Asher
“You have to eat. You can’t continue torturing and starving yourself.” Dami said as she placed a tray of food in front of me.
I stared at the tray of food as though it was poison. I didn’t feel like eating. It had been hell without Kayla by my side and each day got worse than the last. I missed everything about her. Her inflexible nature, the deep blush on her cheeks, the way she smiled, the way her eyes lit up when sees me, and the erotic moans from her mouth whenever I touched her intimately.
I missed the way her body angled towards me as though she would die if she didn’t get closer. I was so messed up that I even missed our disputes.
I missed having her by my side at night, even though we didn’t get much of that. The little moment that we did was enough to leave an everlasting effect.
Each day got harder to endure and there was still no information concerning Emily’s whereabouts these past years. Things had become worse in the castle, with the way Emily kept getting close to me since Kayla left but I wasn’t responding.
Kayla had left such an effect on me that no one could touch my heart or my body.
“Take this away Dami. I don’t want it.”
She flinched at my tone. I didn’t mean for my words to be harsh but I have been extremely grumpy since Kayla left.
“Please Asher, you need to eat something, you haven’t eaten since Kayla left. You can’t keep starving yourself.”
My jaw clenched. “I don’t have the appetite. That’s why.”
“For four freaking days?” She yelled at me.
I sighed and buried my clenched fist under my long, flowy robe. “I don’t want to talk about this Dami. I have a lot on my mind and food is the least of my problems.”
The truth was I couldn’t bring myself to eat. This was my way of punishing myself for letting her go.
I was tempted to go look for her, to make sure that she was doing alright without me but I knew the moment I saw her and took a sniff of her scent coupled with her beautiful smile, I would be a complete goner.
I hung my head and wondered how fast everything had changed. It felt like I didn’t have a life without my sweet Kayla.
“Why are you doing this to yourself, Asher?” Dami screamed
“What do you mean?” I asked her
“It is so obvious that you have been miserable without Kayla and it’s quite clear to me who you love. You were doing alot better when you thought Emily was dead and you accepted Kayla to be your wife. You were starting to look happy again.
Now that you’re left with Emily and Kayla is gone. I have never seen you look so broken and deserted, not even when we all thought that Emily was dead.
This should be your answer if you have any doubts or questions about your feelings. If everyone around you could see it then why can’t you?
I saw the way Kayla looked at you, she cherished and respected you. It was so obvious that she was heartbroken when she left. Why haven’t you gone after her? What are you waiting for, brother?” She paused as her gaze swept through me.
“I hate to see you like this. I hate to see you being too hard on yourself. I hate to see you hurting and torturing yourself. First, you spent all these years blaming yourself for Emily’s death. I watched you suffer day after day and I never interfered. I understood that you needed time to mourn her. But this is completely different, the woman that you are longing for and craving is still alive and not far from you. Why are you sitting here and sulking when you can go to her? Tell me, brother, why are you denying yourself happiness? You should go and bring her back to the castle before it is too late.”
I was surprised by Dami’s outburst. She was not someone to ever get this worked up over something. Dami had always been the quiet one among us, and for her to explode meant that this whole situation must have been bothering her alot.
I opened my mouth to respond but I closed it shut again. What could I possibly say?
Her words were completely true. Everything she said was the sad reality of my life. Why was I denying myself happiness?
I noticed that something had caught Dami’s eyes behind me, I followed her gaze to find Robin at the doorway.
He looked like he had seen a demon. I hated this look of his because it always came with disturbing and heart-wrenching news.
The last time I had seen him like this was when he brought news of Emily being alive and it turned out to be true.
What could be the problem now?
“Have you heard the news?” He asked me, as he was breathing like someone who had just finished a marathon.
I wasn’t concerned with whatever he had to tell me. I didn’t fucking care about anything if Kayla was not involved. She was the only thing on my mind, the planet would collapse right now and it wouldn’t bother me as much as losing her did.
“There’s news of an upcoming wedding in the council.”
My eyes snapped to him at the mention of the council. A wedding? Who could be getting married in the council and I wasn’t informed?
“I am not sure you want to see this?” He said as he held out something that looked like a wedding card close to his chest.
I narrowed my eyes. What could be so bad that he didn’t want to show me?
“Give that to me Robin,” I demanded
“I will give it to you once you promise not to overreact,”
His fear only incited my anger and desperation. The more he spoke the more I felt it had something to do with Kayla. She was the only reason I could lose my damn mind and Robin knew that.
I got up from the divan and faced him with a glare. “I’m not going to ask again, let me see the card right now.”
He hesitated a bit and finally did as I asked. I took the card between my fingers and hurriedly scanned the words.
“What the fuck is this?”