, I am just her lookalike, I am not Natalie,”
She said truthfully, it felt good to say it, but she knew he won’t take her seriously and that’s exactly what happened, he laughed and left her standing there.
“Rafael? I have to go home tomorrow, there is something I will like to get from my studio at home,”
She said in a loud voice, he didn’t respond, she turned and went into the room she uses, she laid on the bed and touched her lips that were slightly swollen from his kiss, just like the first time he had kissed her, she found herself melting into his touch, she had been avoiding this since they got married but as the days keep counting she knew it will get even harder to a kid him, to prevent the consummation of their marriage, could she do it? Would she give up her virginity after all these years to a man who wasn’t even hers? A man who belonged to her sister? Would she go that far? What if she does? Would she be able to move on like nothing happened after Natalie comes back? She knew that was impossible, just a kiss could do so much, not to talk of getting naked with him, maybe if she wasn’t a virgin, maybe if she was used to sleeping with men, maybe it won’t have been so hard, a knock on her door saw her looking up, she hadn’t locked the door, so he came in even without her inviting him.
“So you want something?”
“Yes,”
He replied walking to where she sat on the bed, okay this shouldn’t be what she thinks it was because she wasn’t ready, heck she would never be ready.
“What do you want?”
“What else? This is my room before you converted to yours, I came to get some of my shirts which you have turned into your nighties,”
He said and walked past, she let out a sigh of relief, she was guilty of everything, of all charges, he couldn’t blame her his shirts are comfortable to sleep in plus she didn’t have anything to wear here except his clothes, and outing clothes which she wasn’t comfortable wearing at home, okay this wasn’t even their home, she didn’t even know where Rafael lives, she didn’t want to ask him that would be a step in the wrong direction as she was sure Natalie had been there before.
“Sorry,”
She said in a tiny voice, getting up and walking to him.
“What?”
“Nothing, I am just making sure you don’t take the one I wish to wear to bed tonight,”
She said collecting the shirt he held, he just looked on as she took off the dress she had been wearing and gave it to him, only when she had worn the shirt did she realize she just changed in front of him, she stepped back at the expression on his face, she just made a mistake, he was approaching her like a hungry lion, she kept shaking her head while backing off, he caught her by the arms and pulled her to him.
“Was that an invitation my lady?”
He asked bending over that his face was almost touching hers, she could feel his breath on her face, she swallowed, her throat drying up.
“Is it?”
“No,”
“It seems that’s it though,”
He said and covered her lips with his, kissing her for the second time in less than thirty minutes, she didn’t struggle, she melted into the kiss, she was starting to get used to his kiss, the almost now familiar feel of his skillful lips against her amateur own, he pulled her up so that she was straddling him while he held her, their lips mating at their own pace the intensity of it drove her crazy, she was going to give in if she keeps this up, she had to stop him but she was enjoying this so much, enjoying the feel of his lips eating at her mouth, she didn’t want him to stop, didn’t want to stop either.
“You are not Natalie!!!”
The tiny disturbing voice in her head kept playing, she couldn’t ignore it anymore, she couldn’t be doing this, she wasn’t Natalie, this moment she wished she was but that couldn’t happen, against her wish she tapped him on the shoulders, he took the hint immediately, stopped kissing her and dropped her back on the ground.
“I am guessing you are not ready?”
“Yeah, I am sorry,”
She apologized remembering his earlier words.
“It’s fine, take your time, but don’t take forever,”
He said pecked her, took the shirt he came for, and left.
“What just happened?”
She thought going over to sit on the bed while touching her lips again, for the second time tonight.
“This is bad,”
She said. It was bad, she was getting comfortable with him, why did she have to get partially naked except for her bras and panties in front of him, she could have just gone to the restroom to change, she was stupid, very stupid.
“Nicole, please, don’t do this,”
She pleaded with herself, holding her still trembling heart, she couldn’t do this.
“Natalie come back please or it going to be very bad,”
She added, she already knew it would be bad if Natalie doesn’t show up as she promised, just a day later might be disastrous…