James’s so-called morning exercise always makes me blushed when I recall it. Without the cover of the night, I could only be forced to reveal my figure in front of his eye.
In the end, I flee, and escape while he is washing in the bathroom. I really don’t have the courage to look at him again.
All I want is a child. I don’t want to get into trouble, even if this man gives me too much amazing, and even if he touches my loneliness.
When I get home, the moment I open the door, I force myself to calm down from the panic.
The room is smoky and I frown.
“How? How does it feel to be fucked?”Neil throws the cigarette butt in his ashtray, his blood-red eyes are horrible, “It’s been a long night. You must be satisfied!”
“It’s pretty amazing. “I look at him mockingly, smugly.
Neil gets up from the sofa, his old swollen skin is shaking, “I know you are a bitch! Like to be fucked by men! Shameless.”
I smile at him like showing demonstration and watch this man defending his dignity like a clown. He, the creator, becomes a victim.
“It is you who forces me to find a man. Who you should blame now? Me? Sorry, I just think you are pitiful. “My cold eyes mock him, “Thank you for letting me know what a woman should have.”
I show a contented and happy smile, I just want to make him feel sick.
Neil looks at me in astonishment. I don’t reveal the expression he wants to see, the face that is mourning for death. This makes him very disappoint and unbalanced.
I look down on him. Except for showing off his dignity in front of me, what sense of superiority does he have? I could have had an innocent life, but all is ruined by him, and I become the type of person who is deeply spurned by myself.
The room with curtains dropped is like a haunted house. I walk over and raise the curtains. The sun is shining and the glare is so reassuring.
“You just shameless! You just want to be fucked by a man! Shameless! Slut!”Neil rushes over and starts punching and kicking me.
Every punch is his vent. He is helpless against being cheated. The new injury covers the old injury. It is so painful.
His sloppy face, and disgusting curse, I always face them with a smile, with a grievous aversion in the smile.
I look up at the dazzling light, the aperture in front of me is zooming in, the beams are colorful, the light spots are layered, and I burst into tears.
Neil hits me and never lets others see it. Once I wear clothes and put on makeup, I can hide everything.
I arranged myself and go out on high heels.
It’s ridiculous. I’m a journalist. I’m using a pen to fight against the injustice in this world, but I can’t help myself.
Dissatisfaction in life has become the motivation for my work, and I am a workaholic in the eyes of others.
Recently, there is an accident in the entertainment city. A waitress is gang-raped while working. The waiter has no choice but to broadcast suicide online. She wants her death to attract others, but this matter is also neglected.
I smell the unusual situation here and plan to investigate undercover.
Put on sexy and exposed clothes, I pretend to be a lady, all I have to do is to prove that there is an erotic transaction here and investigate the truth about the waiter’s death.
For a few days, I stay here every night, open the recording pen quietly and put it in my bag, and take the opportunity to say a few words to them.
“You know, the one who died so badly is in the private room, and no one dares to go in!”
“That scream, shit. “A woman flinches her neck and makes a panic expression.
“Then you all know this?”I ask quickly.
“Hey, I haven’t seen you before. “The woman suddenly looks at me alertly.
The ladies in a circle look at me, and I say immediately, “I am new here.”
“Doesn’t the boss say that she won’t recruit recently?”She lifts her eyelids and looks at me up and down, and I immediately become stiff.
Cold sweat is coming down, and for a moment I don’t know how to answer her.
“888 boxes! Come quickly!”A woman shouts from the spiral stairs.
The crowd cheers and forget about me. Just when I want to sneak away, someone pats me on the shoulder, “What’s going on? This house is full of men. They’ve been waiting impatiently! Come quickly!”
I could not help but be pull upstairs, the private room door opens, and the deafening music sound hits my eardrum.
It is really confusing inside, and I narrow my eyes.
In the dim light, two people hug me, their exaggerating laughs make mu head numb.
Suddenly a line of sight hit me straight like a sharp knife, very familiar.
The man is hiding in the dark. His eyes are as bright as a wolf, and looking at my eyes.
It is James, the man I had sex with before.