Chapter Hundred and Seventy – How’d it happen?
Jaden’s POV
A monster. That was what I unlocked.
And part of me felt I hadn’t just unlocked it, but it had always a dormant being in me all along.
How’d I unravel the mysteries behind this new rank? This cursed rank. A Lycan rank.
Had such ever happened? I wasn’t aware.
I’d lose a lot. Yes, I’d lose a huge lot.
But then, I’ve already lost a lot so if this was the blessing of the moon goddess to me then I should accept it with open arms.
“So Leon, what did you say I’d do to shift back?” I asked my wolf as I couldn’t get myself to my normal human size.
I had to sleep in a cave like an animal because I couldn’t be seen in Lycan form around my pack till I had explained everything.
“It’s an ‘inhale and exhale’ exercise. Try it.” He repeated for the hundredth time.
It wasn’t working. “Anything else?”
My eyes went down to the ground, strong at the muddy sticky soil. “I really want to leave here to the comfort on my bed! And right now!”
“If you didn’t notice, we both shifted to Lycan yesterday so I also have no clue!” he yelled back.
We both became Lycans? But he acted like he knew. He had an attitude when we shifted.
Not to add that he suddenly knew his name.
Sensing my thoughts, he scoffed. “Wait, were you thinking I turned you Lycan? Like I snapped my paws and decide you’d be Lycan?”
Well, yes. I replied on a small voice. “You didn’t freak out when changes happened so I assumed you knew about it.”
“Not as much as you think.” He sniffed.
So he was as clueless as I was? “What do you know, please? Anything to help me out here?”
He sighed deeply. “I’ve felt different from other wolves. And I rarely connect with them.”
I knew all that. He had social issues. “So?”
“The feeling was more defined as I grew up but you didn’t agree with it so I suppressed it.”
“And what was it?” I braced myself for a reply.
“Dominance. I had a domineering aura.” He remarked. “Not ideal for you as an Alpha as you should lead not just dominate.”
Of course, it wasn’t ideal. That’s a jerk attitude.
He was also an Alpha wolf so why’d he want to ‘dominate’? And who?
“Jaden, you wanted to make a good Alpha and prove your father and uncles wrong.” He added.
My countenance changed and I nodded. “Yes, and being a dominant Alpha won’t have helped.”
“I knew that.” He agreed. “I knew if I pushed my crazy side, along with my need to dominate, you’d lose that chance. So I suppressed it.”
Why did I feel guilty that he had to go through that for me? And why was he like that? How did it bring us here now?
“So you somehow released yourself and now we became Lycan?” I enquired.
“Maybe.” He shrugged. “The pain we had experienced yesterday brought it all back and I guess that’s what happened.”
I blinked numerously after he was done. “So pain and anger, which are major things you’re plagued, with made me Lycan?”
Much sense was made but not much was understood. His pain and anger made me Lycan? “I thought you had to be born Lycan?”
“Some Werewolfs had become Lycan by merit or hardwork. It’s not always from birth.” He said.
My mouth shaped in an ‘oh’. But I didn’t think I’d be like those wolfs.
If these were all true, then it was truly a gift from the Moon goddess.
A gift to help me whoop Logan’s ass. “Only I need to know how to control it first.”
I cut off the mind link between Leon and I. I’d need to get used to his name as I was already used to addressing him without an identity.
After much inhaling and exhaling, along with mindful effort to shift back, I began noticing change in my size.
Slowly, I returned to my normal size. But with my clothes enlarged.
The inner wears I had was dropping from my waist, only my trouser held on cause it was elastic and had stretched when I grew bigger.
“I’m still not presentable to go home. Maybe I should shift to my wolf form and enter?” I housed the thoughts before shaking it off.
“It’s better actually.” Leon connected back and said. “And you should hurry back now before my mate will worry.”
His mate? “Leon and Lana is a pretty name for pair, don’t you think?” He grinned.
A done look graced my face, and I stared into space. “I think you should stop talking.”
I took off my suede trousers and tied to my legs. I shifted to my gray wolf and exercised a bit.
A sudden shock wave went over me and it was like my spine became flexible that I could stand.
“Can’t I be in wolf form comfortably anymore?”
Leon chuckled. “Because you’re Lycan. Do you see Logan in his wolf form all the time? He rarely is.”
He pointed out and I wondered why. “Lycan form let you and your wolf be more in sync the when you’re in wolf form.”
“In this form, the full wolf form, I take the lead more.” He concluded. “So which is better?”
Lycan form felt easier and freer but I can’t be seen that way. “Whatever. ” I rolled my eyes. “And why do you know a lot about Lycans?”
I took careful steps while strolling back home.
Not to reserve my energy, my injury was gone now as I had a Lycan energy and that was the problem.
I needed to mask off the Lycan energy so normal wolfs wouldn’t sense it?
Only Alphas, Betas or Deltas would and I’d explain to them why. Being a Lycan like Logan would be frowned upon and seen wrongly.
I did nothing to be a Lycan so this wasn’t by my will but the Moon goddess’s.
I’d try to use the Lycan strength and energy but not the physique so I wouldn’t scare anyone.
This was a blessing not a curse.