I asked the hostess to seat me in Helen’s section and I saw her raise an eyebrow. Every woman in the place probably knew what an asshole I’d been by now. When Helen came to wait on the table and saw that it was me she said, “Oh, it’s you. I’ll get you another waitress” and she started to walk away.
“No, I don’t want another waitress, I asked for your section.”
“Why?”
“Look Helen, I’ve never had to crawl before so I don’t know how. Can you help me out here?”
“Why should I?”
I was at a loss as how to answer that. This damned sure wasn’t the girl who Rocs and her Aunt Ada said cried herself to sleep every night. I don’t know what I had expected when I came into the restaurant, but it sure wasn’t the cold, detached indifference that I was getting. I stared at her for several seconds and then said, “You’re right, why should you. I’ll have coffee and the special.”
She took the order, wrote it down on her pad and left me sitting there wondering why I had even bothered. When she returned with my meal she set it down in front of me without a word and went to wait on other customers. I ate my meal, dropped enough money on the table to cover the tab and a tip and then I got up and left the restaurant. Helen was standing next to my car when I got to the parking lot. I stopped and looked at her and waited to see what she was going to do.
“If you want to talk you can meet me at my aunts when I get off work.”
“Why don’t I just pick you up?”
I already have a ride and no way to get in touch with him to cancel.”
“Oh. Should I bother?”
“That’s strictly up to you” and she went back into the restaurant.
I was sitting in my car across the street from Helen’s aunt’s house when she pulled up. Her ride was the same guy she had been necking with. They sat in his car and talked for almost five minutes before they leaned together and kissed. It was a long kiss and I was reaching for the ignition key to start the car and drive off when Helen got out of the car and came over and got in mine. She cut right to it.
“So, what’s with this crawl nonsense?”
“Just that I guess – nonsense. I’ve spent the last several days realizing that I love you, want to be with you and all the rest of that bullshit. After being yelled at by your aunt and talking to your cousin Rocs they left me with the impression that you felt the same way so I came to crawl and beg only to find out that your cousin and your aunt were obviously mistaken. It is evident from what I just saw that I was quickly replaced. Sorry to have wasted your time.”
I started the car and waited for her to get out, but she just sat there looking at me and then she reached over and turned the ignition off.
“You haven’t been replaced because you can’t be replaced. You are my other half, the yin to my yang. When you left me you left a hole in my soul that can never be filled by someone else, but one of my many faults is that I am brutally honest – I won’t lie to anyone about anything and I certainly won’t lie to you. That little display in Doug’s car was for your benefit although Doug doesn’t know that. You say that you came crawling, but what you don’t realize is that you just might not want me anymore once you know the truth. You hurt me when you walked away from me. I cried my heart out for two days and then I told myself to stop with the self pity, to suck it up and get on with my life.
“But I was angry and when I’m angry I strike out. You didn’t want me any more because to you I was a whore so okay, fuck you, and I’ll be a whore and see that it gets back to you. Three days ago I fucked Doug’s brains out and last night I gave him a blow job in the restaurant parking lot. Doug is a loud mouthed braggart and I knew he would tell every one and that it would get back to you. Just to make sure it got back to you I sucked his cock in the parking lot. Enough people knew about it so it was a sure bet that it would get to your mother and through her to you. That was my way of putting you out of my thoughts and out of my life. You would hear about it, be disgusted and wouldn’t ever come into the restaurant any more as long as I worked there. I would never have to worry about seeing you again.
“Doug doesn’t mean shit to me; all he was was a stick to poke you in the eye with. So, there you are.”
Well this was certainly a different kettle of fish. Catching her necking hot and heavy with some guy was a whole lot different than knowing g that she was sucking and fucking some other guy, but as I saw her reach for the door handle I realized that it didn’t mean any more than the guys in the hotel. We weren’t married and what she did after we took our vows is all that would matter.
“Where are you going?”
“Getting out of your car. I’m sure that the odor of whore is offensive to you.”
“Did you take money for fucking him?”
“No, of course not.”
Then you aren’t a whore. A slut maybe, and an easy piece of ass from Doug’s perspective, but not a whore. It will probably cause me some problems when Doug tells all and guys start swarming around my wife looking to get laid or get a quick parking lot blow job, but I’ll just have to deal with it.”
“What are you saying?”
“Just what you have already said; I’m the yin to your yang. We were meant to be. So, unless you fell in love with Doug’s cock and don’t want me around any more, it is just one of life’s problems that we will have to work through.”
“You really mean that?”
“I do.”
And then she was crying and I was holding her.
“There is one major problem that you will have to face on your own.”
“What’s that baby?”
“Well, you still work with my mother and now that we are back together you will have to face her every day knowing that she knows you give out parking lot blow jobs.”
“All I can say to that is “Fuck her!”
And for some reason I had to smile at that.