Hawk Andrews
The bet was a very simple one, it was not my first time. I only had to get into her pants, and bring two proofs. A video and a blood stained sheet to prove her virginity, I have both with me. It wasn’t difficult for me to do, it was something I had done before. Sex was plainly sex, everyone knows I am a player, it was meant to be once, but I couldn’t stop at just a time.
I didn’t know what was happening to me and why I kept yearning for more. Maybe it was plainly sex, but I don’t want to get attached to her. Just a taste of her made me keep wanting for more. Anytime I make up my mind not to touch her, I find myself wanting her. She was just a new student, a fresh meat, a virgin just like the way I love them. Mary Davies is an enigma I don’t understand yet. She is different from any other girl I have ever fucked. Loving her or any other girl was forbidden, not my own rules, but it is a rule given by the one who owns me.
I started having sex from a very young age, I grew up to enjoying sex. Aunt Silvia introduced sex to me when I was at the age of eleven. She owns me, she hasn’t given me the permission to fuck anybody. I knew she was coming over for my punishment. She comes over to punish me anytime she finds out I have been having sex with any other girl who isn’t her. The last time she came here, she drugged me and raped me. Aunt Silvia is my worst nightmare.
She knows I couldn’t tell anyone, who wants to believe a guy like me was molested at childhood, that was shameful. I am going to lose so much respect from people. Nowadays, only women who get raped are given justice. But if it is a man, everyone thinks it is a lie because they all believe it’s a man that can rape and not get raped. People are not aware men can also get raped.
I don’t want aunt Silvia to come over, because we are only going to have endless sex and there are consequences if I refuse. I either get raped or she accuses me of raping her. Dread weighs down on me at the exhausting thoughts of her. Silvia might look innocent but she is a whore at heart. My gaze darts round the room as I begin to hyperventilate. I wouldn’t be able to fight against her. Submission was her watchword. I have been holding on to anger and hate for a long time, I am broken and tainted already. Having a rape history from two different people, where do I start from, how do I even tell people. It is a common belief is that a male must be aroused if he gets an erection or has an orgasm, that simply means that the male is willing and of course enjoying the sexual activity.
Every sexual activity with aunt Silvia has never been by my consent.
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“Little Hawkie, do you want to play a game?” My aunt Silvia asked. I was getting bored while waiting for my mum to be back. Aunt Silvia is my favorite aunt and she buys me whatever I want, she allows me to eat lots of chocolates and ice creams whenever my mum is not around.
“Yes aunty, is it hide and seek?” I asked curiously.
“No, but it is something sweeter. I am going to give you lots of chocolates when we are done playing the game.”
She held my hand and took me to her room, she made me sit on her bed. I didn’t know what she was doing, she probably wants to play a game of scrabbles. Suddenly she began to remove her clothes, I gasped as I stared at her big breast. Maybe she just wants to change her clothes, but why is she doing this with me in the room. I closed my eyes shut, trying not to look at her undress. But she began to laugh loudly.
“What is it little Hawkie, are you shy?” She asked.
“No,” I replied, with my eyes still closed.
“Then open your eyes,” she cajoled.
I opened my eyes, and aunt Silvia was naked.
“Don’t I look beautiful?” She asked.
“You are beautiful.” I replied innocently.
She began to come closer to me, then she sat beside me.
“Do you want to touch?” She asked.
“No, this is wrong aunt Silvia.” I said fully surprised.
She suddenly cupped her breasts and brought it closer to my mouth.
“Come on, suck it.” She ordered.
I shook my head, bluntly refusing.
“I don’t need to be breastfed aunt Silvia. I am not a baby any longer.”
“Remind me how old you are Hawk?”She asked.
“I am eleven. I will be twelve next year.”
Before I could finish talking, she pushed one tiny bud into my mouth. I clamped on it not knowing what to do. My heart began to race faster, what is wrong with aunt Leila.
“Well, I’m nineteen. Now Suck on it!” She commanded.
I shook my head, refusing to yield to her command.
Then she became angry all of a sudden.
“Do you want to die? I can kill you right now if you don’t do as I tell you.” She growled angrily, she looked so scary. I began to suck on her breast, she grabbed my left hand and held it against her other breasts. She began to make some weird noise that sounded like a cats purr.
“Good boy.” She said as her hands crept into my shorts.
*****
I gasped loudly, it was happening again. The memories were coming back again. Panic creeps up on me. But I pull back before it gets a full hold on me, I don’t want anyone to ever see me like this, the great Hawk Andrews crashing down. Of course no. I immediately build a wall around me. I have been standing under the spray of shower for a long time. The water has gotten cold, but I didn’t even notice. I was lost in my own memories. It has been long that I’ve had this kind of flashbacks, and now they are coming back. It looked so real, it almost seems as if I was back in a room with aunt Silvia.
I didn’t shiver or crave for something warm. I was not feeling the cold. It is like I am numb, I was totally broken and I knew it. I turn of the shower, and stepped out of it. The way I was moving was slow, like a machine which is being controlled to move slowly.
I grabbed a large towel and began to wipe my body dry, before wrapping it around my waist. I opened the door and stepped out of the bathroom. It is already obvious that I won’t be able to get some sleep tonight, if the haunting memories were back, then the haunting dreams were back too. I am back to square one, the continuation of my insomnia. That feeling that feels like something in me is gone is back, I feel broken beyond repair.
With the times I’ve been with Mary Davies, I have been able to get some sleep like I have never been in a long time. Are the memories coming back because I pushed Mary Davies away or because of aunt Silvia’s upcoming return. I held my head tightly as a wave of headache hit me with full force. Life is so much better without pain. At times the heart fights for what it wants, but if it has been damaged previously. It won’t have the strength to keep fighting.
I moved towards my bed and sat on it, suddenly a knock sounded on my bed. Then the door opened widely. Taylor stepped in, her jasmine perfume permeated the air. She had her hands on her round full hips as she walked towards me. Taylor used to be a loser just like Mary Davies. She has suffered her own share of being bullied, but now it seems like she is trying to get back to me by making my life miserable.
Her father was my dad’s business associate. We were matching companies together. My dad’s company was suffering a great loss, but with Taylor’s father’s wealth, we could be one of the richest company in the world. That was something my father will never miss out in, it brought about the arranged marriage between us. Our engagement was fixed for next month. The arranged marriage is to seal the contract between us.
“You seem lost.” She said, clicking her tongue.
I don’t know where she got this boldness from, the Taylor I used to know has a very low self-esteem. It should be the body surgery, going under knives and needles was not for the weak hearted.
“I am here to make an offer, I know you have Mary Davies sex video. I want you to hand it over to me.”
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