MAEVE HAWTHORN.
Anger tore at me and I felt my stomach tearing into shreds as I struggled to stand up. My legs hurt, my body ached like a fucking bitch and my asshole and pussy stung.
How dare he? Just how fucking dare him?!
“Why do you get to be the one on the other end of the ‘using’?!” I yelled at him, not caring that my throat was hurting so much I have no idea how long I can keep talking for.
His brows raised as he stared at me as if I was out of my mind and didn’t know what I was saying and quite frankly, he’s right.
I have no idea what I’m saying but I know damn well how I’m feeling and asides for the insane pleasure that’s still making my pussy vibrate and my legs shake, the feeling of peak satisfaction, another thing I’m feeling right now is insane anger.
“We both had an orgasm, didn’t we?” I snapped, not thinking before letting the words fall out of my mouth, “so why am I the only one being used?” I went on.
“I used you too, just because I’m female doesn’t mean that I’m the only one that can be used in whatever this sick, twisted relationship we have is.”
“I got to use you to satisfy myself too, so get off that stupid high horse of yours and stop thinking that only you are the ALMIGHTY!”
My chest was heaving, my breath became heavier than usual and the more I spoke, the angrier I became but as usual, he only had an eyebrow raised, flashing me with the most uninterested look I’ve ever seen.
I hate him! I absolutely do hate him! I shouldn’t have come in here in the first place but I wasn’t thinking!
“I don’t give two fucks who you actually think you are but I want you to know that you’re not him and there’d no way in hell that you could be him!”
“You’d always be nothing but a jerk, an asshole and an arrogant prick!” I snapped but somehow, the awful things I’d just said only got a smile out of him as he started getting close to me.
I felt a bile lodged in my throat and it took every willpower that I had in me to push it down my throat and lift my head so that I was looking directly in his eyes.
“I don’t care,” his voice was cold, piercing right through my chest and draining my lungs of air as I opened my mouth to speak, “shut the door.” He added before I could say anything and the next thing I know, he was out of my sight.
Groaning in frustration, I slipped into the gown I’d worn when I was coming to confront him and made my way out of his room, leaving his door widely open, letting the petty side of me take over.
Stomping my feet as hard as I could, I made my way back to my room and I could feel the judgmental eyes boring holes into my back as I walked.
They must have heard all the embarrassing things I said to Enzo while he was fucking the life out of me. The thought of it made my cheek burn as I increased my speed just so I could get away from the eyes tearing me apart in the hallway.
“Good going, Maeve Hawthorn.” A voice stopped me in my tracks right when I was about to open the door and I didn’t need a soothsayer to tell me it was Clara, her voice gave her away already.
“What is it?” I snapped, the last thing I wanted was to be reminded of what just happened between Enzo and I, “you heard, big deal, it’s not the first time two people would have sex and one of them would be loud.” I rolled my eyes as I made it to my room.
Clara didn’t say anything as I tried to sit but the pain that shot through my entire body jolted me right up until I was back on my feet again.
“Son of a bitch!” I winced, doing everything in my power to hide the fact that I was in pain but knowing Clara, nothing gets past her, it’s the only thing her and Scarlett have in common.
“I want to judge you, like really, but I won’t because I totally understand,” she said and I could hear the hint of laughter in her voice.
“With those bruises all over your body and slap marks on your face, not to talk of the fact that you can’t sit down at all, you’ll have to cancel your outing with Scarlett for today.” She laughed.
My lips parted, mouth opened but before I could say anything, Clara had already gone out of my room, leaving me alone with my thoughts.
“I hate everyone!” I squealed, thinking about what Clara had just said and knowing how right she was, I walked into the bathroom to take another shower.
After showering, I threw on something really comfortable and slouched on the bed after grabbing my phone. My head felt really light too and I knew I needed a nap after everything.
“Hey, babe, what’s up?” Scarlett’s happy voice came from the other end of the phone as soon as she picked up, “I’m really looking forward to our outing today.” She squealed.
“Oh, why did you just go off like that? I tried calling you back but couldn’t get through to you. What’s wrong, are you okay?” She asked, concern visible in her questions and voice.
I felt something in my heart break and I hated myself for what I was about to do to her, especially after hearing her go on and on about all the places she wanted us to visit.
“Scarlett, I’m really sorry,” I apologized, my voice really low as I yawned, “I’m not feeling too well right now but I promise that I’ll make it up to you.” I assured her.
“I knew it!” She was almost yelling, “is it Enzo? Did he say you can’t leave the house because I swear to God, I’m gonna-”
“It’s not that,” I cut in before she could finish talking, “I’m really just not feeling good but I’ll be better when I get a good sleep.” I promised her in hopes that it would change her mind.
“Fine,” she sighed, “you’ve been stressing yourself out a lot lately but I’m not going to take No for an answer next time!” She affirmed.
“I miss you so much and was really hoping we could spend time together and outside Enzo’s house.” She added and I smiled.
“I know and I’m really sorry,” I apologized to her, “I promise I’ll make it up to you and I’ll make it hard.” I said and she laughed.
“Great then, I’ll talk to you later, you should get your beauty sleep. I love you babe.” She said before hanging up the call.
Dropping my phone on my bedside table, I curled up like a cat, pain rippling through every fiber of my being as I tried to sleep.
I just hope all the parts that need healing don’t take long to heal.