MAEVE HAWTHORN.
I didn’t expect that I was going to be able to talk to Levi on a deeper level. I could still feel my heart in my throat and it’s not because I was scared of him.
There’s no disputing the fact that I’m scared, I’m extremely scared of the kind of feelings I have for Enzo and how badly it was going to affect him.
‘I have to show him that he’s worth loving, huh?’ I muttered to myself as I sat on the chair right beside Levi’s table as if I was going to lose my life if I stood up.
I’d already told him that I didn’t want to leave him and I guess that can translate to me being in love with him and frankly, I can’t shake off these feelings inside of me.
Why does Levi have to pour all of these out to me when my feelings are such a mess?
Do I really want to get deeply involved with a man like Enzo? Saying what I did at the dining table means I already know all the risks and yet, I’m diving deep into the danger.
It means that I would have to be the one to take responsibility for whatever happened to me because right now, at this point, he’s not keeping me here anymore, I’m staying on my own will.
Should I have taken him up on his offer when he laid it down? Maybe I should have told him that I wanted to leave.
Sighing, I made my way out of the hospital room with my mind a total mess as I walked down the long hallway, my mind drifted off to Enzo and I shivered.
A sharp twinge of pain tugged at my chest, making it difficult for me to breathe. My head was pounding and sweats were starting to form at my temple.
I know this feeling, I’ve felt it before. I feel it anytime someone I’ve grown so attached to is in danger.
ENZO!
As fast as I could, I ran to the waiting room where Enzo’s men were waiting for me. They all looked gloomy like they usually do and so it was hard to tell what was going on or what they were thinking.
“I’m going back home now to wash up,” I started even though my heart was beating crazily in my chest.
Talking to them when Enzo wasn’t around was something that I’d never tried before because I just couldn’t help but think that they probably hate me.
“You guys should stay with Levi, I’ll be quick and come back as soon as I can.” I finished as calmly as I could because I didn’t want them to think I was ordering them around.
“Some of us will go with you and some of us will stay with boss Levi.” One of the men spoke, he was the scariest of them all and I almost bit my own tongue as I nodded.
I didn’t have it in me to argue with them or do anything. If they want to follow me then they’re free to do so because a weak person like me can’t do anything to them.
“But- You… you know, you don’t have to-”
“We can’t let you go back to the house alone,” the man cut in before I could finish talking, “Boss has a lot of enemies around and we won’t be able to curb whatever is going to happen if something happened to you.” He finished.
I felt heat rush to my cheeks as I blushed and looked down at my feet, I felt like a very important princess that could be considered as the king’s weakness.
It’s both a good and a bad thing.
“Okay then.” Was all I could manage to say as I started walking in front with the scary man and one other man behind me.
It didn’t take long to get to the parking lot and I got in the back passenger seat while both men sat in the front with one of them driving.
Sighing, I pondered what Levi had told me at the hospital and nothing I tried could get his words out of my head, it filled me with a different kind of urge.
The urge to know Enzo better. The urge to know what possibly happened in his past to make him as heartless as he is now.
I want him to sit with me and really bare his heart to me, tell me everything going on with him.
“We’ve arrived.” A voice jolted me out of my thoughts. I had no idea that I was that lost in thoughts but I snapped out of it.
“Thank you very much.” I relayed my appreciation as I got out of the car and started making my way into the house.
“MAEVE!” A familiar voice called and I didn’t need to lift my head up to know that it was Clara. I looked up to see her brows drawn together.
She looked really worried and scared as she rushed to hug me and took my hand in hers, “I’m so glad you’re okay.” She said, plunging me into an abyss of confusion.
“Why? What’s wrong? Why won’t I be okay?” I chuckled nervously, my heart was still thumping really hard in my chest.
My stomach was clenched tight and despite not being injured, I could feel pain shooting through every fiber of my being.
I hope Enzo is okay.
“I don’t know, Master Enzo came home, he was really injured and I thought-”
“Really?! Where is he now?!” I interrupted before she could explain further. Hearing Enzo was injured loosened another kind of emotion in me.
My eyes were wide and it stung and felt hot, I didn’t think that I’d gotten so attached to him to not be able to stop crying just because of the mere thought of something terrible happening to him.
Clara had also said that he came back home injured and-
“He went back in a hurry.” She answered my question with a low voice and I listened as she told me that she didn’t know what had happened.
She was worried about me because she had thought that I’d gotten caught up in whatever Enzo had going on.
Her words only caused fear to knot even deeper and tighter into me. Panic like I’d never known or experienced before welled up in my throat as I realized a shiver of panic.
“I- I need to clear my head.” I muttered as I hurried past her, the only thing on my mind was to call him and hope that despite whatever was happening, he would answer my call.
Rushing into the room we’d shared overnight, I saw the new phone he had gotten for me lying around on the table and picked it up before walking out of the room.
A part of me felt like Enzo had imputed his number in the new phone, after all, that’s what men like him do in the movies I’ve seen but when I went to the contact list, it was empty.
There was no way for me to contact him and I needed to speak with him. To know that he’s okay. That he’s still alive.
Without thinking, I bolted downstairs and met the scary man that had followed me back home standing outside.
His brows raised and I didn’t need a saint to tell me that he was confused. I hadn’t changed and cleaned up when that was what I said I wanted to do.
“Call Enzo!” I ordered without caring about his scary demeanor, his brows raised even higher, “ENZO DE-LUCA! Fucking CALL HIM!” I yelled.
My patience was wearing thin, the fear in my throat welled up even more, turning into a bile that made it difficult for me to speak again or breathe.
My chest heaved as the scary mental image kept coming to me, my knees felt weak and I could feel myself getting seriously cold from within.
I might not be entirely sure of what these feelings are but I do not want to live in a world where Enzo isn’t. Not when I already know what life is like with him in it.
“I’m afraid we can’t,” the man finally spoke, his face didn’t show the slightest hint of emotion, “we’ve tried reaching him lots of times but we couldn’t.” He added.
How could he say that with a straight face?! Enzo could be dying! He needs help and he’s saying-
“We also can’t interfere in the fight so we’ll have to believe he’s alright and wait for him to come home.” He finished and my eyes widened.
How can they believe he’s alright when it’s very clear that he isn’t!
Unable to say anything, my bones felt feeble and my legs wobbled as I walked back into my room and with shaky hands, I punched in my best friend’s phone number.
The phone had barely rung and her cherry voice was already sounding on the phone, “Hello!” She said.
“Scarlett.” I mumbled, my voice breaking as tears flowed freely down my cheeks, it was as though a dam had broken in my eyes.
“MAY?!” She yelled, “JESUS CHRIST! Where are you? I’ve been worried about you! You suddenly disappeared and- that aside, I’m glad you’re okay, where are you right now?” She bombarded me all at once.
“S- Scar- I’m- I-” I sniffled, unable to get my words out, breathing was also difficult as hot, stinging tears ran down my cheeks.
“You know what? Fuck talking on the phone, share your location with me and I’ll come to you.” She said and a single beep followed.