Chapter 93
I paced around in my study room and I couldn’t stop reminiscing on what Isabelle said, I didn’t want any of that to happen, Azalea mate can’t come back…he can’t claim what already belongs to me.
If only she could just suddenly feel her inner wolf and get pulled to her mate, then I could use that as a chance to kill her mate but it’s fucking locked!!
I angrily threw the cup in my hand to the wall and shattered into pieces and I couldn’t help but yell in anger.
“She is mine!!!!” I yelled as my hand couldn’t even stay in one place and I didn’t know when I had gone for something else and threw everything around just when I was going for the vases when the door opened and Lucy walked in.
“Alpha Federico !!” She exclaimed while staring around in surprise at how I had just ruined my study room, I still couldn’t stop myself from shouting out loud.
Lucy noticed more things were about to get destroyed by me and rushed up to me, pulling me in for a tight hug.
“Stop it, Alpha Federico, it isn’t worth it at all…. Stop forcing it please,” Lucy said but I knew she must have thought I was depressed and did not understand I was about to lose Azalea.
I had no choice but to pull her closer to me and hug her as surprisingly I became a bit relieved or should I say I was very relieved, she stroked my back gently for a few minutes and I could then feel all my anger and nerves calming down but I didn’t show it out and just continued to hug her and letting go of everything I had just finished shouting about, it was slowly more than ten minutes and I didn’t know when I went for her lips, I kissed her with so much desperation and urgency.
She began to do the same thing she does to always place me in the mood but I was going to risk it and didn’t want her to have Azalea and her fighting so I pushed away, she staggered away from me a little with a very surprised look.
“Alpha! Did you just push me off when I was the same and the only person to care about you?” AE questioned me about still coming back so I could kiss her but I stopped her yet again and she couldn’t help but scoff and I could very much understand her.
“I know you are really angry with me but that’s the only way…. Azalea would soon be my Luna and I don’t want anything that ruins that for the both of us so please don’t kiss me or touch me till I marry Azalea.” I pleaded with her but she clearly wasn’t going to just let it go but instead paced up to me.
“But I am your bride too, you still want to deprive me of the same thing I am equally with Azalea on,” Lucy yelled at me.
I took a deep breath, trying to calm myself down before responding to Lucy. “Lucy, I understand that you’re hurt and angry, but you have to understand that Azalea is my mate. She is the one I am destined to be with, and I can’t ignore that.”
Lucy crossed her arms, her expression still filled with frustration. “But I thought we had something special, Federico. I thought we were going to be together and even sexually.”
I sighed, running a hand through my hair. “Lucy, we had a connection, I won’t deny that. But it wasn’t the same as what I have with Azalea. She is my other half, my soulmate. I can’t just throw that away.”
Lucy’s eyes filled with tears, and her voice trembled as she spoke. “So, what? You’re just going to forget about me? Forget about everything we had?”
I shook my head, my voice firm. “No, Lucy. I won’t forget about you. You’ve been a loyal bride and supporter, and I appreciate that. But I can’t continue our relationship in the same way. I need to be faithful to Azalea.”
Lucy’s tears spilled over, and she turned away from me, wiping them away. “I can’t believe this, Federico. I thought you cared about me.”
I stepped closer to her, placing a hand on her shoulder. “Lucy, I do care about you. But my duty as an Alpha is to my mate and my pack. I can’t let personal feelings get in the way of that.”
She turned to face me, her eyes filled with anger. “So, I’m just supposed to accept that I’m second best? That I’ll never have the same love and attention as Azalea?”
I took a deep breath, trying to keep my own anger in check. “Lucy, it’s not about being second best. It’s about honouring the bond I have with Azalea. I can’t change that, and I won’t apologise for it.”
Lucy scoffed, her voice dripping with bitterness. “Well, I hope you’re happy with your precious mate. I hope she brings you all the happiness you’ve ever wanted.”
I felt a pang of guilt, knowing that Lucy was hurting because of my choices. But I couldn’t let that guilt sway me from what I knew was right. “Lucy, I’m sorry if this hurts you. But I have to follow my heart. I hope one day you can understand that.”
“I would never be able to understand Alpha Federico, amongst everyone you were here first And despite all the others…I was still faithful!!! I don’t know why you are so obsessed with a woman who isn’t even faithful to you!!” Lucy yelled about walking away but I pulled her back.
“What do you mean by that?” I asked calmly as I knew shouting wouldn’t make Lucy tell me the truth, Lucy cleaned her tears quickly before pacing closer to me.
“Luther, keep acting dumb while Luther explores your wife…you would blindly continue to share Azalea with Luther.”