I shake my head and walk down the stairs to the Luna’s office. I knock and wait for her soft “come in.” When I enter she is sitting behind her desk. She looks tired and worn.
“Hey, sweety. How is it going?”
“It’s going. I have him eating. He agreed to the surgery but we have to get him healthy over the next week or the doctor won’t do it. I even got him to agree to leave that room after a second bowl of soup. He is fighting a little but I am able to get him to listen to some reason.” I groan walking into the office.
I take a seat in front of her desk. “You know I am torn. I know how much this is bothering you, but at the same time I am just elated that my boy is getting better with you around. I don’t know what made Darius fall in love with you, but he fell hard. If it wasn’t for the fact that you have a mate, and that it’s Markus I would say that you were better off right where you are. You are good for him, you know.”
“I know I am good for Darius, but the question is, is Darius good for me? Sometimes I don’t know. And then there is Markus to consider. I have been in love with Markus since I was eight. I didn’t even know his name then. I can’t just shut those feelings off for Darius. I do care for him. I just don’t know what that means for us in the future.”
She is quiet for a moment like she is contemplating something. “Ok, I know you have enough on your plate, but there is a way to get answers.”
“Anything short of asking the goddess herself and I think we are right back where we started.” I chuckle a little at the thought.
“That is exactly what I am talking about. My family was a little more spiritual than this one. I happen to know that there is a way to talk to the goddess and get your answers. It’s a trial and it doesn’t always work, but it has. Are you willing to do it?” She looks at me expectantly.
I bite my lip trying to think. “Would the trial hurt the baby?”
“Not at all. It is more of a blood and spirit thing. Only a drop of blood. I asked my brother about it. He is currently the Alpha of our pack and in charge of these secrets. He knows of the situation and he wants to help. He said he would even come here. I know this is asking a lot, but they are both my sons and I don’t know what else we should do. If you have any ideas I am all ears.” She sounds so desperate.
“I’ll do it. As long as we don’t tell anyone else about it. I don’t want anyone getting their hopes up if it doesn’t work.”
She smiles. “I know you can do it. But as you wish, this will stay between the two of us. I know you probably want to get back to Darius. Thank you for hearing me out. And giving Darius a second chance.”
“I care about him. He is the father of my child. As much as he has hurt me, I can’t say that I hate him. I hate what he did, but I don’t hate him. I did some research on tumors and this aggression that he gets that he can’t control, could very well be because of that. I am willing to accept that this might be something that is out of his control as long as he is willing to get it back in control.”
She gets up from her desk and comes around to hug me. “I knew you were a good woman. I just didn’t know how good.” I can hear her crying as I hold her tight.
“You are the only mother I really have ever known. I was so scared that you would hate me for lying. I didn’t have a choice, I hope you know that.”
She pulls back and cups my face. “I never for one second blamed you. I know this as Darius. If he wasn’t so sick I would have kicked his ass from here to the other side of the moon. No one deserves what he did to you. I think the goddess is punishing him for it.”
I smile back at her. “I better get back to Darius, before he regresses.” I give her one more hug before I leave the office to come back to Darius.