Jessica’s Point of View.
He didn’t ask me anything or try to use words to comfort me, I liked it that way, I don’t want to hear any consolation words now, his hands and body rocking me and caressing my back is more than enough for me, that is what I needed.
“Am…. Am sorry about your clothes, I didn’t want to stain it”
“No worries, you can cry more if you want, I don’t mind okay?”
“Uhm, am I a bad person for not listening to her and grandfather?”
“No sweetheart, you are not, you are just angry okay which is normal, once you are okay then you may or may not listen to her, it’s your choice ”
“Okay, I understand ”
He held me like that till I stopped crying, I fell asleep soon after, and the nightmare started.
* * * *
I was hiding in a closet trying not to make any sounds, warm tears were falling rapidly from my eyes, but no sound came out from my throat, I stayed as silent as possible to avoid the person trying to find me.
My heart dropped to my stomach when I heard the footsteps coming into the room, my eyes widened in fright and I didn’t know what to do anymore than to kept quiet, I put my hand over my face covering my nose and mouth to control my breathing, I have done this multiple times so I am kind of used to it.
“Where are you my lovely Jessica, where are you, hehehehehehehe”
I shook my head as if saying no to the person even when I know they can’t see me, I brought my knees up to my chest cuddling myself, if I get found out, I am in trouble,
“Thump, Thump, Thump”
The person started hitting the closet I was in, the table, the bed, but I still held myself from making any noise at all, I need not to be found out.
“Where the fuck are you, fucking bitch!! Where are you Jessy, I just want to talk to you ”
I shook my head more, the steps continue coming closer to the closet, (please, please, please ), then suddenly there is silence, I waited a bit and the door opened and closed and no more noise, I stayed silent for a while and after being sure no one was with me anymore, I breathed out heavily, the closet door swung open and a heartless face smiled at my frightened face,
“Gotcha!!”
“Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!”
* * * *
“Ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!”
A hand held me immediately and u started struggling to free myself,
“Let me go! Let me go! Let me go, please let me go”
I started kicking, twisting, swinging at me assailant but they overpowered me and held my hand above my head,
“Please let me go, please ”
“Jessica, wake up, it’s me, wake up, Jessica!!”
My teary eyes shot open immediately and it took me a moment before I relaxed and see where I was, I wasn’t in the closet, I was not small, am now an adult, I am okay now, am safe, I have a home and a husband,
“Shh, baby girl, you are okay now, you are safe okay now hush, don’t cry”
It took a while before I calmed down, Xavier held me close to himself after I am done crying my eyes out, I bet my eyes and face are so puffy and ugly,
“Will you tell me what happened?”
“……”
“You can keep quiet if you want okay”
“…. No I will tell you, it’s not a big deal”
“It is, something that had you screaming and this scared, for goodness sake Jessica you are brambles, if your aunt’s presence is tormenting you then I will make sure she never appears in front of you ever again okay?”
“Okay, I will tell you everything ”
“Okay, if you say so”
I sat up and he followed suit, he still stretched his legs and spread it apart, then I sat in between them with my back on his chest and his hands around my waist. I inhaled deeply and exhaled before I started my story.
“My parents died because of a car accident, all my relatives refused to take me in, my aunt was the only one who agreed to to have me, she packed into my parents house with his husband and he took over my mother’s business, we were doing well before one day my aunt noticed some painting missing in the house and when she found out it was her husband’s doing, she confronted him about it and he vehemently denied it”
I stopped to take a deep breath and Xavier caressed my hand to show he is listening to me.
“My aunt didn’t say anything after that, we lived happily, my aunt took very good care of me, getting me whatever I wanted, a few years later, mum’s business started having a little problem, my aunt being an over thinker didn’t take it well but she still made sure I never lacked and to make matters worse, she discovered that her husband was a gambler, he steals things from the house to sell and fund his gambling lifestyle, she was furious, they started quarrelling, when she is with me, my aunt pretended to be fine but the black eye bag under her eyes shows that she is not fine at all”
I took the water on our night stand and drank a little to soothe my throat, Xavier kissed my head gently,
“Her husband apologised and we went back to the peaceful family we were, she worked harder and was able to lift mum’s business back up again and she became fine, she and her husband became closer than ever and I took became their daughter, but as time goes on my aunt became easily irritated and angry, sometimes she will snap at me without me doing anything, she would apologise after she gets herself or when her husband gives her water and takes her inside to rest, she went to the hospital and they diagnosed her pregnant”