Micaela shook her head so hard that tears instantly came out of her eyes:.
-No, no… Carlos, I don’t deserve you….
Carlos kissed Micaela hard, as if he wanted to let out all his emotions in the kiss….
Micaela struggled at first, but little by little her strength and sanity drained away and she snuggled gently into Carlos’ arms until he finally released her…..
Her face had finally stopped being pale and had a seductive flush, her eyes were misty….
-Micaela, I know what’s on your mind…. -Carlos’ voice was low and muffled-. You can’t deny me and push me away, you must trust me, lean on me and give me your problems.
Micaela looked at him, her deep eyes were full of seriousness, and asked.
-You already knew, didn’t you?
Carlos did not answer, but asked:
-When did you think about it? -All of it?
Carlos had many questions he wanted to ask, but he restrained himself from asking them all at once.
Micaela still couldn’t help looking away from his eyes and trying to keep her voice even.
-Carlos, I don’t deserve you to be so nice to me….
-I’ll decide if it’s worth it or not! -Carlos raised his voice, “Get all those thoughts out of your head that you don’t deserve it, and you can just stay by my side for the rest of your life, don’t think about leaving me!
Micaela’s heart ached as she looked at Carlos and asked him in a trembling voice:
-Do you really not care?
He knew what she was saying, it was no longer just about what had happened that night, but that she did not hate this man and even had a heart for him….
Carlos’ heart skipped a beat….
-Micaela, tell me what you remembered and I’ll….
Micaela closed her eyes and said in a low voice:
-I know it matters to you, and it matters to me too. Even now, thinking about all this, I still don’t hate that man! I don’t know who he is, I don’t know who drugged me, but I can’t hate that man, I hate myself for it, I can’t face you Carlos, just let me go!
Tears slipped from the corners of her closed eyes, her heart ached with a grip….
Carlos looked at Micaela in surprise, his eyes full of disbelief….
He wanted to kill the man, but Micaela in front of him said she didn’t hate the man.
“Could it be that the heartbeat of that night was transferred to the present?”
Yes, it mattered to him, what mattered to him was that this girl fell in love with someone like that.
Carlos didn’t dare to think about it, fearing he had hurt Micaela with his words, he turned and opened the door.
He drove all the way back to the office, pain ripping at his heart, leaving him breathless.
Rage burned his sanity, he was angry at Micaela, at the bastard, and at himself, why hadn’t he shown up sooner, why was there an unknown person to steal Micaela’s heart.
By the time he realized how it would make Micaela feel if he left like that, it was too late and he rushed back again, but there was no one in the house….
Carlos panicked and called out to her, but there was no answer.
He frowned and opened his phone to locate the place, but it was in an unknown location. Immediately, he turned around and had to look for it, while calling Alba.
“Micaela is very attached to Alba, definitely talk to her.”
-Mr. Aguayo.
Carlos sighed with slight relief.
-Where is Micaela?
-She’s in the apartment Brillantella has prepared for her.
“Really, she’s ready to leave-”
-She’s not ready to leave you, she has her phone with her, her wallet, everything you gave her, she would never have taken what you gave her if she really wanted to leave you.
Carlos’s hand, which was looking for the elevator, stopped in mid-air….
-Mr. Aguayo, just give her a little time, she doesn’t know how to deal with you, she just has low self-esteem, she’s in a mess…..
Carlos lowered his hand, answered weakly and hung up the phone.
“In short, Micaela didn’t want to see me.”
He drove to Micaela’s current location.
It was a fairly isolated neighborhood.
The people he had arranged to protect Micaela had come on their own with Micaela, all of them walking the perimeter of the neighborhood.
One of them saw Carlos’ car and approached.
Carlos rolled down the window, and the man said respectfully.
-Sir, Miss Micaela is on the sixth floor, we have arranged for two people to go up there, don’t worry.
Carlos looked towards the sixth floor.
-Protect her, don’t let any suspicious character approach and keep me informed if anything happens.
The man was taking orders.
Carlos remembered something and frowned, looking up again before turning the car around and driving off.
…
Micaela curled up on the couch, hugging her knees, her head buried in the crook of his arm, looking lonely and sad.
Alba stood there, heartbroken at the way Micaela had cut herself off from the outside world.
She sat down next to Micaela, slipped her arm around her shoulders and whispered.
-Micaela, don’t be like that…..
Alba hadn’t even known that Micaela had suddenly arrived, it was Eric who told her to come immediately.
Micaela called Eric and didn’t say much of anything, she just asked him if he still had the house he said he had left her earlier.
Eric said yes, and she asked for the address and came over.
The place was not far from where he lived, so he brought the keys himself. Seeing that she was not in a good mood and wanted to live outside, he wondered if she had a problem with Mr. Aguayo.
Seeing Micaela’s distressed state and the few words she uttered, Alba guessed that Micaela had remembered what had happened two years before. …
Micaela rests her head on Alba’s shoulder, her voice low and undulating.
-Alba, I don’t think I’m good enough for Carlos, I despise myself like this, I hate myself like this…..
Alba was even more distressed, Micaela was almost as she was two years ago….
No, worse than two years ago, when she was still crying and hysterical, now she was like a doll with a wrung out soul, repeating all afternoon that she did not deserve Carlos and despising herself….
In reality she loved Carlos very much and for that reason she could not accept herself like this….
“Who was that man and why had he disappeared?”
-Micaela, don’t be like that, have you ever thought about Carlos and how upset he would be if you didn’t see him and ran away from him…?
Hearing this, Micaela finally burst into tears, her voice cracking with sobs:
-I couldn’t face him, I didn’t dare to look him in the eyes, I couldn’t forgive myself when I thought about him knowing about my nasty past and even falling in love with someone who had raped me, I couldn’t help guessing all the time how much Carlos must have cared too, what kind of look he would have given me….
She cared what Carlos thought of her and that she feared the incident would become a shadow in both of their minds.
She was afraid that she would lose Carlos, that the relationship would be ruined.
But she didn’t want to hurt Carlos, and even if she told him things to get him to loosen up, she couldn’t leave him with a heart of gold…..
The last time she left him, she was able to get away with it, but this time, she really couldn’t. Her purpose for running away was to clear up the confusion, but she couldn’t…