“But she is eighteen dude, I think it’s better she gets married, that will be better for the clan, and she wouldn’t be lonely anymore and you wouldn’t have to be so worried about her all the time.” He remarked.
“What makes you think she wouldn’t be lonely? What if the Alpha Mom finds for her isn’t good enough, at least I want a man who will treat my sister well, not like some sex tool.’ I argued.
“Are you there with her to know if the Alpha is good or not? Gerard, you can’t judge if the Alpha isn’t good or freaking bad, Oceana, will inform our parents and then, they will look for someone better for her. Stop grumbling like an old man worrying about his little daughter.’ He took a plate of porridge and a spoon.
“Oceana looks like the type that wouldn’t speak her feelings, no matter what.” I persisted. “She will endure it.’
Why am I getting worried about her?
“Are you blaming yourself and getting apprehensive about her, you are fucking doing the right thing. And she peeped on you while you were doing your thing on that day, which she isn’t supposed to. I had to put her in her place. Although, it wasn’t my intention but I was preventing her from trouble.’ He stated.
I still don’t know why I can’t forget what occurred on that day, no matter how I try to forget it, it stays in my head.
Why today of all days, do I have to be disturbed about it?
“That was a long time ago, why will you even bring that up? By the way, you shouldn’t have snapped at her like that, you didn’t mean it but it changed and triggered something in her.”
. “I did the right thing or else, only the moon goddess knew the next thing she would have done on that day.” He reasoned.
I could clearly remember that day, eight years ago after rescuing her from the principal and bullies in school, she turned me on.
Man, I should be whipped and get my dick cut off, I’m so pissed as fuck and wished I could wipe off my memory of that day.
On that day it happened, I had to let go of those hormones.
I was scared of my wolf taking over me and my pheromones.
So, I excused myself and went to my room.
It was too dangerous staying by her side or else, I would have done something I would have regretted for the rest of my life.
I couldn’t resist her, her images were in my head, how her little breast could fit in my mouth, how wet her beautiful and clean pussy will be, how smooth her skin was going to be, all this was getting to my head.
Her lips, will it be so soft, will my dick be able to fit inside her, how she was going to scream with her mouth on my dick made me go insane.
I couldn’t hold it in much longer, I had to burst it out and let go of it. I took off my clothes and began stroking my dick after rubbing a little amount of oil and imagining it in her pussy, not knowing she was watching me. I was so into my rut, wishing I was between her legs and didn’t even notice her presence on that day, it felt so wonderful.
Amazing and magnificent, I told myself that I would claim her over a thousand times, seems like my dreams will never come to pass, because that would be putting her in some trouble.
To this day, I don’t know if she remembers what happened and I’ve been avoiding her even since, too ashamed to call her.
I don’t even know what she will think of me after so many years.
Whenever I see her in the photos the coach which trains her, sends to me privately.
I instantly get turned on by her sweaty toned curvy body and masturbate all night dripping with sweat, yearning for her, everything concerning her.
She was so damn beautiful, she was gorgeous and has grown into a more attractive woman and appeared more cute too.
She was a fucking goddess.
I know I sound like a pervert, like a psycho but I’m a man, an Alpha, a wolf who desperately craves for his mate but can’t get her due to some circumstances which could affect the clan and our lives.
She is not some stranger, but my family.
And I’m also not some stalker either, maybe I am but I just feel bothered whenever I don’t hear from the coach about her and decide to call my parents indirectly asking about her.
Instead of me calling her, I end up dropping the phone down on my bed, staring at her number.
I know she dotes on me a lot, I was her big brother, but what should I say after abandoning her and not hearing from her either?
I just feel ashamed and incapable at times, even though I’m an Alpha.
She is my first love, my mate. I want to claim her so bad. I am in love with my sister and I can’t endure it anymore. I can’t keep seeing her as my sister, I am tired of pretending.
That’s why I need to let her go, the realms will never accept the likes of us.
For it is a taboo.
I need to search for someone to love and vent, that way I can stay sane. Oceana and I can never be together, what if she discovers my feelings for her? Wouldn’t she find it gross to even look at me in the face?
I love her so much my heart bleeds, that’s why I need to let her go.
“Still, you hurt her feelings.’ I smiled.
“I felt bad too, but they were not my motives. I shouldn’t have insulted her but I had no choice. I didn’t want our parents to know what had happened. I know she is your mate but we have to stop this and…and…”
“And what.” I pretended to laugh, I knew what he wanted to say.
“I hope you will accept her, Gerard.” He shrugged and continued eating from his plate. “She loves you.”
“Not romantically, she still sees me as an elder brother. Big brother to be precise.”
“But the bond between you two is strong.”
“What do you mean?’
“I know you still check after her, all these years, bro, I know what I’m freaking saying, no big deal.”
“I don’t care if you know what you are saying but I’m forgetting all these and putting them behind me, it’s all in the past. I’m in love with someone else now and that’s Emily.” I made a point.
“But…”