Love Confessions
Mary Davies
“You can take custody of the kids, I won’t try to stop you.” I said, not to sure I meant those words.
Was I really ready to leave my children with Hawk Andrews. I know how scared I was when Taylor separated me from my kids, I couldn’t do anything because I was held back by her men. The kids were used as a bait to get me here, no way would I leave my kids alone with that bitch with the crazy stunts she played today.
To be honest I was confused and scared at the same time. I was in a dilemma. It was hard to make a decision with someone who has a history in my life as my rapist. What if he does it again. I know I have to make this decision, it might be hard. But I have to do it.
A feeling of foreboding replaced the frown on my face, if I had known my life would be disrupted when I decided to come into Miranda. I would have stayed back. I can’t believe how my life had become a labyrinth of indecision in a matter of few minutes. What else could I do. There is no way I could literally fight for my kids custody, I don’t have Hawk Andrews influence, money or even power.
I raised up my head to meet his gaze unflinchingly. For him to go to this extent of changing his identity and making me fall in love with him, maybe he has truly changed. Or was it all a pretence?
“Are you kidding me right now Mary? You want to walk out of your kids life just like that because you don’t want to be with me?” He asked, with his dark eyes watching me as if he was trying to absorb my response.
“Well those choices of yours are only in your favor,” I replied. “I can’t believe you just brought our kids into this.” I added.
“But Mary, you didn’t give me any choice either. You were about to walk out of my life, I couldn’t think of any other way to keep you here with me other than that. Don’t you get it, I am in love with you. I love you so much to the extent that I know no one else could love you the same way I do.”
“What about Taylor?” I asked. She seems to be so invested in him, she practically warned me back in high school to stay away from Hawk Andrews.
“No one is better than you Mary. You are fucking perfect to me. No other person can be you. Don’t you get it.”
“I can’t ever stop loving you, I don’t want to lose you, merely thinking about it is making me want to lose my mind. I am the one literally begging to still be together with you, so I don’t intend separating the kids from you. I really want us to be together as a family. I am very reluctant to let you go. Please don’t give up on us Mary. I know I am far away from being perfect and if I am terrible with showing my commitment to you. I want you to know I love you so much that the thought of losing you chokes me.”
“I get why they say love is not enough most times. I am going to make you my number one priority. I don’t want to be the one who makes you sad, with me you will always be happy with me.”
“I’m ready to change because of you. I promise not to hurt you. The only way Taylor might want to hurt us is through our kids. They can’t remain here. Let’s just go far away.”
“But I don’t want to go far away.” I whispered softly. Paying attention to everything, all he just said made it seem like another version of Hawk Andrews was standing right in front of me, I wiped the tears that rolled down my cheeks away as I sniffed. I don’t know why I was getting emotional, but everything was just too much for me to take in. He loves me, all this confession was making me feel so overwhelmed.
“I just don’t know Hawk, I feel like I want to really love you. But something else is holding me back. Maybe I’m scared or….. How I wish things were different between us, only if we could take some moments out of our lives.”
“I don’t think I want to go far away, can you please give me tonight to think about it?” I whispered softly. He stepped closer to me and I reached out a hand to his face, the raspy feelings of his unshaven face sent shivers along my spine. Warmth crept into my face as I saw the amused look on his face.
“Right now, we both know what Taylor is capable of. She just legit threatened us today.”
“If we don’t go far away, our lives is going to be in danger, think about the kids while you take your time to think about everything else.”
“Seems like she is obsessed with you, and she believes you are getting engaged to her.”
“Too bad. I’m obsessed with someone else.” He whispered.
“Did you send me to Bentmont because of Taylor?” I asked, turning my head to Bryan who already fell asleep on his father’s chair. Tiffany was asleep too, her tiny arms were wrapped around her father’s neck while she slept. I found that extremely cute.
“Taylor is part of the reason why I sent you far away, I don’t know what other enemy we have out there Mary. Or when they plan to attack. My dad is not in support of us being together, same as my stepmom. My father wants me to take the kids away from you. My biological mum knows about all this and she wants us to take her grandchildren far away from all these threats. She is here in Miranda with my adopted brother and she badly wants to meet you and her grandchildren. Mary I want you to give me a chance to make it up to you as Hawk Andrews and not Edward Jones alone. I want you to consider giving me a second chance and I promise you won’t ever regret it.”
“You might not be aware of a lot of things, but I’m ready to tell you everything you need to know once we go far away from here. I just want us to get away from here and live happily.”
“Like I said before, If we don’t go far away from here, our lives is going to be in danger, think about the kids.”
“Is there any other thing you are not telling me, what else are you keeping away from me?” I asked calmly, it’s better I know everything now, because I don’t want any other thing to come as a shock to us.
“I feel if I don’t tell you all these things now, it might be too late. I feel something might happen to me before I tell you everything. I don’t know, but whatever happens. I want you to know that I truly love you Mary. I have some savings for the kids, you know my email address. My password is the first name we picked for Bryan, all details concerning it is saved in my mail. No matter what happens to me. Don’t let my father or Taylor take the custody of the kids. If something happens to me, Mary. I don’t want you to linger around I want you to go far away. I want you to get in touch with Xander, he is my brother, adopted brother. His mum, Carol is my biological mother. You and the kids can stay with her. She is the only one I trust.”
“What the fu*k are you talking about?” I whispered, trying to be careful not to wake the kids up.
“You are scaring me shitlessly. You sound as if….. as if…. You…. I just…” I stuttered..
“Calm down, nothing is going to happen to me or to us. We will hopefully be able to dodge whatever might happen, Taylor has obviously gone to cry to her dad and Papa.”
“What exactly does she have on you?” I asked inquisitively.
“Not me, my dad. Her father saved my dad’s businesses from crashing down. Apart from the fact that our companies are merged together, my dad has the highest shares though. Her family is one of the reason why my dad is on the list of the richest man in the world. One more thing, my dad has a slush fund only the Mcgregor’s knows about. Maybe he is trying to prevent them from using it against him or he’s trying not to lose from both sides. He is like a dog in their hands. But I don’t want to be controlled by them.”
“You know what, let me drop you and the kids off in my house, then I will come back to finish up here. We can talk later tonight.”
“Is that okay with you?” He asked.
“Yes, that’s fine with me.” I whispered, but I just can’t get the feeling that something bad was about to happen.
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