Avery P. O. V.
I need to go here and tell them how I feel. I should deserve closer and hear from their side of the story. I should give them something before I reject them. I don’t want to, but I will set them free from a loser who isn’t good for nothing. I am not strong, I am weak. I am not beautiful, but I am average-looking.
I am not the tallest, but I do get a big heart.
So, here I am, knocking on their secret cabin in the woods. I started to tear up and remember the first time they took me in the woods and in the cabin in the bedroom of Elijah’s. I closed my eyes and licked my lips remembering how they made me feel. I felt beautiful for once in my life. I can remember how gentle Elijah was with me when he took me. I can still feel how wonderful he felt inside me. Then there was Jake, he was an animal after he knew I could take him in. I thought he be the one be the gentle and slow one. But boy oh, I was wrong I thought with a blush. He was the one with the rough and fast past when we took me.
Oh, God, I can feel myself getting wet. I was trying to stand but my legs were wobbling, and I almost came thinking about them again. I need to be a good girl and stop thinking about them that way.
Yeah, so I am here to tell them. No, I need to tell them. I want to know what is going on with them. I am not going to leave until they do. But I know once I see something I don’t want to see. I just might…
No! I am tired of running away from my problems. I need to be brave and stop being a fucking wimp.
I knocked on their door. I waited until one of them open the door. With my imagining, I thought I saw the girls but that was my fear of talking to me. But I did see the door open and there were…
Elijah, Jake, Andrew, Matthew, at the door staring at me.
I licked my lips. I open my mouth, but it was cut off with Jake’s say.
“Avery, sweetheart?”Jake said with like he can’t believe I am here outside on their porch standing right in front of him and the guys.
Well, I wanted to say I am here to talk to you guys, but Jake cut me off out of my thinking about what to say to them. That is when he opens his mouth and spoke.
“Why are you doing here?” I heard him say. But Jake he was giving me a strange look, not a rude and disgusting look at why you are doing here kind. But a look more like shocked, wow why you are doing here kind of expression on his face.
I took a deep breath. I need to stand up and be brave and tell them how I feel.
So, here it goes…
A couple of minutes later. I am still standing on the porch because I refuse to come inside the cabin where I have dirty memories in my mind right now. I need to have a clear head.
“I am here to speak to you,” I told them with my nose high in the air. I need to be brave and be strong when I tell them how I feel.
“I… umm,” I try to say why I am here. But I could not say anything. Except I, umm. What is that! I am so stupid. I wanted to hit my head.
I wanted to kick myself in the ass. Hmm, maybe I should later. But I don’t need to think about anything but running away.
“No, Avery! You can do this.” I heard Angelstar say inside my mind. My wolf and Veela are worried and trying to get me to say something to them.
“Come on, Avery you can do this.” I heard them both tell me in my mind.
I shook my head and took a deep breath inhaled and then I exhale. I let it out.
“I am here to speak to you guys!” I told them again not with a shaky voice. It was clearer and straight to the point.
They just stand there and stared at me. I guess they were listening to me. Because they didn’t start talking again.
Well, alright they are letting me speak. Okay, here goes nothing then.
“I want to know why you been ignoring me, and I want you to tell me what I did wrong!”
“So, I am here to tell you everything before I stop myself and not tell you how I feel about you guys!” I told them.
“So, don’t interrupt me until I am finished okay,” I told them with a serious tone in my voice.
I saw them nod their heads and keep their eyes on me.
“Oh, boy, what did I get myself into now?” I told myself with a worried and nervous feeling inside of me.
Well, they know I am serious. Because I told them with a serious and straight face. I didn’t cut any corners. I just told them how it was and they are going to listen to me.
“I like you! I liked you guys since I was in middle school maybe longer. But when I see you guys with other girls.” I took a deep breath and kept going.
“It hurts!” I told them with pain in my heart and eyes.
I see them look at each other’s and back at me with guilt in their eyes.
“I don’t want to be the girls you fuck and toss to the side,” I tell them.
“I want to be your only choice forever,” I tell them staring into their eyes.
I licked my lips, and I am standing there very nervous. I can feel my chest where my heart is beating outside of my chest.
“I am in love with you,” I tell them staring into their shocked and surprised face.
“I love you,” I tell them.
So, there I am proud of myself for not being a wimp and I didn’t stutter this time or break my words up when I talked.
So, I kept talking.
“I want to know do you feel the same way about me that I feel about you,” I said with so much want and love for them.
Wow, I waited for them to say something. But they didn’t they just stand there staring at me like a was creature who wanted something to eat.
I didn’t wait any longer I just started running.
But I don’t know what happens. But I thought I heard my name-calling. But I must have imagined it.
Now I see where I stand with them. I thought with tears streaming down my face.
I shouldn’t cry. I came here for a reason. I did it. I wanted to know how they felt about me. I didn’t need them to say a word. Because I already saw it in their eyes.
They are ashamed of me.
A couple of hours later…
I am at the Lakehouse with Ashely and Natalie. They decided to come with me. I was happy but they still don’t truth Emilia and her new friends. She is not friends with Amelia and doesn’t remember and doesn’t want to remember their names. I wanted to throw up right now. Thinking of them being with my mates tonight.
I can’t feel anything yet. But believe me, I will. It’s going to fucking hurt. But I stop thinking about them and the sluts they’re going to be fucking tonight. I went back to my two best friends, and I told them.
“Thanks, girls, for coming with me,” I tell them with wholehearted thanks.
“Yeah, your welcome Avery! But I still watch out for us.” I heard Ashely say.
“Yeah, me too. I don’t feel or see anything yet.” But sometimes it doesn’t show me the future what’s going to happen.” Natalie tells me. So, it’s like fifty/fifty right in the air. By the time Natalie said that. Someone comes up to us and started speaking to us.
“Hey, girls, I am glad you can make it.” I heard Emilia say with a smile standing in front of us.
“Thank you for inviting us,” I tell with a warm smile on my face.
“Come let me show you, girls, around.” She told us and we followed her inside the house. I see a lot of people here I saw at our school. I see some from our school but some of them were not from here.
Oh, God, I hope nothing goes bad tonight. I pray it goes nice and smooth tonight.
I was thinking that when I heard a growl and I saw two dudes fighting over something. That was when I saw Eli Wallace and a guy I have never seen before fighting.
I see Natalie trying to stop them. I can’t hear what has been said but something to do with Natalie. She was telling him something, but it wasn’t working until she grabbed a hold of Eli’s face and slam her lips down on his. The other guy stops and stares and starts to walk away.
He finally stops fighting and grabbed her and wrapped his arms around her body and kissed her hard on her mouth too. A couple of seconds later. He grabbed her hand and pulled her upstairs with him dragging her. I didn’t see Ashely because she was probably in the kitchen drinking a beer and downing shots. But I don’t drink everyone knows I don’t do anything wrong. I am the wallflower princess and the brown nose the teachers’ pets, and the goodie two shoes.
Oh, God, I am tired of hearing that! I just one time to be outgoing and not afraid to do anything dangerous and cool. But I wasn’t thinking clearly.
“Hey! Guys” Welcome to the party.” I heard a female voice say with a flirty tone.
I look behind me and my eyes got cloudy with tears, and I saw them. So handsome smiling and walking in with the sluts that were all over them yesterday in the hallway.
The girls didn’t see me standing a couple of feet away from them. But I did see my guys. They looked at me with a blank look on their face and walked past me.
Ouch! I clutch to my chest, and I felt it. The pain where my heart is and it is breaking.