Elena’s POV.
His lips moved passionately against mine, sending hurricanes of emotions through my body and igniting the sparks I thought I had buried years ago. It was really still within me and it was beginning to resurface.
I felt Narla howl in excitement, causing the emotions to totally overwhelm me. This was exactly what she has craved for, ever since we got here. Narla has contributed a lot to the flop of this mission with how uncontrollably drawn to him she had become.
My mind suddenly wandered to Darius. He was probably hiding off in a lonely corner sulking bitterly and here I was, in the arms of the same man I was sent to eliminate. The same man that had casted me out without a second thought years ago. If Darius hadn’t picked me, what would have become of me? And here I was, trading him for my selfish feelings.
All this wouldn’t have been possible if Narla had controlled herself or let me do it for her.
Summoning up enough strength, I placed my hands on his chest and shoved him as far away from me as possible. “What the hell was that for? What do you think you are doing?” My voice dripped nothing but anger and frustration.
He quickly moved a few inches from me, staring at me with pleading eyes. “My goodness, Elena, I am so sorry, accept my apologies please, I didn’t mean to upset you.” He spoke with remorse.
“You clearly meant to do that!” I couldn’t hold back my anger. The frustration of betraying Darius and not being able to control my feelings was now channeled to him in a bid to escape the torture, myself.
“You wanted to do this, didn’t you? That was why you brought me here, this was your motive, Killian!” I quickly turned away from him and started swimming out of the river.
I could feel him following closely behind.
“Elena, hold up please, hear me out.” He tried to grab my arms but I shrugged off his hands in disgust, not for him, but for myself. I can’t trust myself around him anymore.
“What huh? What do you want to say to me right now? You got what you wanted right? Let me go.” My voice was getting a lot louder now, tears beginning to well up in my eyes.
“I never brought you here because I wanted any of this Elena, I genuinely wanted to have a good time with you just like old times, I didn’t mean for this to happen.”
“And why did you want to relish old memories huh? You broke us by yourself, Killian, you destroyed everything we had, you have absolutely no right to desire the old moments!” Tears streamed uncontrollably down my cheeks as I spoke.
“Elena…”
“Killian I pleaded with you to believe me, I cried, I crawled on my knees, all I wanted was your trust, but you shattered all that we shared the second you believed the pack members, you looked at me with so much anger, you casted me away Killian, you did this to us,” I wept bitterly, grabbing my clothes from the floor and frustratedly pulled them over my head.
“I’m terribly sorry Elena, I shouldn’t have let my commitment to the pack overwhelm me, I haven’t stopped regretting my actions, please let me fix what I have broken,” his voice was low now, I could see tears beginning to well up in his eyes too even though he refused to let them fall.
“And how exactly do you plan to do that? By swaying me with sweet words huh? You thought that I’d let myself be deceived again because you said sorry a few times and brought me here?”
“What? no, of course not, you have to understand that I am truly sorry, and I’m willing to do all it takes to prove to you how sorry I am,” he mumbled.
“It’s already too late for all that Killian.” I watched as his eyes dropped in defeat.
“So what if you are sorry? it doesn’t change anything, everything is already so complicated, you should have believed me when I begged you to, right now, your sorry coupled with efforts even can’t fix anything,” I cried.
He inched forward but I raised my hands in the air, motioning him not to get any closer with a cold glare on my face.
“This ship already sailed a long time ago Killian, you have a luna now, and a beautiful child, move on and let this go, it’s beyond repair now.” I mumbled the last part with my voice breaking painfully, tears running through my eyes nonstop.
I turned around and started running away.
Suddenly, I felt him zoom over me with a heavy speed and come to stand before me, his hands quickly grabbed my both cheeks and looked into my eyes desperately.
“No, I’m not letting you go, Elena, not again. I failed us once, I’m not going to do that again.” He breathed heavily.
“Look at me, Elena please.” He tilted my face to stare at him. “I know what I did was wrong, I never stopped suffering from it since it happened, believe me when I say that I searched every single corner of the earth that is within my capacity for you, I lost myself because of your absence, Elena, please don’t let me go through that again.”
I stared at him with no single emotion running through me, I was trying to block away my ability to feel anything, maybe that way, I could avoid more complications to come, and it was working. The tears in his eyes now seemed like ordinary sweat of the body. It meant nothing to me as I gazed intently upon them.
“Elena, I can see the resentment in your eyes and I can’t stand you looking at me that way, it breaks my heart to see you this way, this isn’t the innocent and loving girl that I used to know.”
“I’m glad you finally see that I’m no longer the weak and naive girl that everyone took advantage of, that part of me is long gone and never coming back.” I spat with no ounce of emotion dripping through me.
“Elena…
“Let me go,” I struggled to break free from his grip but he posed more stronger than I thought.
“No.. I don’t care how bad the situation has gotten, but I’m never letting you go again until you believe my love for you is still as evergreen as the leaves by a waterside, I’m not giving up on that.”
His words swirled through my head, the emotions that I’ve successfully locked away seemed to have been pushed by an unknown force and it all came crashing through me heavily.
I needed to be away from him as fast as possible.
In a swift move, I struggled out of his arms and ran as fast as my legs could carry me, towards my house.