I think my life is already miserable enough, but I don’t expect it to be even worse.
Mom chose to die in front of his father’s grave and chose to follow him. I never know their relationship would be so good, so good that the mother could abandon us and abandon everything to follow dad.
I really can’t cry, I cry too many times, and there are no more tears to shed.
“Mom! Why do you have to abandon us! Don’t you still love us?” I ask, holding my mother’s body that has no temperature.
Or dad is really important to mom, and she can’t live without him.
But no one can survive in this world.
“You are cruel.” I gently stroke my mother’s face, and suddenly find that my mother has light makeup and put on her favorite clothes.
The entire cemetery is quiet and terrible, only the wind rustling through the treetops, only me murmuring.
My mother committed suicide, and the camera in the cemetery records how she entered the cemetery, and she even wrote her will.
Preparing for the funeral is familiar to me.
Elaine’s eyes are red. She raises her hands and gives a slap, “Sister Carolina, this is the last time I call you sister, do you know who makes this result?”
In her eyes shines the cold light I am not unfamiliar with, “It’s all because of you! Because you insist to stay with James! Because of you, I was insulted, I can’t go to school! Dad left, Mom is gone! You are a killer! ”
I actually feel that Elaine is right, everything happened because of me.
“Yes. It’s me.”
I numbly look at everything in front of me and slap myself hard.
“I break the whole family.”
“Sister! What are you doing! Stop!” The younger brother holds me, and his bloodshot eyes are tired, “This is already the case at home. This is not your fault!”
“Why don’t you blame her! Isn’t it all her fault? Why can’t she live a normal life after marriage? Why should our family be broken?”
The empty hall echoes their arguments, and I look at everything in front of me again and feel that this might be the end of life.
It is retribution. I say that if I talk to James again, they would have to die, and they left me one after another.
So weak, so painful.
My sister screams, “I hate you, Carolina! I hate you! The person who should die is you! Why don’t you die!”
I also want to know why the person who should die is not me.
Next is my mother’s funeral. In just a few days, the two funerals in the family attracted many people’s condolences.
“So sorry about it.”
“Everything will pass.”
I bow down mechanically. I can’t see any hope.
My mother also turns into ashes, I let them mix with the tomb and ashes.
In the future, I will probably live because of revenge. Isabel, I will not make you happy.
There are brothers and sisters at home, and I can’t let them get involved in danger.
I have to find a way to get rid of them, and only then will I not drag them down.
Under my arrangement, my brother leaves school as a soldier, but my sister still refuses to listen to me.
“Who knows what you want to do?” She stares at me.
“Listen to me. OK?” I can’t explain too much to her.
Elaine has become like another person, no matter what I do, she will no longer believe me.
“I will arrange for you to go to a new place, change your name, change your school, so it will be good for you,” I say.
Elaine chuckles, “I won’t go to school anymore, anyway my innocence is ruined. I don’t care anymore!”
After she says that, she runs out of the house.
“Where are you going, Elaine?” I am anxious to keep up with her, but when I run downstairs, she is gone.
Sitting on the sofa and watching the time on the phone uneasy, it is already midnight, but my sister still doesn’t come back.
I have to go out and look for her.
Ever since mother leaves, she often stays at night and I ask her where does she go, she doesn’t say anything about it.
Will she go to the bar?
I am in a hurry to find a bar after a bar. I am sweating anxiously, but I still couldn’t find my sister.
The hustle and bustle of cheering are all around, and the dim light makes me more and more disturbed.
I remember this bar. It is the place where I first meet James.
I hesitate at the door, not knowing whether to go in.
He was standing in that crowd, looking at me sexily and wild at that time.
How do I remember it again? I smile and shake my head and walk-in.
There is a wave of people inside, deafening.
I see Elaine at a glance.
She is wearing a sexy dress and holding a wine bottle to drink, surrounded by a group of whistling guys.
Why does my sister look like this? I look at everything in front of me in disbelief. The men’s lousy gaze lingers on her.
I rush over and push away the crowd, grabbing the wine bottle from my sister’s hand.
“Hey! What’s up?” Someone gives me a push.
The younger sister smiles at me drunkenly, “Oh, Carolina.”
“Go home with me!” I take my sister’s hand hard.
She pushes me away, “Leave me alone!”
“Hey, if you can drink all these wines today, the money will be yours!” A stray guy directly takes out a dozen dollars and puts it on the table.
“Follow your words!” My sister blinks charmingly.
At this moment, someone seems to be slapping me hard. Why is my sister like this? Is it my fault?
Elaine picks up the wine bottle on the table and drinks it.
“Don’t drink it.” I go to grab it again.
“Carolina, don’t stop me, ok?” Elaine glares at me.
“I drink for you!” Before Elaine expresses her opinion, I drink directly.
Hot wine comes in, and my stomach feels as uncomfortable as it is burning.
I want to vomit, but I forcefully leave a bottle down.
Elaine looks at me with a cold look.
There are shouting sounds all around.
“Oh, it’s exciting! I like this!” The dirty guy stretches his arms around my shoulders and says to me ambiguously, “How much is it for a night? ”
Elaine glares at him, “You really like her? Do you know what kind of woman she is?”
“She is already married but likes to seduce men outside. She has broken other’s family and is now pretending to be a good sister here? It’s disgusting!” Elaine looks at me contemptuously, or she doesn’t want to look at me at all.
At this moment, I think I am directly splashed with cold water on my body, wet all over, ugly, and have nowhere to escape.
I am now stiff in front of her, whispering to her in a low voice, “Elaine.”
“Don’t call me! You are disgusting!” Elaine turns away.
“Oh, what is this! But I love both of you sisters! Tonight, you both follow me, I give you the double price!” The man has to knead my shoulders with his hands.
At the time, all my energies are on Elaine, and I don’t feel anything wrong with it.
“You double it? I triple it! I would be too happy with your sisters!”
“Hey! What are you doing! Do you know what it means to come first, serve first?”
We seem to be auctioned items.
“So cheap?” Suddenly a familiar voice sounds behind me. He stimulates me with a disdainful tone.
Elaine’s eyes immediately become sharper, looking at the person behind me.
I know who he is. It’s James. I am most familiar with his voice.
But I don’t even have the courage to look back. What would he imagine me about this situation? Are you a prostitute?
“James!” People around him greet him respectfully.
“James, these two girls are so energetic, and I have to take them back today!” The man smiles wretchedly.
“Oh?” James says casually, “It just looks like that. It’s cheap.”
He doesn’t care, as if we are strangers.
I try to calm myself down, he is the son of my enemy. I can’t love him anymore.
“I’m so cheap, don’t you always know that? I’m willing to allow myself to mark the price clearly. I follow who pas the highest price!” I look at his eyes and say calmly.
See, I can control my expression.
James’s eyes shake, and finally, he sets his sights on the table with a wine bottle.
“Good, let me see how much you can sell in the end.” James tickles his lips, smiling.
Maybe I should be happy because he finally moves on. He will never be sad because of me. Isn’t that what I want to see?
But why am I so sad? why?
“Okay! Then I’ll pay for 100, 000! How about just a night!” The wicked man shouted excitedly, “No one bids the price, and the woman is mine!”
“150, 000! I like two of them too!”
You see how valuable I am!
The younger sister always looks coldly now, as if all this has nothing to do with her.
At this time, my heart is already panic, and I don’t know how to face James.
I am stunned, listening to the prices higher.
“Two hundred thousand! They must be mine!”
“Excuse me! I have 250, 000!”
“Three hundred thousand!”
It’s ridiculous. If I come here to sell, wouldn’t I be able to fill in the debt at home, since I am so valuable?
Until 400, 000, no one bids again.
Now the dirty man next to me proudly grabs my waist and flaunts and says, “Sorry! She is mine!”
He is showing off his wealth.
“Tonight you have to serve me, if I feel happy, the benefits for your sisters are beyond your expectation!” He reaches out and touches my chin.
My brain is blank and my eyes are empty.
“Oh…” Someone screams, and I turn back.
James stands in front of me with grief, and grabs the hands of the chubby man, who yells, “James! Please!”
“Four million.” James stares at me with teasing and sarcasm in his eyes, “Look how cheap you are.”