The drive home was depressing, to say the least. I expected Ben to say something, but he just stayed quiet.
What Jake showed me was a video someone posted on twitter. Nick was seen with James at a night event in Germany.
James had his arm around a girl and Nick was whispering into this red heads ear with that smirk of his.
It made me furious. Not only did he not even bother coming to my dad’s birthday, but he’s out there flirting with girls like he’s single.
A few people retweeted it and said that he was drunk and possibly high but to me those are just excuses. Just fucking excuses.
The video was 4 minutes long, the person clearly just wanted to expose Nick. How could he be so stupid to do that openly where he knows people will see him.
Seeing him hands on her and watching his lips on her neck. I felt disgusting.
When I got home, I went straight upstairs and got ready for bed. What was a good night with my family has blown to shit with his stupid actions.
The girls were messaging me. I’m sure they wanted to say a lot of abusive words, but they stayed calm and offered me the support I needed.
Not only has he made a fool out of himself, but he has made me look stupid with everyone watching our every move.
I sent Nick message making sure that he doesn’t even think about coming here tonight. I will let Kate kick him out I don’t even care for his excuses. I am a woman of pride and I won’t take this lightly.
I finally was ready for bed; I plugged my phone into my charger and switched off my lights. I would just have to deal with whatever shit comes my way in the morning.
The next morning, I headed out for work. I locked the door behind me and walked down to my car. Strangely I felt annoyed that Nick hadn’t called me this morning or that he was outside my house begging to come in.
Maybe Nick has his pride too and wont find himself begging a girl no matter how much he cares about her.
Even though I didn’t find Nick outside my door at 7 in the morning I did have someone waiting for me.
James jumped up when he heard me coming down the steps.
” not now James, I’ve got work tell Nick to fuck off” I passed him, ripping the door open to shove my overnight bag inside. I have what you could call an intervention at the girls place tonight.
I had no choice, you should see the state of our group chat this morning, they are showing no signs of remorse for Nick. Did nick really sent James in his place, Jesus is this what I deserve definitely fucking not.
James pulled at my arm, I instantly caught the scent of his alcohol breath. I’m surprised he’s even here at 7 o’clock in the morning. Unless he never went home.
“please please hear me out Selene” he pleaded with me holding onto me tightly.
I turned to face him, staring at him impatiently.
He breathed out. “Can we at least sit, I’m dizzy” I rolled my eyes and yanked my arm out his grip. I don’t think its right for me to blow up in his face knowing that the real man that I was mad at was Nick.
” This is all my fault Selene, I begged Nick to come out with me and and he fucked up yes but I put him in the position im sorry” James lowered his eyes, like he didn’t want to face me.
” this isn’t your fault, if he was going to fuck up its better he did it now” I whispered softly. The problem with being cheated on is that even though you want to be angry and fuck things up for the person it also makes you think of why would they do it to you.
Was I not enough.
I walk around head held high. Eyes focused and constantly a cocky smile on my face. Look where that’s got me.
I patted his shoulder ” go home James, this isn’t your fight” which was the truth. Even though James may have had a big part of this mess we’re in right now. It wasn’t his fight. Nick should have known better.
After realising that James got a bus here. Yes that’s right a bus. I had to laugh, if I wasn’t so pissed off I would have joked with him but I just helped him into my car and drove him 15 minutes in the direction of his home.
What surprised me was that there was a girl at his house. As soon as I pulled into his driveway she rushed out went straight to him.
” Fuck sake Jay, I thought you were dead” she cursed at him pulling his arm and wrapping around her shoulder.
I stared at the girl.
I’ve seen her somewhere, where do I recognise her from.
Oh shit, I know. She was in a video from last night. Obviously not the girl that Nick was with but im guessing she was the one that James was interested in.
After successfully dragging James inside she finally noticed me, I was too busy staring at her in awe. She looked completely different as to how she looked in the video. Seeing her right now in her fitted black blazer, white shirt and a short skort was totally different from her bodycon revealing dress from last night.
” Selene right” she asked. I nodded shifting on my feet.
” I feel like you deserve an insight into last night” I glanced at my watch. She noticed this and took hold of my arm.
” you need to hear this” I decided that it worth listening to what she had to say.
We walked into James’s home. She headed over to his fridge grabbing fresh lemon juice and a bowl of fresh mango.
I sat on the stall near his kitchen island.
” Nickolas was very drunk lastnight ” she started off by saying.
Well I know that.
” ofcourse, the whole world can say that” I commented.
She glanced up at me ” have you even spoken to him?” she asked me. I could sense the hint of annoyance in her tone which didn’t really sit with me.
“look, me and Nick have been seeing eachother for a few weeks now and I know that means very little but no girl wants to be treated how he treated me last night. He missed my dads party and instead went out drinking without even letting me know”
I had no idea who this girl was, just because I was maybe more successful that didn’t mean I was better than her.
“but have you given him the chance to explain, if you think a guy like nick wasn’t going to play around whilst being with you, you are sadly mistaken” she pushed on.
Seriously?
Please tell me she didn’t just say that. To my face.
” I think I better go” I said to her. “before I lose my shit ” I whispered grabbing my bag from the table.
” No, I think you should leave” James walked into the kitchen, his hair wet from his shower and handbag hanging from his arm.
I pressed my lips together.
She looked between us but luckily didn’t get smart, she silently took her bag and left closing the door behind her softly.
I don’t think she did anything bad per say, but I just think she didn’t understand and was getting involved into something that didn’t concern her. Her views on men were interesting to say the least.
” I’m sorry about her” James said walking around the kitchen and grabbing bread and eggs from the fridge.
I leant back in the stall. ” where do you find these women James, seriously” I shook my head. I watched as he smirked to himself hearing my wrds.
” I probably should re-evaluate where I go looking for girls” no shit james. If you want a real girl don’t go to a bar or a club looking for them.
Not saying that all girls you find in those places are bad but its not a good place to start.
“what happened to that girl you met at the airport” I asked him, wrapping my hand around my glass and bringing it up to my lips.
He seemed to think for a minute before frowning. ” she stopped answering my calls” he simply says.
Yikes, that’s gotta hurt.
Saying you don’t want to talk or see eachother is already bad let alone just being ghosted like that.
A few moments went by before james turned to face me.
” He didn’t do anything with her. Whats in that video was all that happened, I promise you”
I traced the words on the glass.
I know that James wouldn’t lie to me, even though there was bro code and brother loyalty. Jmes wasn’t the type to lie. Or maybe I beleievd in james more than I should.
” I used to think I was baddest bitch around here” I chuckled softly, I couldn’t get the image of Nick so close to that girl.
James walked over grabbing my arms.
“you are Selene, it was a mistake but they didn’t even kiss nothing of the sort” he defended Nick.
This made me think. Maybe I should have listened to him last night.
Save myself from all this anger, this energy that could be used for better causes.
Like my job, which I should be at right now.
” youre a good friend james” I said reaching up and stroking his jaw, feeling his light stubble. He closed his eyes. ” wish I was better, he’s my boy but youre also my girl Selly” he said staring at me.
Damn him for saying those words.
James is my brother, my bestfriend. I hate seeing him this way. I am so used to seeing him happy, manking jokes and acting like an idiot. This man infront of me was different.
I finally left James in his home. He had a fitting for an event this afternoon. He made me promise to hear Nick out. So I did, I made sure that I found time to see Nick today.
I arrived at work 40 minutes later due to the annoying traffic due to a head on collision. This made me think about tht day of my car accident. Nick was the only man that I was willing to talk to, to respond to. Before my dad arrived that is.
Even though I was mad about him with that girl and the fact that people were labelling her as his mistress. I was actually more angry about the fact that he didn’t turn up to my dads party. But it ultimately made me think on whether he was really serious about us.
A few hours into the day I soon realised that I wasn’t really doing anything at work. Toby spend a good hour in my office going over the launch for the new collection. But Toby could even see that I wasn’t in it.
He knew better than to talk about Nick to me, even if he wanted to he knew better.
I left work shortly after lunch. I opened up my messages and started to write up a message organising for us to meet.
I looked up, trying to figure out how I should form this message only to scream. Nearly dying right there from my very familiar pissed off, annoyed best friend.
Olivia stood with her arms crossed. ” who you messaging there selly” he raised her brow.
I locked my phone, quickly sliding it into my pocket.
” give me your phone” she stuck her hand out to me. I glared at her, was she insane.
” no ” I shook my head.
However I wasn’t lucky because she resorted into snatchign straight from my pocket and looking at it. Probably now seeing the message I starting writing to nick.
” I’m moving the intervention up a few hours” Olivia called out. I was confused until I saw the very pregnant Mary sitting on a bench eating a packet of corn chips.
” As long as we still stop by Burger King, i want that oreo milkshake” Mary said.
Those pregnancy cravings though.
Tonight was about to get real interesting.