The darkness in the dream almost overwhelmed her. She couldn’t see light, anything in front, but only call Clinton silently. When she woke suddenly from the nightmare, she found herself soaked in her blouse.
She panted loudly to notice a glass of water appeared in front of her.
She said thank you while toke it over.
But an angry voice succeeded, ‘do you really like him so much?”
Sandra smiled bitterly and turned to the man whose face was delicate but fierce out of anger, but it didn’t impact his glamor, ‘I love him, very much.”
‘He will kill you. Do you know you fainted twice…” words were about to get out but then he stopped and looked at her, full of worries. He hoped she could reflect on it.
‘I know I got brain cancer.”
Her serenity while saying these words surprised Jimmy Gu, but it sounded also reasonable.
‘I have no idea how long I will live, but the thought that I won’t see Clinton when I’m gone hurts me, more than the time when I got to know I had cancer.” She looked ahead with hollow eyes with put a hand on her check.
Jimmy knew she was in love with Clinton, but he never thought this love could be so deep!
‘Does it mean you will take good care of yourself when he disappears.” His voice was pale but it shocked her immediately, ‘what do you have in your mind…”
‘Hmmm,” He uttered coldly, but she caught the message in his eyes, which made her furiously ‘you are mad!”
‘I am mad. I am so regretful that I didn’t kill him before!” Sandra was scared by his state of mind.
‘Jimmy, you cannot do it. If anything happens to Clinton, I won’t live alone.” She was about to cry and astonished by his words.
‘You will take your own life for him?” Jimmy raised his voice, he couldn’t believe what he heard.
‘You are the same. You even thought of get rid of Clinton for me. Don’t you know your life is gone if there is anything happening to him.”
Jimmy kept silent. Sandra continued ‘Jimmy, we are friends, but don’t do silly things for me. It’s not worth it.”
Jimmy sat on the couch, motionlessly. It seemed the one who was furious was just an illusion.
Jimmy lost in thought for a while and it looked like he finally made sense out of something and closed his thin lips tightly.
‘Why don’t you leave him to lead a happy life in future? Have you ever thought some things you got won’t belong to you forever?” Jimmy pointed out frankly in hope that Sandra could let it go.
She hoped only to keep Clinton in her last memory, otherwise she was afraid he would forget him…
Sandra lay in bed with eyes closed. The mobile phone vibrated on the table. She took it to check. The big letters of The Fu Group gave her a bad feeling.
She clicked the link to check the news. When she saw the photo of two loving people, Clinton and Jessi, her pupils contracted and the hand holding the phone went numb.
Clinton said Jessi was her woman.
Jessi was pregnant with his child.
He had been loving Jessi forever.
Tears welling up in her eyes with dropping down. She couldn’t help but touching Clinton’s face in the photo. When could he stop hurting her? She didn’t have much time left. Why it became so unbearable for her in her last days…
Jimmy noticed something went wrong and asked softly ‘Sandra?”
The familiar pressure and distraction overwhelmed her. She sniffed and asked ‘Jimmy, I want to go home. I do want to go home.”
It was the first time they chatted like this after many years. He knew her persistence and stubbornness. He didn’t want to make her regret afterwards for missing out, no matter how wore out and wore down she would be, or abandoned by the whole world, he would be there for her.
‘Ok.”
Sandra stunned to his consent and then smiled like the blooming flowers in the dawn.
Jimmy knew that her whole life was made and meant for Gu Clinton, and she couldn’t choose otherwise.
And the same with his. His life was for Sandra.
The only difference was that Sandra could obviously chase after Clinton, but his could only be buried at the bottom of his heart.