Amirah’s Pov
~It aches~
I am stuck in this dimension where everything In my life was nothing but ill luck.
A tear drop slide down my cheek and splashes down on my forehand, I was confused I didn’t prepare myself for this I couldn’t just believe it.
“No, it can’t be her my sister name is Aimya Rivera not Avery, I saw the news when they announced.. when they announced her forged death.” my emotions betrayed me overwhelmed by the sudden news I couldn’t hold back my tears.
“You were made to believe she was dead Amirah, from her perspective she thought that was the only way to protect you.” he said remorsefuly I couldn’t bring myself to believe it the more I thought of it, everything was unraveling itself.
I never knew her backstory, she was always trying to get close to me, the time I went missing she hired detectives to find me.
She tried reaching out to me everytime I shut her out, she was basically taking care of me and I didn’t fucking notice she was basically next to me everyday of my life and I was so blind to notice her.
She was the first to come to the station when I was found, she always looked after me and she was trying to make me open to her.
When she died I cried so much my heart ached it was like a gunshot to my heart and now I know why, I felt some connection with her but I just ignored it and now I know she was my sister, I cried so hard because somewhere actually in my thoughts knew my sister was dead but I just shrugged it off.
“Why didn’t she tell me? Why did she do all of that? Why? ” I broke into a sob.
Vincent got up looking down at me, I couldn’t feel anything anymore the person I love died probably because of me, they killed my sister and it’s all my fault.
“Remember your first Therapist?” I looked back at him with my lifeless expression.
“Doctor Gael.” I voiced emotionlessly.
“all those times you went for therapy because people thought you lost your mind and couldn’t believe the fact your sister was dead you actually went for hypnosis sessions before you were deported back to your sister.” he said
“I tried interviewing him about you but he wouldn’t give me answers, the ball is in your court Amirah it’s your choice if you really want to know what happened.” he said as Thiago walked in seeing me in tears.
“I have to go, goodbye Amirah it was pleasure doing business with you.” he said striding over.
“Vincent.” I called, he turned as I got up and walked up to him.
“Thank you.” I muttered weakly he only nodded as I walked up to Thiago.
“Amirah? What happened? ” Thiago asked concerned, I only shook my head brushing past him and to the car.
He followed getting into the car as well we were silent for a while I was still processing everything in my thoughts.
Then what of Alec? What is he to me? Is he responsible for the death of my parents and probably Avery’s and Ariel?
Who am I? Is my name even Amirah?
Maybe that’s why Avery lied to me and did all this but why couldn’t she just tell me instead.
“Amirah? ” Thiago muttered.
I cleaned off my tears sobbing quietly I couldn’t look at Thiago’s I’m not ready to tell him anything yet.
“Please take me home.” my words were breaking and my heart was bleeding.
“Are you okay? What happened? ” he asked I went quiet I felt death and at this point I wanted death.
“Just take me home.” I said coldly he only nodded and started up the engines as we drove home.
The next day I didn’t eat anything, I couldn’t build up any appetite the conversation with Vincent yesterday ran through my thoughts I was quiet and numb and probably thought about suicide at the time.
Thiago was worried I just sat down in my room in my thoughts, resentment and bitterness towards myself filled my thoughts, maybe if I starve myself longer I’ll die and no one would ever be endangered by me.
Another day passed I laid on my bed empty not having any will to live anymore, I weakly got up from my bed, Thiago was outside making calls probably to Hunter.
I went to the kitchen, Thiago hid all the knives after I picked up one the other day and tried to end my life, there was a bottle of acid sitting at the far end of the Kitchen that he was supposed to put away, I picked it up and quickly got a glass cup and poured the acid in the glass then later put away the glass.
I picked up the glass weakly as tears rolled down my cheeks.
“I’m sorry Hunter.” I said about to drink it but a bullet knocked it away from my grasp, I looked up to see Thiago who raced up to me and rushed me to the tap to dilute the acid that got on my hands.
“You should have shot me instead.” I said lifelessly looking down at the waer subsiding the acid concentration.
He let’s go of my hand looking back at me in disbelief.
“What the fuck were you thinking? What did Vincent tell you ? why the fuck are you trying to kill yourself ?” he muttered.
“As if you’d care.” I scoffed.
“I do care if I didn’t I’ll let you die anyways.” he said frustrated. “Then let me die.” I yelled back at him he searched my expression, my eyes were empty, my skin was pale and I was weak.
He pulled me into a hug, running his fingers through my hair why I sobbed loudly.
A few minutes passed by after crying on Thiago, we slowly disengaged from the hug.
“Fine I’ll let you do what ever you want you can kill yourself but before you do anything let’s go on a mission if I can’t convince you after the mission then you can kill yourself.”