. Hand in hand we walked our way through the forest following the trail around the outskirts of our territory. It was a weird day, a little hot but chilly when the wind picked up.
I never realised how big the forest really is. I spoke. How do you keep people from trespassing?.
Its not really an issue. He shrugged. A few wolfs here and there but nothing major has ever happened.
Do you think people know about werewolves?.
Maybe. He grinned. Like your gran said old wife’s tales have been circling the town for years.
I dont think I was meant to be a werewolf. I chewed the inside of my cheek.
Dont say that. He pulled me to a stop.
Its true. I shrugged.
I cant do what everyone else does. I cant shift when I want. I can barely feel her presence and when I do it’s always forced, triggered by anger. It shouldnt be this hard.
It takes time Leah but trust me babe you were meant to be a werewolf, an Alpha Female at that. His arm snaked around my waist as we continued our walk.
If you say so. I slipped my arm around his waist as a sigh fell from my lips.
Would you rather you werent a werewolf?. He asked.
I shrugged. I didnt know I was one until I was eighteen and I often wondered if we hadnt moved here, would I ever have found out. Would I have ever felt her presence?
You shifted when you were sixteen right?. I asked.
He nodded. It wasnt pleasant, its never pleasant for anyone. Every bone in our body snaps and then heals. My first shift was excruciating.
So, how come I didnt shift when I was sixteen?.
I dont know Leah maybe a set back because you didnt know any better. Ive knew I would become a werewolf since the minute I could walk. In fact, its all Ive ever known. I know its hard babe and I hate the way youre feeling about your true self. I want to help.
We tried that before, and it didnt work. I dont want my shifts controlled by anger.
Then you control them. He spoke. Dont think about it too much and stop putting so much pressure on yourself.
Its embarrassing Jake and god only knows what people think of me. How can I lead a pack when I cant shift when I want to. I huffed.
Hey. He once again pulled us to a stop only this time he wrapped me up in his arms. Nobody thinks anything of you other than how great you are and how much they appreciate and respect you. If you want to shift babe, then shift. You control her, you control everything.
It shouldnt be this hard.
It doesnt have to be. He kissed the top of my head his arms tightening around my waist. And it doesnt have to be triggered by anger. We can try different things, and you could try talking to her.
Are you being serious?. I didnt know whether to laugh or not. How did I talk to her? How did I talk to her without feeling stupid? Wouldn’t I just be talking to myself?
It could help.
I dont even know where to begin but Ill try and talk to her. I shrugged.
Even thinking about that made me feel stupid. But if it was going to help then I would try anything. I still didnt feel connected to her in the slightest. I would feel her presence every so often but it was barely there.
Before you know it, youll be shifting whenever you want. His arm wrapped around my shoulder as he pulled me close. Do you want to go for a burger?.
I wasnt really in the mood. I felt a little off today and I had a headache that I thought the fresh air would shift but it hasnt. I shook my head. I want to go home and nap this sore head away.
Okay baby then well head home.^