Kevin’s POV
A year after the death of the rogues
I was anxious. I was nervous. I was afraid. My palms were all sweaty. I had never been so afraid, nervous and sweaty in my life, not even when I was facing death. I was always confident in battles, ready to strike and be struck at but at the moment, I wanted to pass out, afraid of watching the horrifying scene playing out in front of me and I also wanted to be tough and stay and watch what was going on. I would hate myself if I passed out and find out that I’ve missed everything good that would happen here.
Yeah, that was it. I had to be tough. I had to stick it out and be tough no matter how I felt. It felt like my heart was going to jump out of my throat any moment from now.
“What is wrong with you, Kevin?” I muttered under my breath to remind myself to be strong. I couldn’t afford to be like this. Ella needed me to be strong and it would be a shame if I was the weakling.
“Did you say something?” One of the nurses helping Ella asked as she turned to me.
“No, don’t worry about me. Keep on helping her.” I responded.
“We will do our best to help the Luna and the heirs, your highness.” The second nurse smiled.
My heart was now in my throat and I gasped for breath, certain I was going to lose my life at this stage. This fear I felt was irrational and crazy. I kept telling myself that I was a warrior and a warlord and never have I felt like I was going to lose my life like this. I snorted at the thought, knowing the analysis was wrong. This wasn’t any different than me losing my life. This was worse than what I didn’t fear on the battlefield because Ella was my life. If something happened to her, I wasn’t sure how I was going to live with myself, knowing I was the reason for her death.
I winced and cursed as I heard her shout again, her screams piercing through the air. I had lost count of how many times she had screamed in the last one hour. All I knew and learnt from this experience was that I was never getting her pregnant again. I wasn’t ever going to do that. I couldn’t make her go through this excruciating pain again. I couldn’t make myself go through this heartache again. I doubted I was going to be able to breathe right today after this episode.
She clenched hard on my wrist as she screamed her lungs out and I started praying to the moon goddess that this was all over soon. I had heard stories of female wolves dying during childbirth and hoped that wasn’t the case with Ella. I didn’t know how I was going to survive without Ella in my life. I was going to be a mess. I threatened the moon goddess in my head to save Ella if she wanted an alpha for her wolf pack. I wasn’t going to hesitate following Ella if she died. I sighed at my thoughts and turned my emotions off. I didn’t even think that the moon goddess could hear me in my thoughts or read my mind. I couldn’t afford to be distracted.
Ella needed me here and that was where my brain needed to be.
“I can see the crown of the head of the baby.” The midwife announced, bending down over Ella’s outstretched legs.
“You have to push, your highness.” The first nurse said.
“I’m fucking pushing.” Ella groaned, her mouth thinned into a line.
“No cursing around the kid, your highness.” The second nurse chuckled.
“He should get out.” Ella groaned again.
I hated how sweat beaded over her forehead. I itched to wipe it away for her but refrained myself. She was grumpy as hell. The other time I had tried to get the sweat off her face, she had growled at me and almost snapped at me with her teeth. I didn’t hold it against her, knowing how much she was in pain.
“You have to push him out.” The midwife advised.
“I’m ready.” Ella breathed.
I wondered why she was convinced that the baby was a boy even when there was no way to know the gender of the baby. It wasn’t as if we could check the gender before birth. We didn’t have the technology like that of the utopia town. Sometimes, I found myself wishing that I had the technology they had but I didn’t have the nerve to go make a deal with them. It came at too much a price. I had seen what the craving for the utopia technology and making a deal with them had done to the black moon wolves and I wasn’t about to go down that lane.
Ella’s piercing scream again brought me to the present. I sighed as I saw her pushing and hoped the baby comes out on time. Though I wanted a boy, I wouldn’t mind having a girl though and I was curious to know what the baby would be. Would it be a baby girl as I wanted or a baby boy as Ella desired?
I definitely wasn’t going to get her pregnant again. There was nothing that could change my mind about it. I didn’t need many heirs anyways, they were an unbearable hassle. I think of Henry, Caleb and Luke and shuddered at the memory of how the brothers behaved.
Having multiple kids was tiresome. I was convinced of that and relieved I had reasons to not get Ella pregnant again. We didn’t need them.
I heard a soft cry as Ella gave an agonizing push followed by a scream. My hand throbbed as she clamped hard on it but I didn’t care. She could break it if she wanted as long as she was fine with the baby. My eyes watered with tears as I looked at the baby; the little baby I had made with Ella. I was overjoyed and feeling proud. I didn’t know what I wanted to do but I knew I was going to love him as much as I loved his mother.
I chuckled to myself. Yes, it was a boy.
“Your highness, con…” The midwife was about to congratulate Ella when she groaned again.
“I see another baby coming.” The midwife breathed as she bent, pressing on Ella’s belly.
“You can do it.” I said to Ella, hating how tired she looked. I wished I could carry this burden for her but it wasn’t something I could do. I could only pray and hope she survived it.
The second baby came out and I was glad that it was all over. Now, she could finally rest. I stroked her cheeks lightly with my fingers, watching as the midwife wrapped the second baby. He was as adorable as his brother.
“Well done, my love.” I smiled at Ella. “You did well.”
She groaned instead of responding and I wondered if she was still grumpy from the pain she had felt. I hoped that wasn’t the case. The midwife turned at the sound of her groan and jumped towards her direction, staring at her open legs. She gasped as she stepped in between her legs and waved to the nurses who were cleaning up the other two babies to join her.
“Another baby is coming.” She breathed as she called for the attention of the other two nurses. She sounded breathless as she spoke and urged Ella to push again for… I couldn’t even remember how many times she had done that today, I had lost count.
I held my breath as I watched Ella push again with all she had in her and wondered how many babies were inside her.