“Are you sure you’re not just here to rub your new relationship with Sean in her face.” Lily said.
“Lily!” I screamed.
“What? Its the truth. Why else would she bring him here? Especially unannounced.”
“Is everything okay?” Sean knocked from the other side of the door.
I hope to god that he hadn’t heard what Lily said.
“Yes, yes, everything’s fine.” I opened the door and smiled at him. “Um, why don’t we all go sit on the couch. I’ve got what I need.”
I tried to pretend but I could bet that Sean felt the tension.
I sighed mentally becasue I knew that this was going to be the most awkward social gathering ever.
We all moved back to my massive living room couch shaped like an L, and I could already sense the wierdeness. Everything just felt so unnatural. Lily and I sat on one side while Phoebe and Sean sat on the other.
“Can I just throw something out there. Sophia is pregnant, and what she doesn’t need is negative energy around her or the baby.” Lily said, throwing shade at Phoebe.
“I couldn’t agree more.” Phoebe snapped back.
Sean just looked confused.
“Great, I guess that’s settled then! So how are things at work Phoebe? I heard the office’s new solar panels gave it a carbon-neutral status.” I desperately tried to change the subject. At this point I could feel a full blown argument looming between them.
“Indeed, it has. Sean helped massively with the project, isn’t that right baby?” She looked at him and cupped his face with her hand, slightly stroking his beard.
I watched unbelievably while Lily just shook her head.
Maybe she was right after all… It sure looked like Phoebe was trying to make me jealous. But why? Sean and I were done ages ago!
“Uh, yes that’s right.” Sean looked a bit confused by her overt display of affection. “But Sophia prepared the budget for it, which kicked of the project in the first place. Do you rememeber, Sophia?” He smiled at me.
“Yeah, I remember.”
“Was this when you two were working together?” Phoebe asked him… more like interrogated him.
“Yes, it was.”
“You didn’t tell me about this.” Her tone held a bit of disapproval.
“Ok, well now you know.” He shrugged his shoulders like it wasn’t a big deal. And he was right, it really wasn’t.
“Really Sean? What else have you not told me about?!” She raised her voice at him. I cringed on the inside a bit.
“Oh get a grip of yourself!” Lily said. She couldn’t stand Phoebe’s attitude.
“Excuse me!” Phoebe exclaimed.
I sighed and stood up.
“I’m really sorry but I can’t do this. This was a huge mistake.” I said to everyone before I walked out.
All the tension and arguments were making me feel light-headed. And frankly, I wasn’t here for it.
“Sophia!” Sean called after me. He stood up, leaving Phoebe in order to follow me all the way into the kitchen.
“Sean, please go back to your girlfriend, this doesn’t look good.” I said to him.
“Sophia wait, I think I understand what’s going on.” He said, closing the kitchen door behind him. We could talk privately but not for long, I could hear Lily and Phoebe arguing in the next room
“Then why don’t you talk some sense into your girlfriend! Better still, why did you agree to come here in the first place?”
“I didn’t know she was going to act like this! Look, Phoebe and I had on argument over you once.”
“What? Really?”
That was ridiculous. Why on earth would they fight over me?
“Yes, and I think she’s testing me. I believe that’s what she brought me here today..”
“Well, you’ve clearly failed the test by being here with me, and not by her side.” I said.
“I don’t care whatever game she’s playing, she’s clearly in the wrong. I’m here becasue I’m worried about you. Sophia, you shouldn’t be in a situation as stressful as this right now. Phoebe and I will leave. I’ll speak to her and get her to realise her mistake.”
“I’m really sorry about all of this.” I held my head with my hands and apologised. I was a bit overwhelmed.
“It’s not your fault, Sophia. Don’t apologise.” He made his way towards me.
“You’re right.” I said.
“Come here.” He said before he hugged me.
I hugged him too. Sean was such a good person and I really missed our friendship. Too bad we can’t be friends anymore. Phoebe will certainly not allow it… and neither will Adam!
The kitchen door opened and it was none other than Phoebe.
“I knew it!” She said.
“Phoebe, please stop.” I said.
“No! The only person who needs to be stopped is YOU! Everything always seems to be about you! I don’t get it! What’s so special in you anyway? What do guys see in you? All I see is an indecisive little bitch who wants all the attention to herself!!!”
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“That’s it. We’re leaving.” Sean said.
He walked over to her and grabbed her by the arm.
What’s gotten into her???
“Don’t you dare touch me!” She screamed. “I always knew you were still into her and this just proves it!”
“Phoebe… you’re embarrassing yourself. Stop talking. We need to go, NOW!” He warned.
“No!”
Sean managed to get her out of my apartment, but not after she screamed and kicked and shouted the words “I hate you!” to me.
Lily and I were left in a complete state of shock. We never thought Phoebe could ever act like that. She said so many hurtful things to me, it was like she’d secretly hated me all this while.
“Well, that sure wasn’t attractive.” Lily said when they’d left.
I couldn’t help the tears that fell from my face and she noticed.
“Hey, hey, don’t cry. None of this is your fault.” Lily held me and wiped my face.
“I can’t believe I just lost one of my best friends.” I sniffed.
“It’s okay Sophia. She was never a friend. You know what they say, Jealousy is a disease. And unfortunately, Phoebe caught it bad. Hopefully she gets better soon.”
“But she’s right. Everything she said was true. I took everything for granted. What I did to both Sean and Adam was completely wrong. I’ve been such a bitch to both of them, especially Adam. How is he still able to love someone like me?” I cried.
“Sophia… Do not let Phoebe’s words get into your head. She’s crazy! You are an amazing person! You’re not a bitch, you were only looking out for yourself.”
“I don’t know about that, Lily. I don’t deserve anything that I have.” I cried some more.
“Oh for heaven’s sake! Sophia, by saying that you’re letting her win! She’s getting to you! And you can’t let that happen! Come, let’s go get some rest okay? Adam will be coming later to pick you up and you need to be ready.”
She tried to reassure me but I didn’t believe her. I still felt like shit for what I did. I played with Adam countlessly. One day I liked him, the next day I pretended that I hated him. Over and over again. Everything was like a mad rollercoaster for him, I’m surprised how he didn’t get sick. And Sean, I practically just used to keep me company when Adam left. My feelings for him were nowhere as strong as I had convinced myself that they were. I’m glad he caught on early and broke it off with me.
I was wrong to mess with both their emotions. That was a massive bitch-move, and I see Phoebe’s point. I am a horrible person and I don’t deserve Adam!
What I have with him right now is too good to be true. I wouldn’t be surprised if he decided to dump me last minute or if he moved on to someone else. That’s probably what I deserve.
I hope he doesn’t lose interest in me someday…. I mean, that would be perfectly understandable but right now, I’m just going to go along with it and hope for the best.
I still love him and I would do anything to fight for him…
For us!
I cradled my belly and gave it a warm reassuring rub.