I don’t know how long I am in there but then it is the Luna that finds me. “Dear are you ok?”
I sniffle. “I guess I am just really emotional today.”
“Can you come out, dear?” I nod, even though she can’t see me and make my way out. She takes in my appearance. Turning from me she takes a napkin and wets it with soapy water. “Let’s clean you up.”
I want to cry even more. She doesn’t know what I have done to her son. I should have stood up to Darius. Been stronger. But I didn’t and now not only is Markus suffering, but the pack will suffer too. I stand there and send a prayer to the goddess to give Markus a better mate than me. He deserves it. He doesn’t deserve someone like me.
“Do you want to talk about it?” She starts rubbing my face.
“I think it is just all the changes in my life. I have so many choices thrown at me. I am trying to sort them out and it feels like this weight I can’t get out from under.”
She nods, cleaning my face. “You know I am always here to talk. I can help you with anything you need. Even if it is Darius.”
As if his name summoned him he comes charging into the ladies room. “There you are, what happened?” He looks really concerned.
I wipe away the remaining tears and smile at him. My mask that I put on just for him. “Nothing. Just emotions getting the better of me.” I furrow my brow. “We should get back out there. There is a party going on after all.”
Darius isn’t buying it, I can tell. Still he takes my hand and pulls my body to his. He hugs me and kisses my head. “It’s going to be alright little mate.”
At some point his mom disappears. “Are you going to tell me what really happened?”
I nod my head. “I was just overwhelmed with all the people. I have never been to something like this before. I was an outcast, remember.” That’s not the truth, but it’s something that Darius will believe and back off a little. I hate to use guilt trips because it is just not me. But he kind of deserves it for causing all this.
“Maybe we should call it a night. I don’t want you to feel uncomfortable.” He pulls me a little closer.
I shake my head. “No, I can man up and do it. It’s fine. I just needed a break for a minute.”
He cups my face and has me look at him. “Are you sure that you don’t want to tell me about anything?”
I smile. “Nothing to tell.”
He wraps me up again. “If you need another break just let me know. I will help you out.”
“Ok.” Not like I can really say anything else.
He pulls me back out to the dance floor. Keeping me in his arms. After a few songs the rotation starts again. His dad taps his shoulder. “May I cut in?”
Darius looks to me. “You good?”
“Yeah, I’m fine.” I give him a reassuring smile and turn to his father. “Ready to finish that story dad?”
He takes me in the dance frame. “You know it.” He winks to his son and then dances off with me. “How are you really doing?”
“I’m ok. Just overwhelmed. I can hold it together.”
“Good. So as I was saying. When I met her I changed my mind completely. She however was not convinced. She didn’t want me. Well eventually I won over her fiery heart by keeping her in my arms all night long. We talked, we laughed. It was a night to remember. Finally at the end of the night she accepted me.”
“That’s cute.”
“Yeah, It was the best night of my life. She is my life.”
I want to cry again. I will never have that. Even knowing that this unknown mate is Markus makes it all the worse. He is the boy who showed me kindness from the start. Never made me feel little. The boy that I will never have the way that I really want.
But I suck it up and smile for the Alpha. A flash of red catches my eye. I look over and see Sasha dancing with Darius. She is wearing this red dress that hugs her body and makes her look like the devil. He seems happy. Maybe it is just me that won’t be happy. She isn’t even supposed to be here. Yet he is dancing with her. I’m not jealous, per say, but it seems unfair that he should be happy dancing with her and I can’t be happy dancing with my mate.