“So much for having a boyfriend before the Summer,” Hazel sighed after she told Jan the drama she had that morning.
Jan leaned her back on Hazel’s bed as she sat on the floor, “I don’t understand … there’s gotta be an explanation … I’m pretty sure he’s into you and not Mischa.”
“Maybe he changed his mind, I mean you saw how pretty she is … he hadn’t met her yet when he told Kyle he liked me … anyway, maybe he found things he doesn’t like in the course of our friendship … if you saw how he kissed her …” Hazel put a pillow on her face, “This sucks!” she screamed into it.
“What about Theo? What happened to him after you got back?”
“He was hungover in the morning, he left in a hurry when he remembered his car was left in the middle of nowhere … he’s probably hanging out with his soccer friends, he said he had to train every day before we leave for the lake house.”
“At least we got that taken care of … you’re not obsessed with him anymore, do you realize that? You talk about Lee more than you talk about Theo now.”
Hazel rolled over to her stomach on the bed, “Really? I guess so … it’s weird though, I still feel nervous around him, he still has that effect on me, but … he’s going to college soon, and Max … it just seems so real now that he’s within reach, or maybe it scares me because how strong I felt about him, what if it doesn’t work out?”
“Or maybe … you changed your mind?” Jan giggled and jumped on the bed next to her. “Maybe you want to be with dimples more than you want to be with Theo.”
Jan laid on her back and stared at the ceiling, “You know in two years we’ll also be in college … have you figured out where you want to go?”
Hazel puffed her hair and laid on her back next to Jan, “Pfft … can I just go wherever you’re going? I have no idea what I want to do in the future and everyone seemed to figured that out already … I can’t even figure out what I want to wear to school most of the time, my grades are average and my love life sucks.”
“What makes you think I know where I’m going?” Jan laughed, “I don’t have any particular interest in anything, I’m not good at anything, my parents kept asking me where I want to go to college because they need to figure out how much money they have to make to save in two years … I feel so pressured on top of worrying if I’m getting my period on time or not since … you know?”
Hazel lifted her head, “You’re having safe sex right? Are you kidding me? Are you not getting your period?”
“They say condoms are 98-99% safe so there’s still a 1% chance of it’s not safe … I calculated my period cycle and sometimes I don’t get it exactly at the 28-day cycle, and it drove me crazy … I told Kyle I didn’t want to do it until I get my period, but …” she fell silent for a moment, “When you start doing it with a guy, he just didn’t want to take ‘no’ for an answer, you know?”
“What? But he knows that you’re worried about getting pregnant, right? I mean we’re barely out of high school … what the hell are you gonna do if you do get pregnant?”
“You know?” Jan turned to look at Hazel, “There’s nothing worse than worrying about not getting my period when it was time … that is something you should really consider before you start having sex, you were right, Hazel, I should’ve waited longer … we have more important things to worry about, I’d rather worry about where I want to go to college instead of worrying if I’m pregnant or not.”
Hazel held Jan’s hand, “We still have time … we can try and figure it out together in the next two years, it’ll be fun if we can go to the same college together, I’m sick and tired of figuring out guys too,” she chuckled.
“Yeah, I told Kyle I won’t be spending the night at his house and I’ll be going to the lake house with you, it seems like all he ever thinks about is having sex now … it’s so annoying, especially when he didn’t even care when I told him I was scared of getting pregnant … I mean, if he can’t respect that, he shouldn’t be getting what he wants all the time.”
“You’re not scared he’ll be looking for it somewhere else? I mean … guys … they have nothing to lose, they can stick their uncircumcised penis anywhere they want and not worrying about getting preggo … but girls …”
The thought had been on Jan’s mind for some time too, “I do worry about that,” she had a sad expression on her face, “But he can also do that if I turned out to be pregnant and that’ll be even worse, right?”
They looked at each other as they sat on the bed, Hazel smiled, “I’m glad that’s how you see it … come on, let’s watch some make-up tutorial and learn how to make our face look pretty,” she giggled.
“Oh yess! And we should document them this time, post it on IG … I brought some tools too, I just bought a new mascara and a couple of eye shadow pallets,” Jan jumped to her backpack and took out her make-up kit.
“My mom bought me new scrubs and mud facial masks, we can do them later tonight … ooh … do you want to make some popcorns before we start?”
“Yes, yes, yes … popcorns!” Jan shouted.
Hazel ran down the stairs to the kitchen and Jan turned on the vinyl Theo gave Hazel. She turned the volume up and Harry Styles voice blared throughout the corners of that house singing “Tastes like strawberries … on a summer evenin’ … and it sounds just like a song …” Jan can hear Hazel singing along with it while microwaving their popcorn.