I ate the chocolate porridge I cooked this morning with a frown on my face. I used a lot of rice, and it would be a waste to waste food when I had no plans to leave the house. So, from breakfast until dinner, chocolate porridge was the only thing filling my stomach. I was getting hungry.
But the laughter quickly vanished as I realized I wasn’t happy; I was just pretending not to cry because of everything that happened. I don’t want to hold grudges against others, but it feels like there’s growing anger in my heart that I can’t seem to get rid of. Maybe I’ve become bitter. I tried to be cool and accept that I’m not the right woman for them.
Or maybe they are not the right men for me. But then, should I look for someone else? It’s tiring, isn’t it? When Brent left me, I didn’t look for someone new, but suddenly, Samer disturbed me, and now he left me too.
I took a deep breath as I carefully thought about my next move. Maybe it’s time to sell the house because it holds too many memories with Samer Khalifa. But it’s a shame because it was the first property I acquired, and it has sentimental value.
If I move to another place, I don’t even know where to go. Will I be hiding forever to avoid the possibility of running into them again? Am I that much of a coward? Maybe…
I was still enjoying the movie when Kevin called. “Do you have good news for me?” I asked him.
“It’s done,” he replied, leaving a pause.
I hesitated if what I did was right. “What was his reaction?” I wanted to know how that man would look when he learned his chickens were gone.
“He got angry and had a problem with us,” Kevin said.
“My God, Kevin, why didn’t you be more careful? Of course, there would be cameras there. What did he say?” I inquired because I didn’t want Kevin to get into trouble because of me, even if I was angry with him. Or was that justifiable? Maybe it would be enough for me to satisfy my desire for revenge against all of them?
“It’s alright, anyway. My life has no value anymore,” Kevin replied.
“I can’t undo what happened,” I said. “Let me call Brent first; just stay put there,” I instructed him.
I rarely became cruel, you messed up! I felt guilty suddenly because of what happened. I searched for Brent’s number in the call register and removed it from the blacklist. I called, but he didn’t answer. I tried several times, but still no response. Nevertheless, I didn’t stop because I didn’t want Kevin to get involved in my mess.
“Jamie…,” the man on the other line answered with a sad voice.
“I’m sorry,” I said.
“I understand why you’re angry with me, but I wish you had shown it earlier. Then I wouldn’t have hoped we could go back to what we were before,” he said.
“I didn’t ask for forgiveness for us. It’s about your chickens,” I told him.
“So, you ordered Kevin to do that?” Brent’s voice raised on the other line.
As the man continued talking, I imagined the veins in his neck popping out because of his anger. “If you want to file a case against me, go ahead, I don’t care,” I said to him.
“Why? Why did you involve my chickens?” he asked.
“I don’t know. Maybe I lost my mind because of everything that happened,” I said to him. “Were you hurt by the loss of your animals?”
“I didn’t know you were capable of hurting defenseless animals, Jamie. Yes, I admit it was painful for me, but I was more hurt for the two old folks who took care of the chickens. Do you know that Virgie hasn’t stopped crying? How could you do that?” he asked.
“Because I wanted you to leave our place, Brent! I couldn’t even come home because you were there!” I answered.
“I’m leaving anyway. Do you know I already gave the farm to the caretakers? So, what did you accomplish?” Brent asked angrily.
I was surprised by what he said because he never mentioned his plan to give the farm to the two elderly folks.
“I wish you had told me earlier,” I blamed Brent because he didn’t tell me about his plan.
“You changed,” he said.
“I know, and you’re one of the reasons why I’m like this now,” I replied to him. Maybe if Samer and I hadn’t been ruined, I might have forgiven him. After all, he was the reason why I easily doubted people.
“I did ask for forgiveness, right?” Brent said.
I just laughed at what he said because no matter what he does, the pain of what he did to me will remain. “I forgave you, didn’t I?” I asked him.
“If that’s the case, then why did you seek revenge if you already forgave me? Was everything you showed me in Stonewick fake?” he inquired.
“Hmmm, maybe. I just used you back then to make Samer jealous,” I admitted to my true feelings during those days.
“You know, you’re really terrible,” Brent’s voice choked before he hung up the phone.
I tried calling him again, but I couldn’t get through. I suddenly felt guilty because of what happened, feeling like a terrible person. Was what I did really wrong?
I should be happy because I got what I wanted in hurting Brent, but why am I not happy? It’s like something is squeezing my heart, and I didn’t even realize I was already shedding tears.
I allowed myself to cry because I had finally ended my connection with Brent. If ever we meet again in the future, well, maybe not. I wiped my tears and cleaned up the dining area to go to my room. It was too late, and I was worried about my pregnancy.
Maybe I’ve been watching too many thriller movies because I felt like someone was watching me. I tried to look around, but I didn’t see anyone. All the windows and doors were closed, so it was impossible for anyone to enter. I convinced myself to calm down because I was safe inside my room.
However, when fear grips your heart, there’s no stopping it. I quickly ran upstairs and almost sprinted the distance from the stairs to my room. If it weren’t embarrassing to scream, I might have done it earlier.
When I finally entered my room, I immediately closed the door and made sure to double-lock it. I felt safe only when I was inside my room.
“Shit!” I covered my mouth and widened my eyes when I saw someone inside their room.
I rushed back to the door and struggled to open it, but it wouldn’t budge no matter what I did.
“Help!” I shouted loudly, but the intruder caught up with me before I could do anything.
As he grabbed my arm, I realized that it might be impossible not to see Samer again “You hid so well; I almost went crazy looking for you,” Samer said.